I have to get something. I can't live like this. Its not a healthy life style. My Apt. payment needs to post so i can take a good look at what i have. though i did do some math i could make it till mid march!! So i mean i had my own little 3 month food storage going!! thats what we are supposed to have, right, ok i know its not 7 years, but i am kinda proud of myself. Becuase with food storage we cant be picky. I call my life style practice.
Its kinda hard though i make up need and want lists and things just keep ending up on my want list. i WANT this and i WANT that, but do i NEED it, do i?
I think what it comes down to, is i do have a bit of money that i can get food but i am afraid. i want that in my bank account. what if something happened that i needed that money. what if i thought i had everything paid for and i didnt and so i chose food over books? i am to scared to spend the money.
I'm just not in the mood to eat any of the food that i have. I am so sick of these food craving i have been having. Sometimes i wish i was home for sunday dinner. Beef, potatoes, gravey, green beans, mixed vegies, home made rolls, dads orange juliouse. But this is part of growing up, its part of the experince. I feel blessed. sounds funny right. But i feel blessed to be going through this. The Lord has enough trust in me to BLESS me with this trial. yes i said bless!!
What am I complaining about? I have food, and ramen is better then nothing, bc there are people who have nothing, i have something. no matter how much i dont want ramen or hate eating just plain eggs i am going to. I know the Lord is looking out for me. He has my back.
on the plus side for those who know my DDP addiction .. i bought 3 12 packs at the start of the semester and i am still working on the 2nd and tomorrow is the last day of Feb. I am pretty proud of my self!!
So i am gunna stop complaining about how misrable i am, just because it seems hard and i am getting sick of it doesnt mean that there is no way out. I am gunna suck it up and push myself, get over these little road bumps, and work it out. I am a daughter of God who wont let me fall, he is watching over me and i see his hand in everything i do! I am blessed to be in the spot i am right now.
<3 Erin Christina
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
WHOOT
so i dont have to record my eatings yet!! she was wrong with the date and sent us an emial say that the lab wasnt due till NEXT monday. but by the looks of things i wont have food left by then ... hmmm wonder what gunna happen after that -- i mean there is no room in our fridge for ANYTHING ... the other 5 girls fill it up and go shopping like twice a week and complaine there is not room in the fridge .. i always walk off when they have that convo bc well .. i have eggs in there -- and my beef and rice in a smaller container. ok then i have expired milk that i yucky but i am using it that sits in door along with a few slices of cheese and a baggie with like 2 pices of bacon. ya thats what i have in our fridge. OHOHOHO even better they have started using my food cubboreds as a place to put pots and pans and tuberwear bc well theres no room where we keep that stuff and theres room in there bc all that is in that cubord is well 8 things of ramen and some instnat oatmeal packets. so its a good thing i have no food or my roommates would have room to put any of their things ... so even if i had food i wouldnt have anywhere to put it. on another note ... i NEED to do londry i will start washing them in less quantities then i did last time because well -- that was just crazy we dont need that again. it went a little something like this -- ok not something i recored it when i did it...
so less itams and so it wont be as bad and hard to dry. i hate not drying my jeans in the dryer .. none of them fit they are all big and baggy and its driving me insane!! i want my clothes to fit!! :( but i gotta wash my clothes ...i only have 2 clean skirts left and well i am out of lights and have been forever bc when i washed clothes i only washed darks. hah my roommates do londrey like twice a week as well -- wish i had money to wash and buy food as much as they do. i see them throw away food too, and they have so much yet they have to go out and buy more--its maddness i tell you bc i sit here with, well, nothing. i know the only reason i am still able to stand tall and strong is bc well the Lord is watching out for me, i know he is, how else would someone beable to live off oatmeal, beef and rice, and ramen for the last 2 weeks :D yup thats what i have been eating, and im almost totally out. kinda scary, but i know everything will work out .. some way of antoher. <3 Erin Christina
so less itams and so it wont be as bad and hard to dry. i hate not drying my jeans in the dryer .. none of them fit they are all big and baggy and its driving me insane!! i want my clothes to fit!! :( but i gotta wash my clothes ...i only have 2 clean skirts left and well i am out of lights and have been forever bc when i washed clothes i only washed darks. hah my roommates do londrey like twice a week as well -- wish i had money to wash and buy food as much as they do. i see them throw away food too, and they have so much yet they have to go out and buy more--its maddness i tell you bc i sit here with, well, nothing. i know the only reason i am still able to stand tall and strong is bc well the Lord is watching out for me, i know he is, how else would someone beable to live off oatmeal, beef and rice, and ramen for the last 2 weeks :D yup thats what i have been eating, and im almost totally out. kinda scary, but i know everything will work out .. some way of antoher. <3 Erin Christina
Insight -- i kinda liked it ..
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 348 Date: February 25, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
3Nephi 8:20-21, 23
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Light of Christ
3) What message for improvement is taught?
