Nutrition and Diet

I had to teach on that last thursday in class ... we had to write about the unit and what we learned from out labs on thursday for our assinment. this is what I learned.

In my lesson I put in how men and woman were different in how they are faced in the world with diet. I know that more women than men suffer from eating disorders. I told a little bit of an exsample in my lesson on how the world can really affect us in how we look and want to look. I said it was a friend who it happened to, but really it was me. I felt like I couldn't really teach this lesson while I was preparing for it, that I wasn't good enough. The day I made this lesson, through out the whole day, I had eaten 4 peaces of toast and 1 can of greenbeans. I know that I need to be eating like I am teaching but it truly is hard. It opened my eyes to the fact that even teachers aren't perfect. I fell into an eating disorder my Jr. year of high school, tired to fight it my Sr. year, and I still fall every now and than. It is even harder that I am at school, and I find every excuse not to be eating. I have made myself SO sick sometimes from what I do. Preparing this lesson has started to help me again. I was on my way back down and I am slowly pulling myself out of it again. I haven't been taken care of my body at all. I was given this body by my Heavenly Father and I treat it like nothing important at all. I have to get better, I know I can't let the world win, and I know I am not the only one going through this, and I know it is not only women either, men suffer too, its a big thing and we all nee to help remind each other and help each other though life in all that we do.

.....

i miss mike
a lot
texted him all through church
hoping he comes back with good news and not sad news
i got a text last night from him
and i acidently deleted it at church today bc i ran out of space in my inbox
but it said something alone the lines of
goodnight sunshine i miss you. sleep well. miss you and cant wait to be back there and holding you in my arms. i have something i need to talk to you about.... and there was more but i cant really remember bc the main part was the i need to talk to you that stuck out .. bc, well, that can never mean anything good, but the rest of the text made it all sound good
i just miss him and want him back here and hope that its good news he brings back to me ..


<3 Erin Christina

what a beautiful day

iwent to the temple today. LOVED IT!! I left feeling amaizng!! i dont think i have ever felt so wonderful about where my life it, and me feeling so confident in everythning just makes me more scared about Mike comming back home and what he and his mom will talk about. I really like him so so so so much.

anyways. life is so great. i love the temple, i love my roommates, i am crazy about a boy that i cant wait for him to get back here.

there was stuff i thought about while i was in the temple but i cant remember what i was going to type here.

Kayla comes in tomorrow night. i am excited to see her but kinda sad that she wont get to meet mike.

life is just great. i love life! 12 days till i am home for ryans wedding!!

Im sry i am not making much sence right now i guess.



<3 Erin Christina

4 day weekend

its kinda scary to know that this weekend can make or brake everything. I really like mike .. he left this morning for home for the long weekend. I probly wont see him till tuesday depending on when he gets back monday night. When he is at home he is going to talk to his mom ... and thats about all i know. its kinda scary.
i like him a lot. i really havent ever felt this way about a guy before.

i didnt make it to the temple today becuase i wanted to get a hw assiment done and now its to late to make it there, but tomorrow morning, monday morning and tuesday morning i will make it there.

lets see, dont know much else i have to say for now. i think now i will try to get more hw done, so that i can relax all weekend!!

nothing better than a 4 days weekend and a 3 day school week even when the guy that you are totally smitten over is gone for it!! ^_^



<3 Erin Christina

this week

i dont want it to end. friday morning Michael is leaving to go home for the long weekend. its going to suck!!
i like being with him, i enjoy every min i get to be with him and look forward to getting to see him when we are not together. how big of a sap am i?!!!!!!! oh well i dont care. all i know is i do really really like this boy. He makes me smile, i think we fit so well. he has over come so much in his life and he is a strength to me. we all have our pasts and we all have our faults, but with me, none of that really matters. its who you are now, inside and out, and this boy, i want to keep. he is what i want.


its supposed to be 85 outside today ... and i have so much hw ... i want to play outside ... grrrr ... hw should go die, no i dont want antoher 3 hour night ever again!! blah!


well till latter, i have to pull a halfa page refection on my week paper out of my butt!!!


