Why is it so hard to tell someone you like them

Why can't I tell someone that I like them.
Why do I hold on to the past.
It is over, why do I still hope there is something there.
I don't know why I pull myself away.
I know there is no way any guy could like me.
I do not want to get hurt.
I do not want to hurt a friendship.
I leave in like 2 months .. under that but oh well.
I like a guy.
I smile.
I get butterflies.
I get scared.
I pull myself out of a situation.
I run away.
....It is just my personality and his personality.

I got to teach today in the ESL classroom.
there was a sub and I kinda took over once I got there, helping out the sub and she just let me go with it. It felt so good. I know how the class is run. I have observed for 3 weeks and I know how Leslie does the story and the rules of the classroom. So I jumped in and did the work with the class and I feel so accomplished. It felt so right and I FINALLY got the class to respond to me. They partcipated and they answered my questions and they did not hang me out to dry like they did my first day when Leslie had me just jump in and read the story with her 4th period after seeing how she did it with her 3rd period.
It was just amazing the experince I had today. I loved every last min of it. I am going to be a teacher someday and cannot wait to teach. It feels so right and my life has been bless in many ways through the time I have spent doing my practicum hours for my class.

OK so I have to go and give Grant the back massage that I promised that I would give him now that he is back. Plus if I lay in his bed much longer I will end up falling asleep in here .. and well that just wouldnt be good would it .. HAH!!


<3 Erin Christina