When Christ was taken from the earth there was darkness for 3 days. The symbolisms that Christ is the light of the world, during the 3 days that he was dead before he had been resurrected there was no light, and all was dark. The people could even feel the deepness of the darkness. No light could be shined, no candle, moon or stars. Without Christ the world would be in utter darkness. People crying and screaming and having no clue what to do. Everyone was so lost, and that is what it is like when people don’t have Christ in their lives, or if they fall off the path of the iron rod and fall into the mists of darkness.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
Christ is my light. In the times that I have kind of faltered and lost sight of him, those were cold dark scary times. I have for the past year striven to bring him into ever part of my life, home, school, relationships, friends, etc. After being lost in that darkness I never want to again. It was the coldest, the scarcest times of my life, the most lost I have ever felt. It’s so dark I had no clue where I was going, I was so lost. Christ is the light in my life; he guides my every foot step and is the light for me when I have to step into the dark, with him there is no darkness. Without him I would be lost and in utter despair. The time without Christ is something I never want to go though again, he is always with me now, I keep that prayer in my heart and will continue to, because as long as I do what I am supposed to be doing, he will be there and my life will be filled with light.
<3 Erin Christina
1) What is the reference of the insight?
3Nephi 8:20-21, 23
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Light of Christ
3) What message for improvement is taught?
When Christ was taken from the earth there was darkness for 3 days. The symbolisms that Christ is the light of the world, during the 3 days that he was dead before he had been resurrected there was no light, and all was dark. The people could even feel the deepness of the darkness. No light could be shined, no candle, moon or stars. Without Christ the world would be in utter darkness. People crying and screaming and having no clue what to do. Everyone was so lost, and that is what it is like when people don’t have Christ in their lives, or if they fall off the path of the iron rod and fall into the mists of darkness.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
Christ is my light. In the times that I have kind of faltered and lost sight of him, those were cold dark scary times. I have for the past year striven to bring him into ever part of my life, home, school, relationships, friends, etc. After being lost in that darkness I never want to again. It was the coldest, the scarcest times of my life, the most lost I have ever felt. It’s so dark I had no clue where I was going, I was so lost. Christ is the light in my life; he guides my every foot step and is the light for me when I have to step into the dark, with him there is no darkness. Without him I would be lost and in utter despair. The time without Christ is something I never want to go though again, he is always with me now, I keep that prayer in my heart and will continue to, because as long as I do what I am supposed to be doing, he will be there and my life will be filled with light.
<3 Erin Christina
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Stress
Have i been stressing a lot lately. I thought I was claming down. I think though i havent, I dont get out, and I spend most of my time worring about things that maybe I shouldnt.
Whats funny is I am stressing out on the fact that I am braking out worse then I have EVER before and I think that might be causing me to brake out more, or it could be the change in my diet from food to barly anything.
On another note, why do I dream about him everynight? Its driving me CRAZY! I wake up every morning know that it was all a DREAM but it makes me not want to wake up, it makes me want to keep dreaming...I want to stay in that dream world of mine, stay there and live happly ever after with Sam, because in reality it takes so much of me to go up and talk to him about something. I really like him and cant bring myself to want to "long" after another guy. ITS LAME!!
I have started to plan out next semester and need to take a test to get into a math class and I am looking at 8 classes and 17 credits unless I decied to be the dumbest person alive and take 9 classes and 20 credits so I can get things done, but I think those above me would advise against it. Maybe take one of two classes at TCC when I am home? I need to catch up bc I am about a year behind in my major, and I dont want to spend the rest of my life in school.
ok well I got to take 4 more practice quizs and then brush my teeth and run off to class.
got a quiz to take and then also a test to take today. pray fo me!!
<3 Erin Christina
Whats funny is I am stressing out on the fact that I am braking out worse then I have EVER before and I think that might be causing me to brake out more, or it could be the change in my diet from food to barly anything.
On another note, why do I dream about him everynight? Its driving me CRAZY! I wake up every morning know that it was all a DREAM but it makes me not want to wake up, it makes me want to keep dreaming...I want to stay in that dream world of mine, stay there and live happly ever after with Sam, because in reality it takes so much of me to go up and talk to him about something. I really like him and cant bring myself to want to "long" after another guy. ITS LAME!!
I have started to plan out next semester and need to take a test to get into a math class and I am looking at 8 classes and 17 credits unless I decied to be the dumbest person alive and take 9 classes and 20 credits so I can get things done, but I think those above me would advise against it. Maybe take one of two classes at TCC when I am home? I need to catch up bc I am about a year behind in my major, and I dont want to spend the rest of my life in school.
ok well I got to take 4 more practice quizs and then brush my teeth and run off to class.
got a quiz to take and then also a test to take today. pray fo me!!
<3 Erin Christina
Im not doing to well at updating ...
this is how i spent my Vday weekend. reading that book to write this paper that you will see next .. though the papper is the one i turned in, but the one that i liked better -- this paper would have been a B+ my teacher told me. though i have come up with another way, a better way i should of writen the paper but to late now right, turned the paper in last friday!
