sry i have been test stressing the past few days ...which i will continue to all semester i promise you that much!
but just an update. ..
i got an 84 on my science exam, a 90 on my child development exam, a 80 on my health and wellness quiz and a i have no clue on my history exam becuase my teacher has to grade them, soooooo yay for a weekend full of stress.
i have clothes hanging and laying all over mine and cathy's room drying after my washing in the bath tub .. and i still have another half of what i had to wash ... i might try something else ... i took some pics of my fun in the bath tub being a human wahsing machine i will add it here once i upload the pics to my comp.
so i have had a good/bad past few days ... lets just hope they get better ... nothing bad happend to me to continue to bring me down ...
thats all for now ...
sorry nothing much to say ... so ready for the weekened .. though i will probly spend it doing homework!! yay!! thats college for you though :D
<3 Erin Christina
Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Got to love have like 8 chapters to read for HW
so now that its after my bed time I did just finsh my BOM hw. started reading at 9:30 and now finshed writing the instight. we had to read Alma 43-51 and well that much reading ... kinda loses the meaning by the end. but i did read it all, dont know how much of the end i comprehened .. but I had just rencetly read it so i know whats going on. but one of my favorite stories in Alma is that of Amalickiah and so that is what i did my inshight on. to me Amalickiah is the devil and the nephites are us. this story always reminds me that there is a way through everything even satan grasp.
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 707 Date: Jan. 26, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 47:10-35; 48:11-13; 17-18; 49:10-11; 18-23; 50:1-12; 18-20
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
The effects the devil can have over us and what we have to do to overcome him
3) What message for improvement is taught?
Amalickiah is like the Devil, like Satan who works on us every day, and the Nephites are us. 3 times he called unto Lehonti to come down to talk with him and 3 times he got turned down. Just like Satan never gives up and tries any and all ways so did Amalickiah. He tricked Lehonti into a false sense of security by telling him to bring his guards with him and then tricked him in to doing his will and doing what he needed to be done in his plan. Satan doesn’t keep promises, he uses us to get what he wants, just as Amalickiah wanted the kingdom, once he had what he wanted from Lehonti he killed him, Satan doesn’t care as long as you follow him and do his bidding. Once you do what Satan wants he turns his back on you and takes everything you have. He doesn’t care about what happens to you, Amalickiah didn’t care about the blood of his people, he just wanted to rule everything. We need to be like Moroni, who was one of the greatest heroes, and be men of God, and the devil shall never shake us. To dig a ditch and build up a strong fortress to keep Satan out of our lives, as the Nephites did to keep the Lamanites out. Don’t let him enter, destroy him as he tries to enter, give him no chance to make you give up and give in, stand strong against his attack and take the power to take him on and you have power over him not the other way around. As long as you follow the Lord you will be blessed and you will be able to withstand Satan and his attacks.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
So obviously when I read though these chapters I see Amalickiah as the Devil. I need to withstand him. He never gives up and never gives in. I do get scared sometimes, it feels like he has all control over me or that I can’t fight him off. I love the chapters and parts that I picked out because they give me strength. I know how to fight off Satan and his temptations. I need to get rid of him before he enters my heart. I need to always have a prayer in my heart and to always trust in the Lord and I will be protected. Recently I was struggling, and for a moment I questioned to Lord and at that moment I let my guard down, I filled in my ditch and let my wall crumble and Satan entered into my heart and took control. I questioned my testimony as a whole, and it was the worst and most terrifying thing I have ever experienced. I didn’t want to be thinking those things but I had let Satan into my heart and my mind and had lost the battle. I am lucky for the power of the priesthood, a friend came over right after this had happened and gave me a blessing, and the spirit was so strong in the room that Satan had no room to stay. I fell to my knees that night and told the Lord I would never let that happen again, how sorry I was for doubting him and I will never let that happen again. My life has been forever devoted to my Lord. I will keep my walls built up strong; destroy the Devil before he has the chance to enter into my strong hold. I will be like Moroni and never let the Devil shake me and I will stand with the men of God. I will no longer ever give Satan a chance to enter into my heart. I will follow God and keep that prayer with me so that I can be protected and not have to fall to Satan ever again.
so now i am off to finsh getting ready for bed and then praying and passing out!!
tests the next 2 days and got to get up in the morning without snooze buttening it!!
<3 Erin Christina
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 707 Date: Jan. 26, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 47:10-35; 48:11-13; 17-18; 49:10-11; 18-23; 50:1-12; 18-20
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
The effects the devil can have over us and what we have to do to overcome him
3) What message for improvement is taught?
Amalickiah is like the Devil, like Satan who works on us every day, and the Nephites are us. 3 times he called unto Lehonti to come down to talk with him and 3 times he got turned down. Just like Satan never gives up and tries any and all ways so did Amalickiah. He tricked Lehonti into a false sense of security by telling him to bring his guards with him and then tricked him in to doing his will and doing what he needed to be done in his plan. Satan doesn’t keep promises, he uses us to get what he wants, just as Amalickiah wanted the kingdom, once he had what he wanted from Lehonti he killed him, Satan doesn’t care as long as you follow him and do his bidding. Once you do what Satan wants he turns his back on you and takes everything you have. He doesn’t care about what happens to you, Amalickiah didn’t care about the blood of his people, he just wanted to rule everything. We need to be like Moroni, who was one of the greatest heroes, and be men of God, and the devil shall never shake us. To dig a ditch and build up a strong fortress to keep Satan out of our lives, as the Nephites did to keep the Lamanites out. Don’t let him enter, destroy him as he tries to enter, give him no chance to make you give up and give in, stand strong against his attack and take the power to take him on and you have power over him not the other way around. As long as you follow the Lord you will be blessed and you will be able to withstand Satan and his attacks.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
So obviously when I read though these chapters I see Amalickiah as the Devil. I need to withstand him. He never gives up and never gives in. I do get scared sometimes, it feels like he has all control over me or that I can’t fight him off. I love the chapters and parts that I picked out because they give me strength. I know how to fight off Satan and his temptations. I need to get rid of him before he enters my heart. I need to always have a prayer in my heart and to always trust in the Lord and I will be protected. Recently I was struggling, and for a moment I questioned to Lord and at that moment I let my guard down, I filled in my ditch and let my wall crumble and Satan entered into my heart and took control. I questioned my testimony as a whole, and it was the worst and most terrifying thing I have ever experienced. I didn’t want to be thinking those things but I had let Satan into my heart and my mind and had lost the battle. I am lucky for the power of the priesthood, a friend came over right after this had happened and gave me a blessing, and the spirit was so strong in the room that Satan had no room to stay. I fell to my knees that night and told the Lord I would never let that happen again, how sorry I was for doubting him and I will never let that happen again. My life has been forever devoted to my Lord. I will keep my walls built up strong; destroy the Devil before he has the chance to enter into my strong hold. I will be like Moroni and never let the Devil shake me and I will stand with the men of God. I will no longer ever give Satan a chance to enter into my heart. I will follow God and keep that prayer with me so that I can be protected and not have to fall to Satan ever again.
so now i am off to finsh getting ready for bed and then praying and passing out!!
tests the next 2 days and got to get up in the morning without snooze buttening it!!
