ponder after class

so this isnt excastly what i was going to write yesterday, but it is pretty close to it.

for my communicatioins class we have a blog after each class to do, and we have a topic that we have to write on .. well i just wrote my blog for tusedays class .. and it has pecies of what i wanted to say in my blog yesterday .. but hopefuly this will get the point across

Self-concept is immportent becuase if you lack it then you really dont know who you are then how do you know what you want and if you dont know what you want then how do you communicate that. Self-esteem is kinda the lack of self-concept. Always being down on yourself, and not thinking you are good enough at/for anything.

sitting in class going of this was a bit hard for me to sit there and be told that there really isnt such a thing as self-esteem, as i struggled with issues in high school. I didnt have high self-esteem, and now I am being told there is not such thing as self-esteem. I didnt feel like I was good enough for anything, I look around and see people who are so much better and maybe i need to be more like that person. The scripture D&C 18:10 is the scripture in the Young Woman Personal Progress book under the value of individual worth and there really is not better scripture for that value. Individual worth was my favorite value, and that was my favorite scripture. So when I found myself crying in my room, i would always remember that scripture, it got me through my lowest moments in life, and still does. Knowing that no matter how the world see me or even how I see me, that no matter what, that God sees me as great, that is what pulls me through my darkest hours and coldest nights. Like in 2 Nephi I think it was to not lean on the arm of the flesh and rely on them, for the almighty see us as much greater then they will.

Then the scripte when King Benjamin calls us dirt, well I set my scriptures down and didnt know what to think about that. How can we be of such great worth, but be dirt. We need to be like the dirt. No one is better then anyone else, for we are all great in the eyes of God, but shouldnt try to be greater in the eyes of our fellow man. None of us will be as great as the greatest man who lived, Christ. The scripture is tell us basicly that we need to humble ourselfs, that we need not think any of us are better then anyone else.

If we put these things together, as we are humble in our confidince of ourselfs then the Lord will be with us and help us. In our confidince in ourselfs and knowing what we want, we will be able to get the message we want across to the people we are talking to clearly and understandable




oh and so no one wants to kill me i talked to my mom who yelled at me for not eating so i ate at like 5 and had a bowl of rice chicken and cheese ...


<3 Erin Christina