Go Forward With Faith
Gordon B. Hinckley – A Great Leader
“You shall not only become great yourself but your posterity will become great, from your loins will come forth statesmen, prophets, priests and Kings to the most high God. The priesthood will never depart from your family, no never. To you posterity there shall be no end…and the name of Hinckley shall be honored in every nation under heaven.” Bryant Hinckley’s patriarchal blessing had promised him and his wife Ada this and they couldn’t have even in any way been able to predict how much their first child together, Gordon Bitner Hinckley, would fulfill this prophesy and become a great leader to many.
Go Forward with Faith is a biography about Gordon B. Hinckley written by Sheri Dew. She is a Latter-day Saint leader, an inspirational speaker, a writer, a White House delegate to the United Nations, and she is also the president and chief executive officer of Deseret Book. As an author Sheri Dew has written the authorized biographies of two LDS Church presidents, Ezra Taft Benson and Gordon B. Hinckley. She has also written the biography of 1986 Miss America Sharlene Wells and also four inspirational volumes: No Doubt About it; No One Can Take Your Place; If Life Where Easy, It Wouldn’t Be Hard; and God Wants A Powerful People.
President Hinckley didn’t want a biography written about him. He would have rather his story go untold. When Sheri Dew brought him the first third of the manuscript he told her “I am sick, sick, sick of reading about Gordon Hinckley. There is too much about Gordon Hinckley in this manuscript.” He didn’t want this book to describe him as something he wasn’t. She had a hard time understanding him; he wanted the book to show him as an ordinary man. Leadership isn’t about the person in the front saying “Look at me!” A leader could be someone in the back who doesn’t want to show off. Gordon Hinckley didn’t want everyone to praise him for what he did, he did it because it was asked of him and was what he was called to do.
In his childhood he learned from his mistakes, he learned valuable lesions and made promises to himself, strengthened his character. Growing up he was never too enthused about school and would always try to avoid it. The year he and his friends were moving out of the elementary school into the Jr. high his class was moved back to the elementary school for another year. In rebellion, along with a group of friends, he went “on strike” and skipped school. When returning to school they were not let back without a written note explaining their absences from their parents. Ada Hinckley wrote "Dear Mr. Stearns please excuse Gordon’s absence yesterday. His action was simply an impulse to follow the crowd." He was ashamed for he was one of whom came up with the idea and got others to join. He then made up his mind that he would never again do anything to just “follow the crowd”. President Hinckley spoke numbers of time to youth of the church on following the crowd and on peer-pressure and how important it was to not fall into those things.
In school he had one of the most competent grammarians in the state as a teacher, he was a stickler but Gordon learned the intricacies of grammar and took naturally to his tutoring. Another of his teachers was ruthless in his critiques in writing, but Gordon found it stimulating and motivating. Throughout his schooling he had gained a great knowledge and was able to converse intelligently. His vast knowledge of writing and speech gave him the skills he needed to fulfill his duties throughout his life, for he did much, much speaking to many people all over the world. People were moved by his words and way of conversing and how he got his point across. Skilled in arguments and negotiating, he knew how to make others feel and understand what he was saying and believe in its truth. Faith, hope, love, and charity were qualities he held and used in communication.
He was loved and admired by many. He visited and spoke to people all over the world. He the people he came in contact with. He was the first general authority to visit some places, the people loved and respected him, and they could see how much he truly cared. Through his words the people could see his true compassion for them. It was once said “Gordon has magnificent gifts of written and oral expression. His judgment stands up in every situation. His insight into human character and situations is rich and meaningful. He knows when silence is better than utterance. He has a sense of humor that endears him to all.
He said is in his first address as a consular in the First Presidency. “And now a new assignment has come. … This sacred calling has made me aware of my weaknesses. If I have offended at any time, I apologize and hope you will forgive me. Whether this assignment be lengthy of brief, I pledge my best effort, given with love and faith.” He told everyone that he was not perfect, and wanted them to all know that if he makes a mistake or disappoints anyone that he was sorry. Something that takes a true leader to say.
“Thou shalt grow to the full stature of manhood and shall become a mighty and valiant leader in the midst of Israel…The Holy Priesthood shall be thine to enjoy and thou shalt minister in the mist of Israel as only those who are called of God. Thou shalt ever be a messenger of peace; the nations of the earth shall hear thy voice and be brought to a knowledge of the truth by the wonderful testimony which though shalt bear.” Gordon B. Hinckley, blessed by God to be a leader to the world.
Its been BEAUTIFUL the past few day!! saturday we went ice skating and thought we were going to fall through the ice bc it was so warm it would melt! but it was fun!! Spring is deffintly in the air -- and hoping it will stay like this!! it has to have been in the 40s short sleve weather!! we have basicly has to swim to class as well!! the iceburg is melting and floding the sidewalks and streets and parking lots! its amazing to see this becuase last winter the only day it was like this was the day of the temple dedication. ITS AMAIZING!!
ummmmmmmm....lets see what else is there... not much else i guess, i live in my room and have just been trying to pass classes, i am guessing by next week i will be out of food. sad day i know .. well i could eat oatmeal for every meal but i kinda want that to last me for my mornings .. dont know how much longer that will last .. but i know the Lord is watching out for me.
i am starting to get into my calling a bit more ... though i am still just kinda arg bc i thought i was done with it when i left TX but its the only way to keep me in RS. i am trying to put my all into it now and its hard. thinking of the thoughtful or perferfect things to do for my 5min music, and its kinda frusttating as well when the girls just dont sing the hymn like they should, they dont share my passion that i keep trying to share with them, its sadening. but i keep trying!!
i think thats all gunna read some history notes for a bit and pray i pass my quiz and test i have to take tomorrow!! yay!! --not--hah!!