<3 Erin Christina
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
ponder after class
so this isnt excastly what i was going to write yesterday, but it is pretty close to it.
for my communicatioins class we have a blog after each class to do, and we have a topic that we have to write on .. well i just wrote my blog for tusedays class .. and it has pecies of what i wanted to say in my blog yesterday .. but hopefuly this will get the point across
Self-concept is immportent becuase if you lack it then you really dont know who you are then how do you know what you want and if you dont know what you want then how do you communicate that. Self-esteem is kinda the lack of self-concept. Always being down on yourself, and not thinking you are good enough at/for anything.
sitting in class going of this was a bit hard for me to sit there and be told that there really isnt such a thing as self-esteem, as i struggled with issues in high school. I didnt have high self-esteem, and now I am being told there is not such thing as self-esteem. I didnt feel like I was good enough for anything, I look around and see people who are so much better and maybe i need to be more like that person. The scripture D&C 18:10 is the scripture in the Young Woman Personal Progress book under the value of individual worth and there really is not better scripture for that value. Individual worth was my favorite value, and that was my favorite scripture. So when I found myself crying in my room, i would always remember that scripture, it got me through my lowest moments in life, and still does. Knowing that no matter how the world see me or even how I see me, that no matter what, that God sees me as great, that is what pulls me through my darkest hours and coldest nights. Like in 2 Nephi I think it was to not lean on the arm of the flesh and rely on them, for the almighty see us as much greater then they will.
Then the scripte when King Benjamin calls us dirt, well I set my scriptures down and didnt know what to think about that. How can we be of such great worth, but be dirt. We need to be like the dirt. No one is better then anyone else, for we are all great in the eyes of God, but shouldnt try to be greater in the eyes of our fellow man. None of us will be as great as the greatest man who lived, Christ. The scripture is tell us basicly that we need to humble ourselfs, that we need not think any of us are better then anyone else.
If we put these things together, as we are humble in our confidince of ourselfs then the Lord will be with us and help us. In our confidince in ourselfs and knowing what we want, we will be able to get the message we want across to the people we are talking to clearly and understandable
oh and so no one wants to kill me i talked to my mom who yelled at me for not eating so i ate at like 5 and had a bowl of rice chicken and cheese ...
<3 Erin Christina
for my communicatioins class we have a blog after each class to do, and we have a topic that we have to write on .. well i just wrote my blog for tusedays class .. and it has pecies of what i wanted to say in my blog yesterday .. but hopefuly this will get the point across
Self-concept is immportent becuase if you lack it then you really dont know who you are then how do you know what you want and if you dont know what you want then how do you communicate that. Self-esteem is kinda the lack of self-concept. Always being down on yourself, and not thinking you are good enough at/for anything.
sitting in class going of this was a bit hard for me to sit there and be told that there really isnt such a thing as self-esteem, as i struggled with issues in high school. I didnt have high self-esteem, and now I am being told there is not such thing as self-esteem. I didnt feel like I was good enough for anything, I look around and see people who are so much better and maybe i need to be more like that person. The scripture D&C 18:10 is the scripture in the Young Woman Personal Progress book under the value of individual worth and there really is not better scripture for that value. Individual worth was my favorite value, and that was my favorite scripture. So when I found myself crying in my room, i would always remember that scripture, it got me through my lowest moments in life, and still does. Knowing that no matter how the world see me or even how I see me, that no matter what, that God sees me as great, that is what pulls me through my darkest hours and coldest nights. Like in 2 Nephi I think it was to not lean on the arm of the flesh and rely on them, for the almighty see us as much greater then they will.
Then the scripte when King Benjamin calls us dirt, well I set my scriptures down and didnt know what to think about that. How can we be of such great worth, but be dirt. We need to be like the dirt. No one is better then anyone else, for we are all great in the eyes of God, but shouldnt try to be greater in the eyes of our fellow man. None of us will be as great as the greatest man who lived, Christ. The scripture is tell us basicly that we need to humble ourselfs, that we need not think any of us are better then anyone else.
If we put these things together, as we are humble in our confidince of ourselfs then the Lord will be with us and help us. In our confidince in ourselfs and knowing what we want, we will be able to get the message we want across to the people we are talking to clearly and understandable
oh and so no one wants to kill me i talked to my mom who yelled at me for not eating so i ate at like 5 and had a bowl of rice chicken and cheese ...
<3 Erin Christina
Why I didnt post last night
Last night I didnt get to a post due to hw, but i didnt even get my hw done...
I learned a hard lession last night, that i still believe i am learning.
Im scared that i might be home for a while come april..and i dont want to be. In order to save money i havent bought food since, well, since i got here..and I dont plan on it unless im on my death bed and i have no other choice but to buy food. well to save food last night i was starving myself. I felt miserable and couldnt do anything but lay in my bed and cry. I wasnt just hurting myself physicaly i was hurting mentaly. Kinda like right now my head is pounding and I cant focus on studing becuase i havent eaten in since brakefast (yesterday i at lunch and was skipping dinner.) like i said i havent learned my lession yet.
I am a veary stubern person and wont let people buy me things or pay for me ... so ya i have turned down food. I know i am really supposed to be getting something out of this, but not yet. To accept the help people are giving, but i dont want it, weakness is not something i like to show.
so i am scraping around. around 930 last night i at some wheat thins and cheese, half of an expired yougert, and some mini rice cakes...i finshed off the last bit of those things that i had. i finshed off my milk this morning. and have been out of bread for a week and a half now. oh what i would give for a grilled chicken and cheese sandwhich. i look at my roommates and see how much food they have and it really does make me want to cry. they have such full meals and such, and i have a few potatoes, a few chicken breasts, some ramen and instent oatmeil, and 2 pop tarts and 3 cans of tuna and some rice. when i am alone in my room each night i just cry. i cant afored to buy more food and have been praying and praying for help.
i have made up my mind. i would rather starve then have to go home in april. i can pay for housing, but not tution. thats where the helping comes from ... if people gave me money..i wouldnt buy food, i would save it for school. my mind is made up that i have no other option then starving, and hoping come march or april i can get a job, and pay tuition come april.
i just dont really know what to do anymore....3 more hours till dinner...when i will eat just a small thing of ramen.
i had a good blog for yesterday too ... but i dont know if i will even get to it now.
i should have another post with my BOM hw insight after i do that.
<3 Erin Christina
I learned a hard lession last night, that i still believe i am learning.
Im scared that i might be home for a while come april..and i dont want to be. In order to save money i havent bought food since, well, since i got here..and I dont plan on it unless im on my death bed and i have no other choice but to buy food. well to save food last night i was starving myself. I felt miserable and couldnt do anything but lay in my bed and cry. I wasnt just hurting myself physicaly i was hurting mentaly. Kinda like right now my head is pounding and I cant focus on studing becuase i havent eaten in since brakefast (yesterday i at lunch and was skipping dinner.) like i said i havent learned my lession yet.
