The Answer I wasnt Looking for but I Got it Anyway

for the past 5 years (this july it will be 6) i have been struggling with the concept of eternal families. I recently came to grasps with it a year ago, to on thursday get that thought changed again by being told by my religion teacher the answer to a question i have had. He told me (i guess without really knowing he told me) that since my dad has left the church he has left the covinent and he is no longer sealed to my family. How are families forever? Not to meantion the whole Ryan and I not talking, more so hurting my testamony and me 100% questioning eternal families.

i am soooo emotionly tired from the day so its bearly even gunna say how i have felt...and everything that happened but i need to share this...

I was up until 430am reading talks and articals about eternal families looking for those answers to about my dad and my brother...couldnt find them, i just kept reading about the family and how they are forever and how they are one of the keys to celestial glory. In major tiredness and eyes heavey from crying i passed out.

i awoke this morning and just started complaining about not having an answer and not getting it...it just doesnt work for me.

as it being fast sunday i was fasting for well my finalcial situation and also to understand the question on eternal families ..

i hate to say it but my questions werent asnwered ...

i was sitting in sacriemnt meeting and started tearing up. as the meeting went on it was harder and harder to hold back. by the time the sacriment was being passed i was bawling. i was over welmed by the spirit and reading my patriatical blessing where it meantions eaternal families 3 or 4 times and the things it says about them...i was shaking. for i knew .. that families are eternal ... though my question about my dad and brother were not answered, i know what i read last night is true and i know that families really are forever, and it is a blessing that i have been promised and get to enjoy, so though i dont understand the basics of it, somehow i KNOW with all my heart that families are eternal.

the rest of the meetings followed in the same spirital atmospher and it was hard for me to control myself. Sam taught sunday school and the way he teaches ... i was so over whelmed with the spirit .. the lession was on revalation and well, it tied in so perfectly with everything i needed to hear.


i am sry but i am soooo emotionly drained and sooo tired and its past my bed time and i gotta read my scriptures and will probly pass out saying my prayers ...

i know this isnt nearly touching on anything that happened today but it was just so amazing and so much happened i had to share a tiny bit ..

goodnight.

<3 Erin Christina