Don't Know if you Care

I had my doctor appt last week. and the best part (not really) about it was 2 hours before the appt the wonderful gift that each woman gets that lets us all know someday she will be able to have a child came. yay!

But I still went in and talked to my doctor, I really like her, I felt comfortable.

I told her everything that goes on, and she said it could be one of three things, and that the "cure" for all of them is birth control. Yup thats right, if I wanted to say screw it to all my beliefs right now, I am protected from getting prego! HAH. The doctor had to say all the things that the birth control will do for me and what not and every time she came to something about sex she had to add in "...not that this applies to you..." It kinda made me laugh.

So the birth control is supposed to help the pain. Though I know it is not going to take it all away, though I wish it would, but as long as it is less intense. It should help with the flow, since mine is fricken heavy. It will regulate me because my period is just like me, not like everyone else! It should balance out my hormone levels so no more flipping out over trail mix or little things, I wont be on edge anymore. There are other things it should be helping with too. Like if I do have ovarian cysts it should help get rid of those. or if it is one of the other things that she said, where when i bleed it gets out and goes around my uterus -- or something like that .. it was a really long word. Both of those things are what I have the symptoms for. I am really hoping the birth control works, or well we get to have tests run, and well I don't have time, I leave in 44 days.

This morning I woke up and felt like I was going to throw up. I haven't thrown up since high school freshman year. I got my wisdom teeth out and the stuff made me sick. my body doesn't like to throw up, but I was gagging over the toilet and went pale. I spit a few times and felt better. I am hoping and praying its not the birth control doing it, but I will have to wait a week or so to see if I get sick off of this or if it is just the fact I ate too much at our Non-Thanksgiving dinner last night.

Just so you know, I'm not dying, at least we don't think so. These cramps still hurt and my back as well, but hopefully that will go away soon. ^_^

Pressing forward with faith in my Heavenly Father, everything will work out according to his plan.

<3 Erin Christina