I am a veary stubern person and wont let people buy me things or pay for me ... so ya i have turned down food. I know i am really supposed to be getting something out of this, but not yet. To accept the help people are giving, but i dont want it, weakness is not something i like to show.
so i am scraping around. around 930 last night i at some wheat thins and cheese, half of an expired yougert, and some mini rice cakes...i finshed off the last bit of those things that i had. i finshed off my milk this morning. and have been out of bread for a week and a half now. oh what i would give for a grilled chicken and cheese sandwhich. i look at my roommates and see how much food they have and it really does make me want to cry. they have such full meals and such, and i have a few potatoes, a few chicken breasts, some ramen and instent oatmeil, and 2 pop tarts and 3 cans of tuna and some rice. when i am alone in my room each night i just cry. i cant afored to buy more food and have been praying and praying for help.
i have made up my mind. i would rather starve then have to go home in april. i can pay for housing, but not tution. thats where the helping comes from ... if people gave me money..i wouldnt buy food, i would save it for school. my mind is made up that i have no other option then starving, and hoping come march or april i can get a job, and pay tuition come april.
i just dont really know what to do anymore....3 more hours till dinner...when i will eat just a small thing of ramen.
i had a good blog for yesterday too ... but i dont know if i will even get to it now.
i should have another post with my BOM hw insight after i do that.
<3 Erin Christina
Monday, January 26, 2009
Insight
I had a small trouble trying to decied what to write my insight on ... Alma 40-42 was the assined reading. but I came up with one...I had marked it with a dot next to it and didnt even relize that I had done that.
I says something that means a lot to me. So much more than what I wanted to write in my insight paper, to much info for my teacher to know, but my heart knows the strength of what was said ...
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count:338 Date: Jan. 26, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 40:26
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
A piece of the restoration
3) What message for improvement is taught?
“…No unclean thing can inherit the kingdom of God…” The scripture teaches everyone about the importance of being clean and doing what we are supposed to do. For when we die in our filth and wickedness we are to be cast out from the kingdom and never get to dwell with our God.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
Those words are so powerful to me. It makes me want to be clean, be a better person, be worthy to inherit the kingdom of God, my right. I look at my life and know that I am not perfect and need to always be striving to be clean, and not just clean to myself, but clean in the sight of God. When the day comes to my final judgment, the last thing I want to happen is to be cast out. I know that my father has high hopes for me. I know this because I am told in my Patriarchal Blessing of things that happen once I have left this earthly state. I know that those blessing are only going to be mine as I follow the commandment and do what I am supposed to do. I strive everyday to be the woman that I know I am meant to be, the person my Heavenly Father knows I am to be. I don’t want to let him down, I want to be that child of God that he sees in me. “…No unclean thing can inherit the kingdom of God…” I will forever strive to always be clean so on the last day I will not be cast out but I will welcomed with open arms and receive all that I have been promised and all that I have been blessed with. I will be who I am supposed to be.
Something is not right today..i feel off..my heart just feels heavey and I want to cry. Dont ask me whats wrong because I dont know whats wrong. I really think this money stuff is scaring me to no point, I havent been able to stop the wanting to cry feeling since I cried myself to sleep in prayer last night. I know everything will work out, but the devil is wearing strong, hoping that I will fall and lose all faith in what I believe.
<3 Erin Christina
I says something that means a lot to me. So much more than what I wanted to write in my insight paper, to much info for my teacher to know, but my heart knows the strength of what was said ...
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count:338 Date: Jan. 26, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 40:26
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
A piece of the restoration
3) What message for improvement is taught?
“…No unclean thing can inherit the kingdom of God…” The scripture teaches everyone about the importance of being clean and doing what we are supposed to do. For when we die in our filth and wickedness we are to be cast out from the kingdom and never get to dwell with our God.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
Those words are so powerful to me. It makes me want to be clean, be a better person, be worthy to inherit the kingdom of God, my right. I look at my life and know that I am not perfect and need to always be striving to be clean, and not just clean to myself, but clean in the sight of God. When the day comes to my final judgment, the last thing I want to happen is to be cast out. I know that my father has high hopes for me. I know this because I am told in my Patriarchal Blessing of things that happen once I have left this earthly state. I know that those blessing are only going to be mine as I follow the commandment and do what I am supposed to do. I strive everyday to be the woman that I know I am meant to be, the person my Heavenly Father knows I am to be. I don’t want to let him down, I want to be that child of God that he sees in me. “…No unclean thing can inherit the kingdom of God…” I will forever strive to always be clean so on the last day I will not be cast out but I will welcomed with open arms and receive all that I have been promised and all that I have been blessed with. I will be who I am supposed to be.
Something is not right today..i feel off..my heart just feels heavey and I want to cry. Dont ask me whats wrong because I dont know whats wrong. I really think this money stuff is scaring me to no point, I havent been able to stop the wanting to cry feeling since I cried myself to sleep in prayer last night. I know everything will work out, but the devil is wearing strong, hoping that I will fall and lose all faith in what I believe.
<3 Erin Christina
UGG
I spent to much time with friends that I didnt have time to do my reading and Insight paper, I will do that tomorrow, along with hours and hours of other hw, and my idea of handwashing all my clothes in the bath tub with me walking around in it trying to be the mixer thing ... yes this is what I have come down to in the matter of I dont ever have money to wash my clothes, I havent thought through drying yet.
I am so excited for one of my friends up here at school. He has gone through so veary much and turned his life around in the last year. I look at him and see a changed man then the boy I met last Jan. The boy I cried with and held in my arms telling everything would be alright. The boy who couldnt really make up his mind about me, but I stuck by his side as a friend no matter what pain he put me through, my feeling for him passed after try two of dating, but my feelings of compassion, hope, faith, and love/charity never went away -- even when I said I hated him! He had another meeting with the stake president not to long ago, and the answer he got last summer about him never being able to serve a mission has changed into a talking with the general athorities, and maybe even a letter sent into the first presidencey. It is amazing to see how much he has grown, I remember telling him the Lord works in his time, a no now doesnt mean a no forever, if you blessing talks about a mission there will be one sometime in your life. He told me tonight that he still has a letter I worte him months back, I think last summer, no no it had to have been winter becuase of the paper it was writen on -- I remember tearing it out of my Book Of Mormon jurnal -- everytime i see the riped pages in the back I know it was for that latter. He came across it the other day and he told me everytime he reads it he thinks of me and it fills him with comfort. I dont remember what was in the note, all I know is that it came from the heart. He wants to serve a mission so bad, this boy going from not wanting to serve and his past being such a mess and out of controle to now being such a great member of the church and wanting to serve and I can see the light in him, I am so proud of him. It is even better now that we can talk again.
My prayers are with Jared and his meeting on TH with his stake pres. it was hard saying goodbye when I dont know for how long I am saying goodbye for.
I am kinda at a loss for words, didnt really expect to write all that I did write.
I know that through the power of the Lord, all things are possible, a boy who has had a past of many many many screw ups, mistakes, and falling away can be in this spot today, who is so close to hopefuly serving a mission -- the greatest thing any worthy memeber of the church can do. I look up and admire all those who choose to serve missions. I do believe that if you are worthy to serve then you should serve!! Most LDS girls have their minds set .. RM all the way!