<3 Erin Christina

Im Probly Crazy

But I know what I want
and I am waiting for him to know what he wants.
He goes home next weekend for the 4 day weekend. and when he comes back, then my answer will be there.
I have never fallen so hard and so fast for someone. I have never felt so safe with someone, and I have never wanted to not screw up so bad with someone. I have never been so scared about my feelings before, ever.
I want to be with Michael, I want to be with him. I just have to wait for him, and I will. Oh goodness ... I am crazy ... crazy for him ... I really truely am.


speeking of him, tonight is the first night all week that I wont get to spend like all day with, oh well, will give me time to..to..to..to do something, a guy shouldnt be my everything.

ps. i gave him the key. yes. I did. He gave me one of the kelitic knots he is always wearing that means protect and he took my chain and put it on there and put my key on his chain. Another crazy thing is, ever after he left last night I felt safe, now instead of him leaving and me feeling so alone, I am not anymore. Even when he isnt here, he is. ^_^



<3 Erin Christina

I have Fallen

and i dont want to get up. I dont know where he came from .. or when he came, but he is here and this one i never want to leave. I dont. I have never ever ever felt so strongly about something before. We kissed tonight and it just assured me .. i dont ever want to be left by him. I feel so strange with him not even being here right now.
I am smitten. Not going to lie I was standing there just wanting him to say the words, to make us offishal and to assure me that he wasnt going anywhere. I dont really care, i want to be his.
Its scary that I have never felt this way before but i do .. i do feel this way and well .. I could be crazy, but if i am, i want to be, i love it.

All i can say is i have never felt this way before. Its scary, but i have to face my feelings. I have never felt so right being in someones arms. I have never felt so strongly and so sure that i dont want to be let go, that i dont want to lose someone, that well, i always want to be with that person. I know i sound crazy bc i have known him for 4 weeks and i have only been on like a dating level for 1 week, but i cant stop what my heart feels, and yes..its feeling!!

but i got to get some sleep...i have hw to finsh in the morning ^_^

good night everyone


<3 Erin Christina

I Just

LOVE LIFE.
I know the most amazing guy in the whole world, well at least I think so.
He makes me smile!
I am sitting in class and I just had to do this now.
I will write more later about everything.
As you guessed it, it is Mike I am speaking of.
There is something about him, I feel drawn to him and when we are apart I feel so different. I really really like him!
He sent me a text that I will type out when I get home.
The weridness that was kinda there about him is all gone. It doesnt bug me anymore. I like him!! He makes me smile. I am totaly smitten and can't wait till e comes over tonight!! ^_^


<3 Erin Christina

Words Can't Even Descirbe

How I feel right now ..
last night,
HEH!!! :D
After Mike left after helpping me with homework I shut the door and Amy, Sabrnia, and Sam were all on the couch and my face just lit up. I tried to act cool and Amy told me to come sit by her and I ran and jumped on the couch and just was giggling and smiling like a giddy school girl. I can't remember the last time a guy made me feel this way. He hasn't tried anything yet which makes it all the better. Even last night when I was sitting there waiting for something, anything, ANYTHING, nothing...for reals?! yes! It's soooo nice..this guy I will follow the M&M's and icecream rule ^_^
It feels so good to be treated the way the Mike treats me. So just when I thought that there were no gentalmen left in the world, no guy would ever respect me and I would continue to be used, I'm not, they still are living in the world.
He is so cool and my roommates love him, and 100% approve of him! He is pretty great, and well I am not saying anything because well we all know me, i jix myself WAY to much!!

Well its time to get ready for school, and at 3:30 Mike is coming over and we are studing for out test we have Wed/Thursday for the class we are in together.

Isn't like amazing?!!
It SO is!


<3 Erin Christina

happy mommys day

Sometimes I wonder if the older i get the worse my problems are going to get.

