UGG

I spent to much time with friends that I didnt have time to do my reading and Insight paper, I will do that tomorrow, along with hours and hours of other hw, and my idea of handwashing all my clothes in the bath tub with me walking around in it trying to be the mixer thing ... yes this is what I have come down to in the matter of I dont ever have money to wash my clothes, I havent thought through drying yet.

I am so excited for one of my friends up here at school. He has gone through so veary much and turned his life around in the last year. I look at him and see a changed man then the boy I met last Jan. The boy I cried with and held in my arms telling everything would be alright. The boy who couldnt really make up his mind about me, but I stuck by his side as a friend no matter what pain he put me through, my feeling for him passed after try two of dating, but my feelings of compassion, hope, faith, and love/charity never went away -- even when I said I hated him! He had another meeting with the stake president not to long ago, and the answer he got last summer about him never being able to serve a mission has changed into a talking with the general athorities, and maybe even a letter sent into the first presidencey. It is amazing to see how much he has grown, I remember telling him the Lord works in his time, a no now doesnt mean a no forever, if you blessing talks about a mission there will be one sometime in your life. He told me tonight that he still has a letter I worte him months back, I think last summer, no no it had to have been winter becuase of the paper it was writen on -- I remember tearing it out of my Book Of Mormon jurnal -- everytime i see the riped pages in the back I know it was for that latter. He came across it the other day and he told me everytime he reads it he thinks of me and it fills him with comfort. I dont remember what was in the note, all I know is that it came from the heart. He wants to serve a mission so bad, this boy going from not wanting to serve and his past being such a mess and out of controle to now being such a great member of the church and wanting to serve and I can see the light in him, I am so proud of him. It is even better now that we can talk again.
My prayers are with Jared and his meeting on TH with his stake pres. it was hard saying goodbye when I dont know for how long I am saying goodbye for.
I am kinda at a loss for words, didnt really expect to write all that I did write.

I know that through the power of the Lord, all things are possible, a boy who has had a past of many many many screw ups, mistakes, and falling away can be in this spot today, who is so close to hopefuly serving a mission -- the greatest thing any worthy memeber of the church can do. I look up and admire all those who choose to serve missions. I do believe that if you are worthy to serve then you should serve!! Most LDS girls have their minds set .. RM all the way!

The Lord however does work in his own ways and time, as Jared is home, and we dont know what the Lord holds in store for him.

Then I guess there is me, who knows that above anything and everything BYU-I is were I am meant to be, but doesnt know how I am to pay to be here anymore.

I love my Heavenly Father and have given my life to him, to follow him and do all that he has asked me to do.

well it is way past my bed time, so gunna read my scriptures and pray. Didnt at all mean to write all this, but maybe there was a reason for it.

<3 Erin Christina