The Lord however does work in his own ways and time, as Jared is home, and we dont know what the Lord holds in store for him.
Then I guess there is me, who knows that above anything and everything BYU-I is were I am meant to be, but doesnt know how I am to pay to be here anymore.
I love my Heavenly Father and have given my life to him, to follow him and do all that he has asked me to do.
well it is way past my bed time, so gunna read my scriptures and pray. Didnt at all mean to write all this, but maybe there was a reason for it.
<3 Erin Christina
I am so excited for one of my friends up here at school. He has gone through so veary much and turned his life around in the last year. I look at him and see a changed man then the boy I met last Jan. The boy I cried with and held in my arms telling everything would be alright. The boy who couldnt really make up his mind about me, but I stuck by his side as a friend no matter what pain he put me through, my feeling for him passed after try two of dating, but my feelings of compassion, hope, faith, and love/charity never went away -- even when I said I hated him! He had another meeting with the stake president not to long ago, and the answer he got last summer about him never being able to serve a mission has changed into a talking with the general athorities, and maybe even a letter sent into the first presidencey. It is amazing to see how much he has grown, I remember telling him the Lord works in his time, a no now doesnt mean a no forever, if you blessing talks about a mission there will be one sometime in your life. He told me tonight that he still has a letter I worte him months back, I think last summer, no no it had to have been winter becuase of the paper it was writen on -- I remember tearing it out of my Book Of Mormon jurnal -- everytime i see the riped pages in the back I know it was for that latter. He came across it the other day and he told me everytime he reads it he thinks of me and it fills him with comfort. I dont remember what was in the note, all I know is that it came from the heart. He wants to serve a mission so bad, this boy going from not wanting to serve and his past being such a mess and out of controle to now being such a great member of the church and wanting to serve and I can see the light in him, I am so proud of him. It is even better now that we can talk again.
My prayers are with Jared and his meeting on TH with his stake pres. it was hard saying goodbye when I dont know for how long I am saying goodbye for.
I am kinda at a loss for words, didnt really expect to write all that I did write.
I know that through the power of the Lord, all things are possible, a boy who has had a past of many many many screw ups, mistakes, and falling away can be in this spot today, who is so close to hopefuly serving a mission -- the greatest thing any worthy memeber of the church can do. I look up and admire all those who choose to serve missions. I do believe that if you are worthy to serve then you should serve!! Most LDS girls have their minds set .. RM all the way!
The Lord however does work in his own ways and time, as Jared is home, and we dont know what the Lord holds in store for him.
Then I guess there is me, who knows that above anything and everything BYU-I is were I am meant to be, but doesnt know how I am to pay to be here anymore.
I love my Heavenly Father and have given my life to him, to follow him and do all that he has asked me to do.
well it is way past my bed time, so gunna read my scriptures and pray. Didnt at all mean to write all this, but maybe there was a reason for it.
<3 Erin Christina
Sunday, January 25, 2009
You Never Know
Today after sacriment I turned to my roommate and told her that I wished home wasnt so far away. I wanted to just walk home becuase, well, sunday school was a disapointment to me last week, and I am just way to pickey with how things are tought. I just didnt want to go to the rest of the meeting, but I have a calling the requires me to be at R.S. the whole time, yay music choristor! One of my other roommates told me that on the days that you dont want to be at church are the days that you should be there.
So I went to sunday school. Well, there wasnt going to be a teacher, and I got excited. Not soon after I started celibrating in my head Sam (sunday school president) walked in and saw we didnt have a teacher and said he would teach our class. He left to get something and i quickly pulled out my jurnal and my Book of Mormon and got ready to learn, well to look ready to learn, and well I was happy, Sam is the teacher I love to be in the class room learning from. He is such and amazing teacher. He is so knowlegabul in the scriptures and the gosple, which is one of the reasons I have kinda started to fall for him.
I wanted to participate in class so bad, but because of the past I kept getting scared, but I raised my hand to read a scripture then put in my thoughts on the question Sam asked after that. My heart was pounding so fast. I filled up 3 or 4 pages worth of things he tought and questions he had me ponder on and my feelings on those.
So the lession I learned from my roommate wasnt really I need to learn something, it is more of you dont know who will be teaching, becuase I could miss my oppertunity on learning something.
Dont get to excited, I am still forced aginstmy will to R.S. bc I sitll dont know why but dont like it to much, but did take notes in class.
Well,
I cant think of anything else at this moment, but am doing my Book Of Mormon homework tonight so I will have another post on that.
<3 Erin Christina
Saturday, January 24, 2009
short but sweet
So I am just a little done with hearing people tell me over and over, you dont know if he doesnt like you.
So I like this guy!! He is SOOOO amazing!! I got to see him today just for a tiny bit .. short but sweet .. and got a hug!! IT WAS AMAZING! So I was happy after that. My roommate Jess kept saying over and over, you dont know if he doesnt like you...
Well it is just my luck that he wont. It doesnt stop me from thinking he is the most perfect guy ever in the exsistnace of guys, but he wont ever see me the way I see him. Life isnt like all these stupid Cinderella movies!! The amazingly amazing guy never goes for the invisable girl.
hmmmm lyics to an oh so wonderfull song come to mind ... "Im not that girl" what a good song ... and it is sooo my theam song!!
I just dont want to get my hopes up in fear of getting crushed...but I get them up anyways in hope that he is the person I hope he is to see the girl I hope he sees in me.
sry, me and my roommates watched a cinerella movie marathon and it was way to many happy enddings and that most popular guy ending up with the invisable girl -- it doesnt happen in real life!!
ok so i will end this ... it was supposed to be short and sweet...
OH pic .. me and Sam dancing a few weeks ago ... oh so much fun!
<3 Erin Christina
Fun Fun
Tonight was lots and lots of fun!! Jared came up for a visit and it made my day to see him!! Sunday we are doing a big dinner for him!! Make him know that we love him NO MATTER WHAT!! I cant wait to go on a walk with him like old times!
So today started off like a bad day ... like I wanted to cry bad day. I am just in soooooo much pain right now not even funny!! GAH! my friend Amelia and I have an inside joke about this, and so we say it and know EXCATLY what we are talking about!!
but my gosh!! It hurts even just laying in bed ... it was hard to dance and smile with the pain I am in, but I didnt let that stop me!!
So the pic is of me and Jared, we are trying to rebrake him in .. I mean he was only allowed to shake girls hands for 5 months and now he has girls hugging him, sitting on his lap, me being my self ... ;)
Tonight I also was excited because I danced with the guy who broke my heart a few months back. The one thing that I loved doing with HIM, we danced and I was fine!! It was sooo much fun to again be myself. Him and I, we are slowly but surely getting back to normal, mainly I think it is me who is the one who is getting there, but I am happy that I am doing it!!.
Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I have FINALY moved on. I love him now, but in the way you love a best friend. I see how happy him and his gf are and I am happy for him, yes there is still a bit of a sting that I know will always be there, but I can be happy and have fun with them.
