Today Hurt

I thought I saw him.
I wanted to run to him.
Yell out his name. 
Tell him to wait.
I couldn't move.
I could't speak.
Couldn't breath.
I knew it couldn't be him.
He isn't here anymore.
Something  inside, though, wanted it to be him.
I just stood there.
A few tears ran down my face.
I know people looked at me funny.
But I payed no attention to anything around me.
I was alone in a world.
Frozen in time.
Why would this come back now? 
I had been doing so good.
He barely comes into my thoughts any more.
Thinking I saw him has destoried everything I have been working on the last three weeks. 
Every cut reopened.
I wanted to fall to the ground and cry.
That would be letting him win.
I own my life.
It is funny how not that he is gone I know that I can openly admit that I know I loved him.
So this is what love feels like...
I never want anything to do with it ever again.
I don't ever want to feel this pain ever again.
I cannot got through this ever again.

Why does my heart still call his name? 
Why does can't my heart forget him?
Why can't I move on?
...I thought I was...

I thought he was gone...I guess I was wrong.

(I guess the funny part was as I watched this guy walk I looked at how he walked just to make sure 100% that he was not Michael.  This guy walked like a normal person - 2 real legs!)


<3  Erin Christina