Between my ribs and my hips is 1-2 fingers space. which my roommates keep saying is bad. and I think they are right, that cant be good. My ribs are pretty big as well, they are not portortional to me as a whole.
I have back problems .. and well major pains in my lower back from time to time. I talked to my mom about some issues i have been running into and she said when i get home we will look into them .. i hate docters. cant my problems just be the unknown death of me...*sigh*

lets see.
not much is new
just things
i miss home, and my mom and yea.
I wish i could just stay out here this fall, but i cant. talked to my mom about it, i have to go home, there is no way i can make enough money to even pay for a semester. so i will have to deal with seeing if she can pay for me to do online classes while i save up for winter. I cant get over the fact that i feel like i need to be out here, for some reason i dont know.
but i listen to what my mom says and i do as she says. she knows what is best for me.

I enjoy spending time with and getting to know Mike. He seems really cool. He came over yesterday to do our assinment for our class thats due tuesday. But in anything with anyone i wont get anywhere because who wants to get into anything with a girl who will be leaving and going back to texas. I know I dont want to do a long distance thing, i want to stay out here, but well, that wont happen.

anyways, going to stare at excel a bit longer and not know how to do what i need to do some more!!



<3 Erin Christina

I'm A Trekie

Last night was awesome!! I went on a date with a pretty cool guy from my World FD class. It is really cool getting to know new people and to get out of the house, I should try it more offten.
The guys name is Mike and we went and saw Star Trek and it was pretty good!! yes, I say it may 7th , first showing was at 7:30 last night! I would so see it again if I could!!
I love how people always read me wrong. Mike thought he had me all figuared out and well he most deff didnt. He had me all wrong. Maybe thats why I have such a hard time getting guys, becuase they can't read me to well.
I can say though, the thing that made the night the best was he was one of the first guys in a long time that didnt try anything with me. He didnt put his arm around me, he didnt try to hold my hand, he didnt try to kiss me. We talked and laughed and watched a pretty kick A movie. It felt nice to be with a true gentalman. did i mention he opened like all the doors for me and got mad when i opened my own door to get out of the car!!
It was a good night. I enjoyed it. BUT, there is no jumping to conclutions, because i still want to date around. and brian shows up everyonce in a while and its nice to see him!!
I just love it when people stop by!! It makes me happy and I love seeing them and talking!!

for this weekend the true question is ... when will i start my hw and how will i do it ... bc i have a lot due on tuesday, should i start doing that this weekend...hmmmm

well thats all for now!!