<3 Erin Christina
Thursday, February 19, 2009
I am 30lbs of fat ..
a lab in my health and wellness class told me that ... i am also 22.9% body fat .. but also this was told to me by a 100% guess weight -- i havent been on a scale in over a month!! and my weight changes ... so ya ...
anyway here is an insight for your enjoyment!
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 453 Date: February 18, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Helaman 13:29, 37, 38
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Foolishness of men
3) What message for improvement is taught?
In 29 we are asked questions, questions to reflect on who we are and what we are doing, not we but those who have forgotten God. “ye wicked and perverse generation” the Book of Mormon is written for us in our time, this is stated towards out generation. In 37 we are told about how there is temptation around us at all times. 38 is where the true doctrine comes in, where it is then the day of judgment and for not repenting when the chance was given and time has run out. This earth life is a predatory state. This is the time when we learn and we grow in the grace of God. This is time that we prepare for eternity and the day of judgment. Will the time be wasted and spent on trying to find true happiness in unholy things or will we follow the commandments of God and be prepared.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
“ye wicked and perverse generation” the Book of Mormon is written for us in our time, this is stated towards out generation. The questions in 26 hit me hard, I read each one and thought; Have I been this way? Have I done this? Have I been in darkness rather than light? Have I been lead blindly and foolishly? I don’t want to be! I don’t want to be sought by those dark demons, by the angles of Satin, I don’t want him to have a hold of me and give him the power to slowly destroy me. Then again in 38, it made me think, have I put off my time of repentance, have I put aside all the little things, those little things that have built up and have added on and let me slowly slip? Am I wasting time here, for I know the time is short, am I preparing myself or playing around? Have I sought out for the things that are not righteous or done the things that have lead me down the path of iniquity? I know that I have made mistakes, I know in my life I have procrastinated my time for repentance, those were the darkest years of my life, the years I felt most lost, slowly being brought down, slowly letting Him grab a hold of my heart, letting him drag my spirit down. Since I have let my time go to waste. The things said the three scriptures I don’t want to be about me. I have taken the words to heart, the powerful questions, I will always remember and constantly ask myself, and always make sure that my answers are no. So when the day of judgment comes, that I may have not procrastinated and that I may have not done any of the other things, be in light not darkness, be lifted up by righteous doings, standing in the light, surround by the Lords angles ready to life me up to eternal salvation to live and dwell with my heavenly family for all eternity.
<3 Erin Christina
anyway here is an insight for your enjoyment!
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 453 Date: February 18, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Helaman 13:29, 37, 38
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Foolishness of men
3) What message for improvement is taught?
In 29 we are asked questions, questions to reflect on who we are and what we are doing, not we but those who have forgotten God. “ye wicked and perverse generation” the Book of Mormon is written for us in our time, this is stated towards out generation. In 37 we are told about how there is temptation around us at all times. 38 is where the true doctrine comes in, where it is then the day of judgment and for not repenting when the chance was given and time has run out. This earth life is a predatory state. This is the time when we learn and we grow in the grace of God. This is time that we prepare for eternity and the day of judgment. Will the time be wasted and spent on trying to find true happiness in unholy things or will we follow the commandments of God and be prepared.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
“ye wicked and perverse generation” the Book of Mormon is written for us in our time, this is stated towards out generation. The questions in 26 hit me hard, I read each one and thought; Have I been this way? Have I done this? Have I been in darkness rather than light? Have I been lead blindly and foolishly? I don’t want to be! I don’t want to be sought by those dark demons, by the angles of Satin, I don’t want him to have a hold of me and give him the power to slowly destroy me. Then again in 38, it made me think, have I put off my time of repentance, have I put aside all the little things, those little things that have built up and have added on and let me slowly slip? Am I wasting time here, for I know the time is short, am I preparing myself or playing around? Have I sought out for the things that are not righteous or done the things that have lead me down the path of iniquity? I know that I have made mistakes, I know in my life I have procrastinated my time for repentance, those were the darkest years of my life, the years I felt most lost, slowly being brought down, slowly letting Him grab a hold of my heart, letting him drag my spirit down. Since I have let my time go to waste. The things said the three scriptures I don’t want to be about me. I have taken the words to heart, the powerful questions, I will always remember and constantly ask myself, and always make sure that my answers are no. So when the day of judgment comes, that I may have not procrastinated and that I may have not done any of the other things, be in light not darkness, be lifted up by righteous doings, standing in the light, surround by the Lords angles ready to life me up to eternal salvation to live and dwell with my heavenly family for all eternity.
