Fun Fun

Tonight was lots and lots of fun!! Jared came up for a visit and it made my day to see him!! Sunday we are doing a big dinner for him!! Make him know that we love him NO MATTER WHAT!! I cant wait to go on a walk with him like old times!

So today started off like a bad day ... like I wanted to cry bad day. I am just in soooooo much pain right now not even funny!! GAH! my friend Amelia and I have an inside joke about this, and so we say it and know EXCATLY what we are talking about!!
but my gosh!! It hurts even just laying in bed ... it was hard to dance and smile with the pain I am in, but I didnt let that stop me!!

So the pic is of me and Jared, we are trying to rebrake him in .. I mean he was only allowed to shake girls hands for 5 months and now he has girls hugging him, sitting on his lap, me being my self ... ;)

Tonight I also was excited because I danced with the guy who broke my heart a few months back. The one thing that I loved doing with HIM, we danced and I was fine!! It was sooo much fun to again be myself. Him and I, we are slowly but surely getting back to normal, mainly I think it is me who is the one who is getting there, but I am happy that I am doing it!!.

Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I have FINALY moved on. I love him now, but in the way you love a best friend. I see how happy him and his gf are and I am happy for him, yes there is still a bit of a sting that I know will always be there, but I can be happy and have fun with them.
OH and maybe the fact my mind is 67% consumed with another guy. Who like robert, matched everything on my life, EXCEPT that Robert had an exception with him, he isnt attrative in the least, but there was just something about him that made me like him soooooo much!! but Sam, OH MY GOSH! The most perfect thing I have ever seen. In Young Womans we always had to make these lists of what we want our man to be like. I often find one of two things and let others slide. I really havent been to well at keeping to my list. Robert was the only one who I kept to it on.

My Perfect Guy
-Return Missionary
-(that leads to) Gosple/scripture smart
-(leads to) Guid my family and teach my children and me
-DANCER - and loves it!
-MUSICLY inclined (sing, piano, guitar..)
-loves going on walks
-loves star gazing
-taller then me - so I have to stand on my tip toes to kiss
-Someone who I can just talk to .. about anything
-Someone who is so strong in the church, who can bring me up
-who i have to make myself better for, not bring myself down
-someone strong to help me be a better person
-someone who will never fall away and hurt my family as my dad has done
-nice lips!
-amazing smile
-makes me smile
-makes me laugh
-loves cuddling
-understands my blondness
-thinks my werid abnormal hiccups are cute!
...the list can go on and on.
what can I say .. I have HIGH standers and its about time that I stop messing around just for a makeout and being my old little "mormon slut" self and stick to my list!!
I already am trying to become a better person, so when it is time, I dont have a lot of work to do. When I got back up here a few weeks ago, I got a strong feeling that the time could be closer then I think, so I will be ready to meet my EC whenever that might be!


I am so tired right now. But still off a happy high! I cant wait to go on a walk with Jared this weekend!! I am just hoping it can be a good weekend .. after the last 2 weeks a good weekend is what I need!!

OH OH OH OH !!!! I forgot to say .. so I love dancing right, well there is one dance 4 different people have tried to teach me and well tonight for the first time I started waltzing and well didnt even know that we were doing it till I made a big deal that we were waltzing and I cant waltz, or thought that I couldnt at least, was never able to get the hang of it ... maybe sam was telling the truth when we were waltzing 2 weeks ago and said I was good at it. Guess the key is to not think about it! ya .. that was exciting though ... I CAN WALTZ!! YAY ME!!

well this is end of my post!! Its way after my bed time and I still need to read my scriptures!!


<3 Erin Christina