<3 Erin Christina

Education in Society

In today’s society education is taken differently by different people, their definition mainly comes from who you are in the society they live in. There are some people who will argue over what an education is. People think differently on the topic of education depending on who you are in society.
Education is the act of acquiring general knowledge, developing reasoning and judgment, and preparing intellectually for life. Education is the degree of or kind of schooling, it is the product that is produced by instruction or training on a certain or many different things.
There are people who will tell you the only way to get an education is at school. After mentioning school education the argument of home school, public school, and privet school and which one is better comes into play. Each is students getting an education, the same things are being taught, sometimes at different speeds and levels, but in the end, the students come out being taught the same things just differently. That is one of the things about education today, there are many forms of it, and that’s just formal education too, everyone has their own view on it.
Speaking about people’s views on education, people see getting one differently, and depending on that persons attitude on an education, can change a student’s attitude on getting an education or how they are going to take theirs.
I would now like to take this in a different direction; read the case study and ponder on the questions to follow.
Valerie grew up in a good home with good parents. Her parents are well educated and have supported her in everything she has done. Valerie loved school and holds her education very high in her life and knows everything that it will help her with in this life in everything she does. It’s a new school year and her American History teacher just doesn’t care about teaching or about the class, he is only interested in how his football team is doing. He doesn’t spend much time teaching and believes that all the students don’t care about learning so why bother. Valerie soon starts losing interest in the class and starts debating if she should go to class or not. Why?
The attitude of her teacher makes her start to feel the same about not caring about the class or learning the information. She loves school, but because of the way her teacher views teaching and if students want to learn, she just doesn’t care.
Now think if she didn’t have parents who cared about her education, parents who thought that education wasn’t important at all? Or parents who pushed her to hard to get one? Both of those can affect how a student takes education into their life. They are there because they have to be, not enjoying and not taking much in, just there because they are being forced to. Maybe she wouldn’t even be in school. If there was no support then what she has to go off of, with no motivation from the family, she might not have much motivation herself.
Let’s try another one:
Christina HATES school, she thinks it’s just a waste of time. All she is ever told at home is she is too dumb and to just drop out of school, it’s not that important. All of her friends don’t hold education in a good view. They all believe it is useless and that they will never use any of it in their lives. Christina starts taking a class from Mrs. Wilcox and her enthusiasm for the students and for the subject inspires Christina. It becomes her favorite class and looks forward to going every day. She has a good grade in the class, and also her other grades start going up too.
Why do Christina’s grades in all her classes start improving? Can a teacher’s positive attitude and having faith in confidence in their students really change the attitudes and interest in their students? If a parent or teacher cares about the student and their education the student will reflect that in their views as well. If they don’t care the student won’t care as well.
That is just the way America is today. You see in more and more schools how students think about school, they love it, they hate it, or they just really don’t care. It really does reflect the way their home life is or the way their teachers are. It is crazy to think about what America world be like if every parent supported their child in getting an education and was educated themselves, and how teachers teach and their views on education.
I hated school at one point. I felt too much pressure on me from home, and I had teachers that just didn’t care. That followed me from my freshman year of high school till I got out to Brigham Young University-Idaho. That’s when I had teachers that cared about teaching, and loved teaching and cared about how all of their students were doing.
Everyone views education differently, and has a different impact on how education is in society. Until you dig in and look closely you will have your own thoughts on how education is. I believe that every parent should really look at their child’s school and see how they are teaching, running classes, and educating their children. An interest in Education is the best way to bring education into great and positive views into society, but first everyone needs to see how it really is, everyone needs to see education in the process.


<3 Erin Christina

Is There...

I am beginning to wonder if there is a guy "set aside" for me. Could he, the one, be "the one" for someone else as well as for me? It's kinda crazy and stupid that I'm even thinking about it, but, really, is there someone (THE ONE) out there for everyone?

It has been almost a year that he broke my heart, that he chose someone else over me. I have yet to find a guy like him.. We were friends, just friends for a while, till one day someone sparked, it was slow but I did like him. I haven't ever felt the same or found that same type of relationship with a guy since then.

Sometimes i feel like i am just a peice of meat to guys. That I am used because I am too nice. Why can't the guys I feel comfortable around guys? Why can't the guys I am interested in be interseted in me? Wgt cab't i just have the same relationship that "he" and I had?

I hate feeling like a peice of meat and being used. I also hate being a bit on the mean sinde to guys when they want a step in a direction that I just don't feel ready for or comfortable going in.

No matter who hard i try, no matter how much i want something, I can't get myself to do anything

My heart still hurts. Sometimes it feels better, but there hasn't been anyone to hold it together even when they are gone.

Do I settle for something less than what I once had? Do I force myself to feel something I don't feel?

Why do I feel like I am ready and at the same time not.

It's been almost a year now, he is marrying somone else, he is marrying her and i am still sitting here with a broken heart? It doesnt feel broken anymore. I want to date, I want to get married, I want my happly ever after, why though am I flirting up a storm but when a guy asks me out I try to fun as fast and as far away as I can..

Is there someone for everyone? Is mine out there? Can people have the same one, and if you didn't win them, you lost?




<3 Erin Christina

No TX

i am still in idaho .. though i would rather be in tx
things just couldnt work out because of school and homework and all that fun stuff.
i just wish i could be home for lacie.
but i am so greatful to know that even though Lirahs heart stopped beating her spirit will live forever. but really, its such a hard thing for a girl lacies age to go though (18) but she is strong just please keep praying for her and her husban Jon.

Not to much in the world of Erin, same old same old, school and homework and sleep -- thats all i have time for.

1 month and 3 days till i go home for the wedding.

<3 Erin Christina