OH and maybe the fact my mind is 67% consumed with another guy. Who like robert, matched everything on my life, EXCEPT that Robert had an exception with him, he isnt attrative in the least, but there was just something about him that made me like him soooooo much!! but Sam, OH MY GOSH! The most perfect thing I have ever seen. In Young Womans we always had to make these lists of what we want our man to be like. I often find one of two things and let others slide. I really havent been to well at keeping to my list. Robert was the only one who I kept to it on.
My Perfect Guy
-Return Missionary
-(that leads to) Gosple/scripture smart
-(leads to) Guid my family and teach my children and me
-DANCER - and loves it!
-MUSICLY inclined (sing, piano, guitar..)
-loves going on walks
-loves star gazing
-taller then me - so I have to stand on my tip toes to kiss
-Someone who I can just talk to .. about anything
-Someone who is so strong in the church, who can bring me up
-who i have to make myself better for, not bring myself down
-someone strong to help me be a better person
-someone who will never fall away and hurt my family as my dad has done
-nice lips!
-amazing smile
-makes me smile
-makes me laugh
-loves cuddling
-understands my blondness
-thinks my werid abnormal hiccups are cute!
...the list can go on and on.
what can I say .. I have HIGH standers and its about time that I stop messing around just for a makeout and being my old little "mormon slut" self and stick to my list!!
I already am trying to become a better person, so when it is time, I dont have a lot of work to do. When I got back up here a few weeks ago, I got a strong feeling that the time could be closer then I think, so I will be ready to meet my EC whenever that might be!
I am so tired right now. But still off a happy high! I cant wait to go on a walk with Jared this weekend!! I am just hoping it can be a good weekend .. after the last 2 weeks a good weekend is what I need!!
OH OH OH OH !!!! I forgot to say .. so I love dancing right, well there is one dance 4 different people have tried to teach me and well tonight for the first time I started waltzing and well didnt even know that we were doing it till I made a big deal that we were waltzing and I cant waltz, or thought that I couldnt at least, was never able to get the hang of it ... maybe sam was telling the truth when we were waltzing 2 weeks ago and said I was good at it. Guess the key is to not think about it! ya .. that was exciting though ... I CAN WALTZ!! YAY ME!!
well this is end of my post!! Its way after my bed time and I still need to read my scriptures!!
<3 Erin Christina
Thursday, January 22, 2009
A Bad Night - Leads to a Bad Day...
Sometimes I feel that I just cant be happy. Every time I get close or am just happy being with where I am at life, someone trys to ruin that for me. I hate it when people are mad at me. I could careless about me as long as I know I am not doing anythning wrong. I am a veary self concise person, I strive to be the best that I can be and hate myself when I do something wrong. No matter what I do, I just cant seem to do anything right! People piss me off sooo much sometimes. I just dont know what to do anymore!! ARG!!
I have a friend I get to see this weekend. It is sooner then I wanted to see him, I kept telling him I missed him and wished he was here BUT that I didnt want to see him till 2010. He is home on medical issues, and coming up to campus to see all of us and his brother (which is the person that I got in the fight with last night. I have this fear that he is going to say all this crap to him and then he wont even want to see me). But tomorrow night a group of us are going latin dancing and ballroom dancing and then Sunday having a big dinner. I cant wait to see him - unless this is something else that will go wrong in my life.
I know I got to keep a positive mind about these things and I keep praying for comfort and for things to be worked out. But it seems like the whole world thinks when something happens you pull up past and already taken care of things that dont relate to the topic at hand and just nail the person to the wall with all this invaild reasons and fallacys (my comm class is good for something!!) and then dont even accept the appology or reasons or anything then just stop talking to the person. It really is driving me crazy!! I want to throw something or screem or punch something but my phone took enough beat up last weekend and I need to stop with those things.
Whatever the Lord is doing I really am done with it. I just want to be happy and deal with school. I dont care if he thinks I am strong enough to handle it all, I am done, I dont want to deal with these things anymore. What more do I have to do? I am already paying tithing and fast offerings instead of buy food. Spending all my time on school work and praying and reading my scriptures everyday!! I am doing all that he asks me to do, and I just dont know what else to do...
Well thats all for now. That didnt make me feel any better like I had hoped it would.
--I am sry for people I have snaped at lately. My life isnt the happiest place I try to make it seem like. But I really dont need advice. My life has issuses but it is under control. If there is anything that i really cant stand is when people assume that I want their advice. "when you want my advice..." When did I say that I needed advice ... ?! There are just somethings that blow my mind sometimes. 1. I am not in a good mood. 2. When I need help, I go to my father in heaven. 3. When I am asking for help then I make it seem like it, but when someone asks me whats wrong and I tell them, thats me just telling them - I never tell the full story. 4. I cant stand it when people assume they know what is going on...you heard half of the story, you really have no clue what happened and the hurtful things that were said.
5. When I need someones help, I ask them, or make it known that I want it. 6. I ... I just dont want to keep going.
FYI: THIS IS NOT POINTING ANYONE OUT-it has happened many different times from many different poeple..so please think before you get all pissed off.
blah .. I havent felt to good about my body lately...I am so sick of me ... yes this is what happens when people bring me down like I have been the last two weeks, I start to hate everything about me. I just no longer feel like me.
We all make mistakes, why cant people be Christ like and forgive, they hold grudges and hurt people. So as someone far away or close is out saying hurtful things about me, I have already forgiven them for what they did to me, and yet they still are being hurtful over what I have been wrongfuly attacked for after I said sry for things that I wasnt totaly sure that I should be saying sry for but I did anyway.
Think about it, when you confront someone about a problem are you talking to them the way Christ would? Are you pulling up things from way in the past just to hurt someone? are you saying things to them that Christ would say? Would Christ adress the problem at hand like you did?
keep Christ in the frount of your thoughts, and strive to be like him, isnt that what we are here to do, be more Christ like, to be desiples of Christ?
Well this has gone on long enough.
<3 Erin Christina
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
just a little something to pass the time
Everyone needs time to think and when they do normaly they have a place that they go to, a place they feel comfortable and a place that they know they can really get some thinking done at. This pic here ... this is my rock. Ok .. it might not be MY rock but it is where I go to think. Its my little place I go to get away from it all.
I LOVE IDAHO! This place, this school, these people, I really have never been happier then being here. I have had many disscussions with people about why they came here. Why would so many people choose to come to this school over provo? Its way colder, theres not as much out here, theres not as many major options...the list goes on.
There is something about being here that many agree with me. No its not becuase our nick name is BYU-I DO its the "Spirit of Ricks". There is just this indescibabul feeling you get being on that campus, in the classes, around the people. I wouldnt want to be any place but out here. I really do think it is one of the best places on earth and if I had a choice to stay out here year round or go home, for the 6th month brake I would choose to stay out here.
I have nothing back in TX .. the only thing back in TX for me is my cat .. my little baby boy who i miss with all my heart!!
I miss my mommy...Thats one of the main reasons i go home. i know that if i chose to stay out here because i say there is nothing there for me it would break her heart. i have mentioned not going home before and i saw tears come to her eyes. i love that woman with all my heart! She is my hero and i look up to her more then anyone here on this earth.
