I don't Understand

So this was day three of the semester.  Yea I am on the stressed side of life.  My classes are pretty killer, but at the same time kind of fun.  I just have to learn to get back into the swing of things and get organized again.
Tomorrow I am in the school!!! How cool is that.  I wont be in the first grade classroom I was assigned just yet, but we will get to have a meeting with the principal of the school and also ask the questions for our first paper due next week.  So I will be staying busy with school work and what not ... OH JOY ... hah oh well.

I was asked out the other night.  I don't know when the date will be, but I did say yes to a date.  I know right, HUGE thing for me, since I am pretty much anti-dating .. two of friends (G and Ryan) are making a big deal about it. 

So I texted Mike and just like I thought he did not reply.  No I was not caving and wanting to see him, but just like always, he is hurt by a girl and it kills me when that happens.  I can't really say it is unfair, but it does feel like it and I wish that I was allowed to hurt so bad.  But I am allowed to right?  I have been "chasing" this guy for a year.  Wanting to be with him at any cost.  I wish I had known back then that the cost would be this high.  I hurt so bad.  I want nothing more then for him to be happy, for these girls to just stop walking all over him and treating him so wrong.  I know that I wouldnt treat him that way, but I am not the girl he wants.  I have to give up on him.  I have to take back my life to being MINE.  Yea, I know it will hurt but someday I will get over it.  Someday I will feel better.  Someday.  Someday.  Someday cant come soon enough.  So I will continue to cry over a dumb boy, until I heal.  But I wont let this effect my life.  I have already started to bring myself up and  be who I use to be.  It will take some time and I know I will never fully heal but getting hurt by a guy should not control my life.  Everything will work out the way the Lord has planed.  Lets just hope he has me planed to stay here, I dont want to go home, not yet, not now.

Well one of my roomies April made crepes and I am going to go eat one.

<3  Erin Christina