Again

It has become apparent that my depression is setting back in.
The thought that go through my head everyday and those that I work the hardest to keep out, but they have set in and there is no escape from them.
With everyday comes, yelling, cussing, crying, dispare, loss of hope, the light slowly fade away.
If I did not have Natalia in my life I know I would not be strong like I am now.
I am so greatful for my friends.
Talking with Kevin last night, I opened up and poured it all out to him and just started crying on the phone.
Things are not going the best for me right now.
Issues with my dad, I just cannot do anything right, no matter how hard I try. I get cussed at and yelled out for having stuff on my bathroom counter.
I get rejected/forgoten about for family dinner, I eat it by myself because they all forget that I am here or forget to tell me all together that we are having it.
I am working two jobs and still not making enough money to get myself by, since now I have to pay for car repairs from my car accident and for school.
This online class that I am taking has barly started and already it is stressing me out, but I need to talk it.
I know the Lord is there, watching over me. Sometimes I cant help but ask Why? Why are you picking on me? Is it not about time that you move on to someone else? Dont I already have enough to handle?
I know Heavenly Father wouldnt give me more then I could handle.
I know how blessed I am.
Just things are not how they should be.
I have moved back into my depression flunk and I have to hold strong to the light or I will be lost.


<3 Erin Christina