I dont know what came over me to make me write this one ... maybe just major bordum ... but i guess thats what it came down to ...
OH so i have to share this...for my history class our groups had to rewrite the Declaration of Inedpendice and well this is what we came up with .... enjoy!
Declaration of Independence
In many difficult trials it becomes necessary for a group to put an end to political ties which have connected them with another and to reestablish independence the position which natural laws allow, thus stated are the opinions of many men for separation.
We state these obvious truths that all men are created equal and are given god given rights, that these rights are life, liberty, and finding happiness. To protect these rights governments among men are established receiving authority from the governed. When any form of government does not respect these rights it is the right of the people to eradicate this connection and to establish a new government and to institute a new government that will protect the rights necessary for their safety and happiness. Governments will not be change for light reasons, with much evidence men are more easily swayed to suffer, rather than change what they are accustomed to. Since they are so accustomed to suffering for such long periods it is their right to separate from such governments, and provide better protection for their rights. With much such patience the colonies have suffered and now it is necessary to change the form of government. The history of monarchy is a history of abuse and of long suffering, to prove this just ask the thirteen colonies.
This is what the King did…
- Took away the laws to help the public good prosper and be safe.
- Has not given us the right to change the laws that have become a need to be changed.
- Has refused to change the laws.
- Made our right to a trial and hearing almost unattainable and so extravagant in travel on purpose so that we might forfeit the right ourselves because it’s so obscene to do what we are being asked to obtain that right.
- Threatens to take away our representation for us if we openly rebel against him
- Refusing to give any of us over here power to do what is best for us.
- Forebode more people to settle in the colonies.
- Refusing to let us take care of our business here.
- Paying off the Judges that we do have here to do HIS WILL not what is best for us.
- We were forced to accommodate Britten’s Army from our own pocket.
- Even in time of peace we are still stuck with the army, and forced babysit them.
- Won’t let us have our own military, forcing his on us.
- Giving the troops more rights then we have.
- Giving the troops more rights because they are with us.
- Protecting his troops from all punishments-making them above the law.
- Taking away our ability for trade and forced to only have things from Britten.
- Adding on mass taxes making it cost more for us to have our necessities.
- Taking away our right for a trial by jury.
- Making us travel all over the flipping world just to take care of a small, tiny, little issue.
- Taking away any and all rights and privileges that we rightfully have as English citizens and making our lives a living hell because he knows that we have any and every chance to rebel against and become a free nation.
- Taking away all that we have and declaring his right and reign over us.
- Saying he doesn’t and can’t protect us, then attacks us knowing that we can’t defend ourselves because he has taken everything away from us and won’t let us have the rights to protect ourselves.
- After making all his laws and rules over us, he wages war on us; destroying everything we have even to the point of our lives.
- As we speak sending a people over to finish the job he tried to accomplish with all his insane laws and persecutions against us. He is the worst leader of all time!!
- He has forced and captured our fellow citizens and has made them turn against their old friends, brethren and motherland.
- He has caused disturbance among us, he has caused our native savages to turn against us with their great power.
- We have repeatedly protested in the most humble way. Our repeated protests have only been answered with violence. A ruler, whose character is the definition of a dictator is not fit to rule a free country let alone the great and powerful motherland.
- We have not been asking for extra attention. We have warned them numerous times of their satanic ways. We have reminded them of circumstances of our establishment. We have requested of from their justice and we have reminded them of our heritage, they have not listened or hearkened unto our pleas. We must therefore take what is rightfully ours!! Stand up and fight.
- We the representatives of the United States of America, in General Congress, gathered together to appeal to the Supreme Judge of the world in the name of the good people of these Colonies, concerning our God given rights. We declare that these united Colonies are, and have a right to be free independent states, that they have the right to undo all ties and connections with Britain. And as free independent states with a power to declare war, conclude peace, create alliances, and to establish commerce and to do all the things that states are allowed to do. And for the support of this declaration we have asked these fine men that helped in making this declaration, and we pledge to each other our lives, our fortunes and our sacred honor.
Rebecca Johnson
Joshua Corry
Brian Nguyen
Chandler Webb
Erin Elliott
so thats all for right now.
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A Quick thought Before I'm Off To Bed
This is just something fast before I close my eyes for the night ...
I dont have much time ... but the Chapters 26-29 in Alma are so strong, I ask you to read them and have a a few different colored pencils or whatever you use to mark with. Alma repeats himself on a few different things a few times. yes he is talking to 3 different sons BUT the scriptures are for us in this day ... these are things we need to hear many many times over!!
I however for my Book of Mormon class can only choose one topic and chose one that really is relating to me in my life right now...
I have put my faith in my Lord, and I have been blessed, and as I continue to do so and become stronger I will continue to feel the blessings and the love of my Heavenly Father flow.
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 36:3, 27
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Trust in God
3) What message for improvement is taught?
Verse 3 states that when you put your trust in the Lord he shall help you throughout your life. In 27 it is backed up by experience when Alma tells his son that he has put his faith in the Lord and he has been blessed.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
I have the past week been changing my life style. For the past week I haven’t missed reading my scriptures or praying each night. I have been slowly adding new things to my list and hoping that I can accomplish these things. They are the simple things that are helping me grow closer to my Heavenly Father and become a better disciple of Christ. My life is centered on doing what the Lord has asked me to do; I am doing my best to keep his commandments. A few months before I came up to school I said a prayer and told the Lord that my trust was in him. I fully gave him my heart and pleaded with him to help me in my time of need. Since then I have been blessed. I put my trust in the Lord and paid my tithing and had the money to be here in this wonderful place. I haven’t stopped there, my faith and trust still lies with him, and I am striving to be a better person I see the blessings all around me. I have put my trust in God and I have been supported in my trials, and my troubles, and my afflictions and I know that as I continue on this path, because I am not perfect and will slip up a bit, I will be delivered, like Alma says.
good night all ... I have to be up in less then 8 hours!!
<3 Erin Christina
I dont have much time ... but the Chapters 26-29 in Alma are so strong, I ask you to read them and have a a few different colored pencils or whatever you use to mark with. Alma repeats himself on a few different things a few times. yes he is talking to 3 different sons BUT the scriptures are for us in this day ... these are things we need to hear many many times over!!
I however for my Book of Mormon class can only choose one topic and chose one that really is relating to me in my life right now...
I have put my faith in my Lord, and I have been blessed, and as I continue to do so and become stronger I will continue to feel the blessings and the love of my Heavenly Father flow.
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 36:3, 27
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Trust in God
3) What message for improvement is taught?
Verse 3 states that when you put your trust in the Lord he shall help you throughout your life. In 27 it is backed up by experience when Alma tells his son that he has put his faith in the Lord and he has been blessed.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
I have the past week been changing my life style. For the past week I haven’t missed reading my scriptures or praying each night. I have been slowly adding new things to my list and hoping that I can accomplish these things. They are the simple things that are helping me grow closer to my Heavenly Father and become a better disciple of Christ. My life is centered on doing what the Lord has asked me to do; I am doing my best to keep his commandments. A few months before I came up to school I said a prayer and told the Lord that my trust was in him. I fully gave him my heart and pleaded with him to help me in my time of need. Since then I have been blessed. I put my trust in the Lord and paid my tithing and had the money to be here in this wonderful place. I haven’t stopped there, my faith and trust still lies with him, and I am striving to be a better person I see the blessings all around me. I have put my trust in God and I have been supported in my trials, and my troubles, and my afflictions and I know that as I continue on this path, because I am not perfect and will slip up a bit, I will be delivered, like Alma says.
good night all ... I have to be up in less then 8 hours!!