<3 Erin Christina
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
yay for super cheesy school assiments!!
for my child dev. class we have to write 6 papers, and make them meaningful to us -- well there are 3 of them, though well since i cant sleep with this huge headach coming from lack of sleep i might as well start writing them ... enjoy!!
My Dear Sweet Child,
“I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.” that is a quote from a book that your and I will grow to love and quote all the time, just as your grandmother and I did when I was a child. The feelings that the book expresses as I think of you I can’t help but cry tears of joy. I don’t even know you at all, but I love you more then I could ever express. I can’t for those months that I will get to know you better than anyone as you grow inside me. I can’t wait for that day with the doctor places you in my arms and the whole world around me disappears because I know that I hold the world in my arms.
My child, I promise to take care of you. I promise to keep you close and to love you with all my heart. I will stay up with you when you need me to and watch over you as you sleep. Dearest, I will love you as much as my heart will let me, even more then it will. I have waited so long for you and I can’t wait to meet you. I will do my best never to leave you and be there for you when you just need to feel loved.
There will be times in your life that you will feel that you just can’t go on anymore, but, sweetheart, I promise you mommy will always be here for you, day or night. You are my precious child that I have been blessed with; you are the greatest gift that I will ever receive. Not only will you learn from me but I will learn from you. As you grow I will also grow and together our friendship and unbreakable bong will also grow and get stronger through the years.
With Love,
Now & Forever,
Your Mother,
Erin Christina
Dear Mother and Father :D
The way you raised me has made me into the young woman that I am today. You never used the a consistent parenting style on me, sometimes you were one way and sometimes you were another. You were normally sitting in between authoritative and permissive parenting styles. You let us children do what we wanted with every once in a while you would give us your thoughts on the actions we were going to do. You let us grow and make our own mistakes, for that I thank you. You sometimes put your foot down, you are the parent and for that I hated you. You have taken away the freedom I was used to. We were walking all over you, so you had to. We took great advantage of the freedom you gave us; I became a spoiled brat over the years, thinking that it happened a few times that I could just keep going. Well mom said no so I will just go sit on dad’s lap and well there is no way he can say no, and when you guys said no I would throw a fit, and for that I am deeply sorry.
Sometimes I didn’t know what to do because I didn’t know how you guys would react. I am happy and grateful for the way you raised me. For giving me room to grow and to learn, for knowing and keeping faith in that that I would make the right choices. You guys gave me all your trust, even sometimes overly trusted me. I thank you so much!! I love you so much!! I hope that someday when I am a mother raising my own children that I can be as great of a parent to them as you guys were to me.
Mom, Dad, I love you with all my heart,
Love Ya Always,
You little Princess,
Erin Christina
Out of the 13 influences the 3 that mean the most to me are my religion, my personality/peer influence and life events.
My religion has played I think one of the biggest roles in my life. Though I might have not always been the best perfect “Molly Mormon” as I have been getting my life back on track it is the one thing that holds me strong. How wonderful is the knowledge that I have, that I use in my everyday life, either to help me through something or a friend with a problem. My religion has made me who I am today; I know without it I would be lost.
My personality and my peer influence I believe go hand in hand. A lot of who I am is made up of parts of my peers. Yes, sometimes not the best influence, but who they are have become a part of me and the way I am. My close non-member friends back home have called me the “Mormon Slut” because as I hang out with them I do something thing that get the reaction of “WOW, the Mormon just did that!!” I have also had good LDS influences rub off on me, so I stand with the mixed personality, what I like the call the happy medium, of my strong high standards mixed in with a bit of fun and humor. My friends influences have made me, well, me.
Lastly my life event, which have affected the first two things in my life. The things that I have gone through have either helped me become stronger or shook my faith a bit. From there what happened would put me with a certain group of friends. From there was what my personality would reflect. Coming out to BYU-I was a very big life event, here I have strengthened my religion and found the happy place in my personality, I haven’t lost the craziness of non-member friends but continually have the examples of members of the church to keep me on the straight and narrow and make me a better person.
My Dear Sweet Child,
“I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.” that is a quote from a book that your and I will grow to love and quote all the time, just as your grandmother and I did when I was a child. The feelings that the book expresses as I think of you I can’t help but cry tears of joy. I don’t even know you at all, but I love you more then I could ever express. I can’t for those months that I will get to know you better than anyone as you grow inside me. I can’t wait for that day with the doctor places you in my arms and the whole world around me disappears because I know that I hold the world in my arms.
My child, I promise to take care of you. I promise to keep you close and to love you with all my heart. I will stay up with you when you need me to and watch over you as you sleep. Dearest, I will love you as much as my heart will let me, even more then it will. I have waited so long for you and I can’t wait to meet you. I will do my best never to leave you and be there for you when you just need to feel loved.
There will be times in your life that you will feel that you just can’t go on anymore, but, sweetheart, I promise you mommy will always be here for you, day or night. You are my precious child that I have been blessed with; you are the greatest gift that I will ever receive. Not only will you learn from me but I will learn from you. As you grow I will also grow and together our friendship and unbreakable bong will also grow and get stronger through the years.
