There are things in life..

I just always have to remember i am blessed.

Sry if it is written choppy it is still so hard and emotional for me to write about.

I was in a car accident on monday afternoon driving to weatherford with two of my friends and sadly to say I was the one driving.
While on our way there a car infrount of us was driving with there trunk open and stuff hanging out of it, there was nothing hold it in and it looked as though things were starting to fall out of it.
In effort to not get hit by anyting I check to see if I cant change lanes. I turn on my blinker to show my intent and there was space. again looking when making the start of the move a car speeding badly came right into view out of my blind spot. I had almost hit them but pulled back and hit my brakes. Well my lovely Honda with anti-lock breaks locked up. The breaks were no longer working and I couldnt stop as the wheel of the car would not stop moving no matter how I fought. I knew that I needed to pull over the the side of the road and get the car to stop and do that without hitting anyone on the high way as well. I knew at that moment my life was meaningless and if anything nothing is to happen to Natalia and Jordan. So from the right lane my car went into the left then off to the side of the road and still not stopping into the guard rail (3 of them). It all happend so fast and was a total blurr. But the car took damage to the diver side only, and really it was a small dent in the back a pit of paint along the side and the daamge it worse would of only gotten me. my headlight and srrounding compleatly busted up. The winsheild wipper fluid came compleatly off .. but the box didnt brake, the casing for my head light was all smashed up but the lightbulb wasnt damaged at all, my car drives, we all all safe. I dont know how they are feeling but I know that I am a little sore. My right leg, that is always a bit swollen since my Sr year of highschool, has been pretty swollen even down to my foot and my knee is in some pretty bad pain, but like I show that on my face.
After it was all done and the car stoped I startd hypervenilating and shaking and couldnt move Natalia and Jordan got out of the car to look at it and started calling people. I was able to get out and look and fell to the ground crying. I dont remember much from the hour and a half we were out there.
The police wouldnt let me drive my car the two exits we had left bc even though it was looked at and fine to drive he wouldnt let me and called a wecker and didnt tell me it was being taken to an impound lot.
I babysit for for someone who is a machanic and him and his wife drove out to weatherford to look at my car and make sure it was driveable and he is also going to help me get a better deal on parts and the best places to go for the body work that has major work to be done.
Long story short my dad is more then pissed off. I am grounded beyond belife and I have to pay for everything. I had to pay the $151.65 to get my car out of the impound lot and I will have to pay the repairs as well, and my dad will not call the insurance componey.
My dad said that it will probly cost around $1500, then laughed, saying that is about the cost of a semester of school for me.
I already pay for school out of my pocket, not the car out of my pocket, I have two jobs, and I was forced to take the 2nd because I am not getting the hours I need at Kohls, so I do the babysitting M-F 8-3 thing. I am even looking into a 3rd job if I could. I have faith, but I am scared. Just the thought of not being able to get to go back to my favorite place on earth scares me.
I have half a mind once I fix up this car to just tell my dad that I fixed it, its mine and just move out of that house. I cannot live with him much longer. The way he treated Natalia and Jordan on the phone just makes me so mad at him, I cannot believe him sometimes.

I know that what could of happened could of been so much worse, I know that my heavenly father is with me and watching over me. No one is taken away before their time, I know that he saved us, and saved the car as well. My trust is fully in the Lord and I love him with all my heart.

So my car's name is Two Face.
Oneside perfect and like new, and the other is pretty messed up.



<3 Erin Christina