<3 Erin Christina
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
As I Am Putting Off My HomeWork
I sit here just thinking about lots of different things.
All my worries and my hopes and well everything just sitting on my mind.
Saturday I was comforted by words said by one of my friends up here at school, though they were not his words, they were the words of the Lord. How great a blessing it is to be able to receive such a powerful blessing!!
Saturday my heart was heavy with fighting between me and my, well former, brother; my money situation, school, my father and how he was still looking for a job; and a few other things. The moment my brother had said "don't expect to hear from me for a long time. goodbye" broke me. I was sitting in the bath tub bawling my eyes out, and never before the thoughts of killing myself came into my mind. I was in the bathroom of an apt of 6 girls - there were 3 razors in my reach or I could hold myself under the water. I was trying hard to not pay attion to those thoughts.
Not only was I having those thoughts but my whole body felt consumed by the devil. It really was one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me. I started to question my faith and testimony all together.
Right before my brother and I had contuied of fight from the day before i was sitting in the tub asking for help, for everything to be ok. I was crying unto the Lord!!
Ryan took me out of his life, my dad still didn't have a job, a friend was still have major troubles, and so many things that I had been praying for seemed to not be happening.
I was crying my eyes out and couldn't stop shaking. I was so scared!!
I got a bit of composer got out of the bath and put on clothes and opened the door and one of my roommates was standing there and she embraced me and i cried into her arms. I told her what had happened and she asked me if I wanted her to call Sam to give me a blessing and I agreed.
I was able to stop crying till he got over to the house. I was having trouble speaking so I told him the blessing was just one of comfort.
I lost my composure during the prayer and the words that he was saying were just what I needed to hear. Those were the answers to my prayers and my problems. They weren't the answer answer but they brought comfort to my soul, and such power and light of the priesthood and Gospel and spirit could no longer dwell in my heart or my body, for the devil cannot dwell when the spirit does.
My blessing told me that everything would be fine with my dad, that everything would work out. My Dad had an interview on Friday and he got offed the job today and starts on Thursday.
My brother and I are still not talking and he still does not consider me to be his sister.
But I have a prayer that I am keeping in my heart for him and for I and through the two things that stuck out to me, forgiveness and the atonement, I know that things will work out there as well.
The blessing brought great comfort to my worries and fears. Yes they are still worries but I do know everything will work out how the Lord intends for them to work out and be.
Well now that I have waisted yet more time on this I will again attempt my homework, but some how know I might be posting on here again tonight!!
<3 Erin Christina
All my worries and my hopes and well everything just sitting on my mind.
Saturday I was comforted by words said by one of my friends up here at school, though they were not his words, they were the words of the Lord. How great a blessing it is to be able to receive such a powerful blessing!!
Saturday my heart was heavy with fighting between me and my, well former, brother; my money situation, school, my father and how he was still looking for a job; and a few other things. The moment my brother had said "don't expect to hear from me for a long time. goodbye" broke me. I was sitting in the bath tub bawling my eyes out, and never before the thoughts of killing myself came into my mind. I was in the bathroom of an apt of 6 girls - there were 3 razors in my reach or I could hold myself under the water. I was trying hard to not pay attion to those thoughts.
Not only was I having those thoughts but my whole body felt consumed by the devil. It really was one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me. I started to question my faith and testimony all together.
Right before my brother and I had contuied of fight from the day before i was sitting in the tub asking for help, for everything to be ok. I was crying unto the Lord!!
Ryan took me out of his life, my dad still didn't have a job, a friend was still have major troubles, and so many things that I had been praying for seemed to not be happening.
I was crying my eyes out and couldn't stop shaking. I was so scared!!
I got a bit of composer got out of the bath and put on clothes and opened the door and one of my roommates was standing there and she embraced me and i cried into her arms. I told her what had happened and she asked me if I wanted her to call Sam to give me a blessing and I agreed.
I was able to stop crying till he got over to the house. I was having trouble speaking so I told him the blessing was just one of comfort.
I lost my composure during the prayer and the words that he was saying were just what I needed to hear. Those were the answers to my prayers and my problems. They weren't the answer answer but they brought comfort to my soul, and such power and light of the priesthood and Gospel and spirit could no longer dwell in my heart or my body, for the devil cannot dwell when the spirit does.
My blessing told me that everything would be fine with my dad, that everything would work out. My Dad had an interview on Friday and he got offed the job today and starts on Thursday.
My brother and I are still not talking and he still does not consider me to be his sister.
But I have a prayer that I am keeping in my heart for him and for I and through the two things that stuck out to me, forgiveness and the atonement, I know that things will work out there as well.
The blessing brought great comfort to my worries and fears. Yes they are still worries but I do know everything will work out how the Lord intends for them to work out and be.
Well now that I have waisted yet more time on this I will again attempt my homework, but some how know I might be posting on here again tonight!!
<3 Erin Christina
To Be a Better Deciple of Christ
I had written this Sunday night after doing my Book of Mormon assignment. So I thought I would post it up on here ....
A Challenge
to strive to be a better person, a better disciple of Christ, i have set some goals for myself and striving to do things better and do the things that i haven't done that i should be doing.
everyday...
wake up and pray- to start my day off with prayer and to keep that prayer with me all day in my heart!
when i am to start my home work ... before EACH classes assignment say a prayer and ask for help and comprehension and understanding in each and every reading and questions and papers and quizzes and tests. to have a clear mind and focus and not be distracted that i can finish in good time and feel confident in what i have done.
after EACH thank the Lord for his help in prayer.
strive to be done with home work by 12am every night
read my scriptures everyday open them with prayer and close them with prayer asking to understand what is being said to comprehend what it is that i need to get from the chapters and verses i read - to spend 30min reading, its not about how much i read but how much time i take to understand what i am reading. and again in close to thank the lord for what i have read and for the knowledge that it has given me .
before i go to bed at night to say my prayers. to pour my heart out to the lord and to give thanks and ask for help and to talk to him. "cry unto the Lord" cast your burdens and ever care, seek guidance and counsel.
and to strive to be in bed and trying to sleep by 1am.
wash
rinse
repeat
those are the goals i am striving for. i know as i do this i will be blessed and it will help me physically and spiritually. i know this is what the Lord wants me to do and i will be blessed in many more ways.
i want to close this off with my Book of Mormon assignment that was due today. what it is, is we are assigned to read chapters and from those chapters to pick a topic, a principal that we feel is important to us -- our Revelation from the set of scriptures we have read. and then to explain what the principal is, what is taken from it that is so important -- why is it in the scriptures, what are we being taught. then to tell how it fits into MY life, not into anyone else's life. how can I grow from this? how does this strengthen ME? i hope you enjoy what i got from it because, it fits right into the goals that i have set for myself.