With Love,
Now & Forever,
Your Mother,
Erin Christina
Dear Mother and Father :D
The way you raised me has made me into the young woman that I am today. You never used the a consistent parenting style on me, sometimes you were one way and sometimes you were another. You were normally sitting in between authoritative and permissive parenting styles. You let us children do what we wanted with every once in a while you would give us your thoughts on the actions we were going to do. You let us grow and make our own mistakes, for that I thank you. You sometimes put your foot down, you are the parent and for that I hated you. You have taken away the freedom I was used to. We were walking all over you, so you had to. We took great advantage of the freedom you gave us; I became a spoiled brat over the years, thinking that it happened a few times that I could just keep going. Well mom said no so I will just go sit on dad’s lap and well there is no way he can say no, and when you guys said no I would throw a fit, and for that I am deeply sorry.
Sometimes I didn’t know what to do because I didn’t know how you guys would react. I am happy and grateful for the way you raised me. For giving me room to grow and to learn, for knowing and keeping faith in that that I would make the right choices. You guys gave me all your trust, even sometimes overly trusted me. I thank you so much!! I love you so much!! I hope that someday when I am a mother raising my own children that I can be as great of a parent to them as you guys were to me.
Mom, Dad, I love you with all my heart,
Love Ya Always,
You little Princess,
Erin Christina
Out of the 13 influences the 3 that mean the most to me are my religion, my personality/peer influence and life events.
My religion has played I think one of the biggest roles in my life. Though I might have not always been the best perfect “Molly Mormon” as I have been getting my life back on track it is the one thing that holds me strong. How wonderful is the knowledge that I have, that I use in my everyday life, either to help me through something or a friend with a problem. My religion has made me who I am today; I know without it I would be lost.
My personality and my peer influence I believe go hand in hand. A lot of who I am is made up of parts of my peers. Yes, sometimes not the best influence, but who they are have become a part of me and the way I am. My close non-member friends back home have called me the “Mormon Slut” because as I hang out with them I do something thing that get the reaction of “WOW, the Mormon just did that!!” I have also had good LDS influences rub off on me, so I stand with the mixed personality, what I like the call the happy medium, of my strong high standards mixed in with a bit of fun and humor. My friends influences have made me, well, me.
Lastly my life event, which have affected the first two things in my life. The things that I have gone through have either helped me become stronger or shook my faith a bit. From there what happened would put me with a certain group of friends. From there was what my personality would reflect. Coming out to BYU-I was a very big life event, here I have strengthened my religion and found the happy place in my personality, I haven’t lost the craziness of non-member friends but continually have the examples of members of the church to keep me on the straight and narrow and make me a better person.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Go Forward With Faith - my assinment
this is what i spent all weekend working for .. after i got it all done and the way i liked it i found out i was 700 words over the amount we were allowed to have -- so i had to cut 700 words and it made me sad because it no long flowed the way it had and no longer had the power and feeling that it had -- i am a writer -- i hate it when i am limited to an amount and not letting me make it the way i want ... none the less here you go .....
Go Forward With Faith
Gordon B. Hinckley – A Great Leader
“You shall not only become great yourself but your posterity will become great, from your loins will come forth statesmen, prophets, priests and Kings to the most high God. The priesthood will never depart from your family, no never. To you posterity there shall be no end…and the name of Hinckley shall be honored in every nation under heaven.” Bryant Hinckley’s patriarchal blessing had promised him and his wife Ada this and they couldn’t have even in any way been able to predict how much their first child together, Gordon Bitner Hinckley, would fulfill this prophesy and become a great leader to many.
Go Forward with Faith is a biography about Gordon B. Hinckley written by Sheri Dew. She is a Latter-day Saint leader, an inspirational speaker, a writer, a White House delegate to the United Nations, and she is also the president and chief executive officer of Deseret Book. As an author Sheri Dew has written the authorized biographies of two LDS Church presidents, Ezra Taft Benson and Gordon B. Hinckley. She has also written the biography of 1986 Miss America Sharlene Wells and also four inspirational volumes: No Doubt About it; No One Can Take Your Place; If Life Where Easy, It Wouldn’t Be Hard; and God Wants A Powerful People.
President Hinckley didn’t want a biography written about him. He would have rather his story go untold. When Sheri Dew brought him the first third of the manuscript he told her “I am sick, sick, sick of reading about Gordon Hinckley. There is too much about Gordon Hinckley in this manuscript.” He didn’t want this book to describe him as something he wasn’t. She had a hard time understanding him; he wanted the book to show him as an ordinary man. Leadership isn’t about the person in the front saying “Look at me!” A leader could be someone in the back who doesn’t want to show off. Gordon Hinckley didn’t want everyone to praise him for what he did, he did it because it was asked of him and was what he was called to do.
