So where to start...

It is a new year.
I'm on my own again.
A few things I have said I wouldnt do I have done. But I am growing and learning and trying to hold me in there.
I am slowly getting my heart back into feeling and not wanting so badly.
I saw Mike.
Hung out with Mike.
We talked.
I know some people who read this, so, I wont go into detail just because my brother who only takes my life into a joke and to rip me apart would use this post against me.
I feel so much better.
I'm holding myself together.
"The problem is that I still have that part screaming I WANT TO BE WITH YOU, Mike, I still like you..."
"And I still like you, or I wouldnt be here."
It could just be one of those things where he is messing with me but whatever. I am pressing forward. I am going to date, I am going to be whoever and whatever I want. Mike is in my life and that is one thing that I wanted above all else. We can be ourselfs together. My roommates thought we were something because of the way we were on the couch, BUT nope, just friends and love the fact that we are. All the drama and crap is behind us and it is back to normal.

I love my roommates and today was such a great day. We have been having so much fun. even though it is me and Amy (jrs.) and the other 3 are fish. We have another BUT she hasnt been here ... she is engaged and has been staying with the boy from what we were told.

I am going to start a new thing. A hymn of the day. Music is my life and a hymn that hits me and helps me though a day I will post and write about it.

<3 Erin Christina