Let Your Light So Shine

I am failing at my updates
so I will do a quick post right now.
so friday i had a date ^_^
I went on a date with james.
It was a lot of fun!!
ok so there really isnt much to tell on the topic but i can tell you that i am keeping my end of the promise i made to myself.
I am becoming a better person and being who i need to be.
I am the one keeping him in cheack. He is not all talk .. he has game and it is the hardest thing in my life to resist that, but i am going in to the game and not playing, no matter how badly i have wanted to.
The thing is, the more he is not in check and i have to keep him in .. make me not like him that much. if he really doesnt care enough to respect things then i dont know what to do.
He says one thing but does another. He is doing a lot to impress me, and make sure he is doing things right, but thats one thing that annoys me with guys, is when they ask questions after questions concerning their status with me. Ok i cant really explain what i mean there, but it seems its more about him getting me then how i feel about him, like changing who he is.
On that note...
so one of my last posts was about me fixing my problems and being who i am supposed to be. I bore my testimony on sunday about it. James seems like he doesnt stand up for who he is. He wont talk about his mission proudly rather he masks it as just living in CA for 2 years. He doesnt stand proudly and strongly and a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints around people. from just one date I learned this. I called him out on it and i quoted 3Nephi 12:14-16. (ok i didnt qoute bc yea i dont know it by heart but i know the jist of it.
a city on the hill cannot be hid. does a man light a candle and hide it under a bushle, no but light a candle and let you light shine forth to the nations. let your light so shine!
I know that i dont do that all the time, but i am trying everyday to work on myself and stop hiding my candle, how can i ask someone else to do so when i still struggl with doing so. the past two years have helped me change that a lot, though, im not perfect at it yet.
there are still things i struggle with, like grasping the whole picture rather then focus on the present, Natalia has helped me out a lot with that. I am so blessed to have her around me to always remind me that its not the end, that yes my father loves me, that im not a screw up, and so many more things. I have a lot to work on in my life, everyone does. No one is perfect. Everyday we should always strive to be better saints, and help those around us.
I will let my light so shine, to shine forth and be a standered to the nations, i will no longer hide my candle but light it and let it shine on!


<3 Erin Christina