In his childhood he learned from his mistakes, he learned valuable lesions and made promises to himself, strengthened his character. Growing up he was never too enthused about school and would always try to avoid it. The year he and his friends were moving out of the elementary school into the Jr. high his class was moved back to the elementary school for another year. In rebellion, along with a group of friends, he went “on strike” and skipped school. When returning to school they were not let back without a written note explaining their absences from their parents. Ada Hinckley wrote "Dear Mr. Stearns please excuse Gordon’s absence yesterday. His action was simply an impulse to follow the crowd." He was ashamed for he was one of whom came up with the idea and got others to join. He then made up his mind that he would never again do anything to just “follow the crowd”. President Hinckley spoke numbers of time to youth of the church on following the crowd and on peer-pressure and how important it was to not fall into those things.
In school he had one of the most competent grammarians in the state as a teacher, he was a stickler but Gordon learned the intricacies of grammar and took naturally to his tutoring. Another of his teachers was ruthless in his critiques in writing, but Gordon found it stimulating and motivating. Throughout his schooling he had gained a great knowledge and was able to converse intelligently. His vast knowledge of writing and speech gave him the skills he needed to fulfill his duties throughout his life, for he did much, much speaking to many people all over the world. People were moved by his words and way of conversing and how he got his point across. Skilled in arguments and negotiating, he knew how to make others feel and understand what he was saying and believe in its truth. Faith, hope, love, and charity were qualities he held and used in communication.
He was loved and admired by many. He visited and spoke to people all over the world. He the people he came in contact with. He was the first general authority to visit some places, the people loved and respected him, and they could see how much he truly cared. Through his words the people could see his true compassion for them. It was once said “Gordon has magnificent gifts of written and oral expression. His judgment stands up in every situation. His insight into human character and situations is rich and meaningful. He knows when silence is better than utterance. He has a sense of humor that endears him to all.
He said is in his first address as a consular in the First Presidency. “And now a new assignment has come. … This sacred calling has made me aware of my weaknesses. If I have offended at any time, I apologize and hope you will forgive me. Whether this assignment be lengthy of brief, I pledge my best effort, given with love and faith.” He told everyone that he was not perfect, and wanted them to all know that if he makes a mistake or disappoints anyone that he was sorry. Something that takes a true leader to say.
“Thou shalt grow to the full stature of manhood and shall become a mighty and valiant leader in the midst of Israel…The Holy Priesthood shall be thine to enjoy and thou shalt minister in the mist of Israel as only those who are called of God. Thou shalt ever be a messenger of peace; the nations of the earth shall hear thy voice and be brought to a knowledge of the truth by the wonderful testimony which though shalt bear.” Gordon B. Hinckley, blessed by God to be a leader to the world.
<3 Erin Christina
Go Forward With Faith
Gordon B. Hinckley – A Great Leader
“You shall not only become great yourself but your posterity will become great, from your loins will come forth statesmen, prophets, priests and Kings to the most high God. The priesthood will never depart from your family, no never. To you posterity there shall be no end…and the name of Hinckley shall be honored in every nation under heaven.” Bryant Hinckley’s patriarchal blessing had promised him and his wife Ada this and they couldn’t have even in any way been able to predict how much their first child together, Gordon Bitner Hinckley, would fulfill this prophesy and become a great leader to many.
Go Forward with Faith is a biography about Gordon B. Hinckley written by Sheri Dew. She is a Latter-day Saint leader, an inspirational speaker, a writer, a White House delegate to the United Nations, and she is also the president and chief executive officer of Deseret Book. As an author Sheri Dew has written the authorized biographies of two LDS Church presidents, Ezra Taft Benson and Gordon B. Hinckley. She has also written the biography of 1986 Miss America Sharlene Wells and also four inspirational volumes: No Doubt About it; No One Can Take Your Place; If Life Where Easy, It Wouldn’t Be Hard; and God Wants A Powerful People.
President Hinckley didn’t want a biography written about him. He would have rather his story go untold. When Sheri Dew brought him the first third of the manuscript he told her “I am sick, sick, sick of reading about Gordon Hinckley. There is too much about Gordon Hinckley in this manuscript.” He didn’t want this book to describe him as something he wasn’t. She had a hard time understanding him; he wanted the book to show him as an ordinary man. Leadership isn’t about the person in the front saying “Look at me!” A leader could be someone in the back who doesn’t want to show off. Gordon Hinckley didn’t want everyone to praise him for what he did, he did it because it was asked of him and was what he was called to do.
In his childhood he learned from his mistakes, he learned valuable lesions and made promises to himself, strengthened his character. Growing up he was never too enthused about school and would always try to avoid it. The year he and his friends were moving out of the elementary school into the Jr. high his class was moved back to the elementary school for another year. In rebellion, along with a group of friends, he went “on strike” and skipped school. When returning to school they were not let back without a written note explaining their absences from their parents. Ada Hinckley wrote "Dear Mr. Stearns please excuse Gordon’s absence yesterday. His action was simply an impulse to follow the crowd." He was ashamed for he was one of whom came up with the idea and got others to join. He then made up his mind that he would never again do anything to just “follow the crowd”. President Hinckley spoke numbers of time to youth of the church on following the crowd and on peer-pressure and how important it was to not fall into those things.