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 34:17-28, 39
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Prayer
3) What message for improvement is taught?
The scriptures give a list of things that should be said in a prayer and how a prayer should be said. 17-to exercise your faith, 18-CRY unto him for mercy, 19-humble yourself, 20-CRY unto to him, 21-for your house hold, at all times, 22- against your enemies, 23- against the devil, 24-to prosper, 25-CRY that the crops of your field may increase, 26- pour out your soul, anywhere, 27-let your heart always be full and carry a prayer everywhere with you, 28- once you do these things and then turn your back on what we should be doing then who are you to say that you have done such things, that you have asked for blessings but won’t do the things to receive them. 39-pray continually, so the temptations of the devil cannot get to you and harm you and bring you down. We are not told just to pray unto the Lord but to CRY unto him. The verses tell us to cry unto the Lord and do those things, to pour out our whole heart and open up and truly ask and do those things.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
I have struggled in my everyday life with praying; remember to pray and what to say and ask for. I have recently told myself that I am going to improve and do the things that I need to do. Each night this past week I have said my prayers and I have started to already feel repetitive and loosing feeling in my prayers. I am not too happy that that is happening. I am very grateful for the fact that I read these scriptures tonight, I had many questions answered and was reminded of what I need to be saying and thinking when praying. In my prayers I need to talk to my Lord, but not only talk to cry unto him. I need to plea to him with my needs, to truly seek help and guidance where I need it, and I do need lots and help and guidance. I need to always keep my prayer with me, always have that prayer in my heart, and when I do that I will no longer be able to have those temptations of the world and of the devil, for he cannot enter my heart as I have the spirit with me always guiding me and helping me. What a wonderful life and so much better days I would have if I always remember to do that!! I need to also always remember that as I am asking for the help and wanting the blessings that I much remember to always help out and do what the Lord wants of me, for I know that if I want something in my life I need to follow the commandments and serve and do all that the Lord has asked of me, for that will bring even richer blessings into my life. I’m not perfect but I am striving to be, and striving to be what the Lord wants me to be and knows who I am meant to be, and with the guidance given to me in these verses I know that I am can be another step closer.
i encourage all you to take on the challenge .. weather you be in school or not. to strive to be better , strive to be the child of god you were born to be, strive to strengthen yourself, we are not all perfect and far from our goal of Christ like. its an everyday process and i know that as i do this and hope that you do this we will be blessed and we are doing what the lord wants of us and he is smiling and rejoicing in our obedience and our unfailing faith.well i am off to bed ... good thing its a holiday!!good night and god be with you though your everyday tasks, keep that prayer in your heart!!
<3 Erin Christina Elliott
A Challenge
to strive to be a better person, a better disciple of Christ, i have set some goals for myself and striving to do things better and do the things that i haven't done that i should be doing.
everyday...
wake up and pray- to start my day off with prayer and to keep that prayer with me all day in my heart!
when i am to start my home work ... before EACH classes assignment say a prayer and ask for help and comprehension and understanding in each and every reading and questions and papers and quizzes and tests. to have a clear mind and focus and not be distracted that i can finish in good time and feel confident in what i have done.
after EACH thank the Lord for his help in prayer.
strive to be done with home work by 12am every night
read my scriptures everyday open them with prayer and close them with prayer asking to understand what is being said to comprehend what it is that i need to get from the chapters and verses i read - to spend 30min reading, its not about how much i read but how much time i take to understand what i am reading. and again in close to thank the lord for what i have read and for the knowledge that it has given me .
before i go to bed at night to say my prayers. to pour my heart out to the lord and to give thanks and ask for help and to talk to him. "cry unto the Lord" cast your burdens and ever care, seek guidance and counsel.
and to strive to be in bed and trying to sleep by 1am.
wash
rinse
repeat
those are the goals i am striving for. i know as i do this i will be blessed and it will help me physically and spiritually. i know this is what the Lord wants me to do and i will be blessed in many more ways.
i want to close this off with my Book of Mormon assignment that was due today. what it is, is we are assigned to read chapters and from those chapters to pick a topic, a principal that we feel is important to us -- our Revelation from the set of scriptures we have read. and then to explain what the principal is, what is taken from it that is so important -- why is it in the scriptures, what are we being taught. then to tell how it fits into MY life, not into anyone else's life. how can I grow from this? how does this strengthen ME? i hope you enjoy what i got from it because, it fits right into the goals that i have set for myself.
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 34:17-28, 39
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Prayer
3) What message for improvement is taught?
The scriptures give a list of things that should be said in a prayer and how a prayer should be said. 17-to exercise your faith, 18-CRY unto him for mercy, 19-humble yourself, 20-CRY unto to him, 21-for your house hold, at all times, 22- against your enemies, 23- against the devil, 24-to prosper, 25-CRY that the crops of your field may increase, 26- pour out your soul, anywhere, 27-let your heart always be full and carry a prayer everywhere with you, 28- once you do these things and then turn your back on what we should be doing then who are you to say that you have done such things, that you have asked for blessings but won’t do the things to receive them. 39-pray continually, so the temptations of the devil cannot get to you and harm you and bring you down. We are not told just to pray unto the Lord but to CRY unto him. The verses tell us to cry unto the Lord and do those things, to pour out our whole heart and open up and truly ask and do those things.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
I have struggled in my everyday life with praying; remember to pray and what to say and ask for. I have recently told myself that I am going to improve and do the things that I need to do. Each night this past week I have said my prayers and I have started to already feel repetitive and loosing feeling in my prayers. I am not too happy that that is happening. I am very grateful for the fact that I read these scriptures tonight, I had many questions answered and was reminded of what I need to be saying and thinking when praying. In my prayers I need to talk to my Lord, but not only talk to cry unto him. I need to plea to him with my needs, to truly seek help and guidance where I need it, and I do need lots and help and guidance. I need to always keep my prayer with me, always have that prayer in my heart, and when I do that I will no longer be able to have those temptations of the world and of the devil, for he cannot enter my heart as I have the spirit with me always guiding me and helping me. What a wonderful life and so much better days I would have if I always remember to do that!! I need to also always remember that as I am asking for the help and wanting the blessings that I much remember to always help out and do what the Lord wants of me, for I know that if I want something in my life I need to follow the commandments and serve and do all that the Lord has asked of me, for that will bring even richer blessings into my life. I’m not perfect but I am striving to be, and striving to be what the Lord wants me to be and knows who I am meant to be, and with the guidance given to me in these verses I know that I am can be another step closer.
i encourage all you to take on the challenge .. weather you be in school or not. to strive to be better , strive to be the child of god you were born to be, strive to strengthen yourself, we are not all perfect and far from our goal of Christ like. its an everyday process and i know that as i do this and hope that you do this we will be blessed and we are doing what the lord wants of us and he is smiling and rejoicing in our obedience and our unfailing faith.well i am off to bed ... good thing its a holiday!!good night and god be with you though your everyday tasks, keep that prayer in your heart!!
<3 Erin Christina Elliott
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