To Whom It May Concern

Dear Sir,
How are you doing today? I hope you have been wonderful and enjoying you semester and doing well in all your classes.
Hope you have been able to beat those girls off with a good stick, a bad one wont effect them and much and they will be coming back more and more.
Make sure you are staying out of trouble. No trips to Vegas and having some drunken mistakes OK!!
I have been told to just come out and say everything that needs to be said, everything I talk to Natalia about. She one the one who even convinced me to write this and has been bugging me since I wrote it to send it to you. Right now as I am writing I don’t know if I will be able to just send it to you, I don’t know if I really have it in me to do so.
I just can’t really tell you everything that is going through my head right now. That why I haven’t been 100% truthful with you about things going on here back home…I’m sorry, but I really haven’t. There are many things I have twisted as I am sure you have as well.
I don’t really know how to say what is going through my head…even in writing it just doesn’t come out right. I can tell Natalia how I feel but she is a girl and well I guess we understand each other in that way that only girls can know without either of them even saying anything.
Amanda told me about the text conversation you two had. She said you didn’t give straight answers. She came to me with everything you had said and was confused. There was a reason I don’t talk to people about what happened at school with you. I talk to Natalia and I write in my blog. So people can read but they don’t really know and Natalia is there to kind of help me sort things out through my head, really just so I can get the thoughts out and start to just keep going. People ask about the Knot all the time. I tell them, what you told Amanda, a friend gave it to me. Except, you said to amazing “IDK, friends.” I think that is what confused me the most…and people ask me what happened to the key, and I tell them I lost it.
I am sorry if this goes against what we said. The promise I made that I said I would keep. That we would not talk about any of this. That is what I planned on doing, what I wanted to do, I respected the agreement we made, but Natalia keeps saying I should write the letter and send it.
So now that I have gone through this long letter and you probly won’t even read this far. You probly got to where it pass the line of the agreement we made and now your upset that I went against the promise, to stay friends and not bring any of this up. But here is the main part of the letter.
I would like to know your side of what happened. I want to know what it was through your eyes, from your mind. You told Amanda “long story. Ask her.” I don’t have much of a story to tell. Natalia says mine is one sided and incomplete. She is actually very interested in knowing what you had thought too. I don’t tell the story because people always ask Why this and Why that, and well I don’t have the answers.
I don’t even know if I will send this. It might just sit here forever. But if somehow this does get to you: What is your side of what happened?


Always,
Erin Christina