In school he had one of the most competent grammarians in the state as a teacher, he was a stickler but Gordon learned the intricacies of grammar and took naturally to his tutoring. Another of his teachers was ruthless in his critiques in writing, but Gordon found it stimulating and motivating. Throughout his schooling he had gained a great knowledge and was able to converse intelligently. His vast knowledge of writing and speech gave him the skills he needed to fulfill his duties throughout his life, for he did much, much speaking to many people all over the world. People were moved by his words and way of conversing and how he got his point across. Skilled in arguments and negotiating, he knew how to make others feel and understand what he was saying and believe in its truth. Faith, hope, love, and charity were qualities he held and used in communication.
He was loved and admired by many. He visited and spoke to people all over the world. He the people he came in contact with. He was the first general authority to visit some places, the people loved and respected him, and they could see how much he truly cared. Through his words the people could see his true compassion for them. It was once said “Gordon has magnificent gifts of written and oral expression. His judgment stands up in every situation. His insight into human character and situations is rich and meaningful. He knows when silence is better than utterance. He has a sense of humor that endears him to all.
He said is in his first address as a consular in the First Presidency. “And now a new assignment has come. … This sacred calling has made me aware of my weaknesses. If I have offended at any time, I apologize and hope you will forgive me. Whether this assignment be lengthy of brief, I pledge my best effort, given with love and faith.” He told everyone that he was not perfect, and wanted them to all know that if he makes a mistake or disappoints anyone that he was sorry. Something that takes a true leader to say.
“Thou shalt grow to the full stature of manhood and shall become a mighty and valiant leader in the midst of Israel…The Holy Priesthood shall be thine to enjoy and thou shalt minister in the mist of Israel as only those who are called of God. Thou shalt ever be a messenger of peace; the nations of the earth shall hear thy voice and be brought to a knowledge of the truth by the wonderful testimony which though shalt bear.” Gordon B. Hinckley, blessed by God to be a leader to the world.
<3 Erin Christina
Monday, February 16, 2009
insight for the night
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 446 Date: February 16, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Helaman 12:1-8 (also mentioned in various versus in the other chapters)
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Compelled to be humble
3) What message for improvement is taught?
Throughout all of the reading there we saw how the people were going back and forth through remembering God and then following the Evil one. The people time and time again had to be compelled to be humble, they would only remember and go unto God when they were in serious trouble and danger. In chapter 12 we are told that is what it is that men have been doing, they are; quick to boast, to do iniquity, boast, and be lifted in pride and how slow they are to remember their Lord, hearken unto him, give ear unto his counsels, and walk in wisdoms path. Man needs to be slow to the things they are quick at and quick to the things they are slow at. They should not need a reason to be humble. It sets up bad habit; they do whatever they want till God gets mad and then punishes them, then they remember their God and repent, then once they are brought out of affliction they go back to iniquity and forget their God. God blesses his people with so much that they lose sight and become wrapped in the earthly things, and once God takes those away they repent so they are given back. It is the circle of man and it’s important to know this, so we do not follow in their footsteps.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
I often times find myself not doing the things that I should be at all times. In my past you would find me praying only when I was in trouble and when I needed the Lords help, I was being compelled to be humble. I have been doing my best to follow the counsel given in chapter 12, turning the quicks in to slow if at all and the slows to quicks. I want to be the best I can be, I don’t want to be the one who is always compelled to be humble, I want to be someone my Heavenly Father is proud of because I am a faithful follower always doing what I should be doing. I need to always pray not just when I NEED help, but in everything I do, always praying, not being compelled to pray and do what should be done, but do it on my own feel will and it be a habit of mine to do those things.
i really wish that i could do my hw -- the school web sites are down and so the book report i have been reading all weekend to write -- cant -- and many other hw assinments i cant do bc all my hw is on I-Learn -- one of the school sites ... sigh ...
<3 Erin Christina
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Helaman 12:1-8 (also mentioned in various versus in the other chapters)
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Compelled to be humble
3) What message for improvement is taught?
Throughout all of the reading there we saw how the people were going back and forth through remembering God and then following the Evil one. The people time and time again had to be compelled to be humble, they would only remember and go unto God when they were in serious trouble and danger. In chapter 12 we are told that is what it is that men have been doing, they are; quick to boast, to do iniquity, boast, and be lifted in pride and how slow they are to remember their Lord, hearken unto him, give ear unto his counsels, and walk in wisdoms path. Man needs to be slow to the things they are quick at and quick to the things they are slow at. They should not need a reason to be humble. It sets up bad habit; they do whatever they want till God gets mad and then punishes them, then they remember their God and repent, then once they are brought out of affliction they go back to iniquity and forget their God. God blesses his people with so much that they lose sight and become wrapped in the earthly things, and once God takes those away they repent so they are given back. It is the circle of man and it’s important to know this, so we do not follow in their footsteps.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
I often times find myself not doing the things that I should be at all times. In my past you would find me praying only when I was in trouble and when I needed the Lords help, I was being compelled to be humble. I have been doing my best to follow the counsel given in chapter 12, turning the quicks in to slow if at all and the slows to quicks. I want to be the best I can be, I don’t want to be the one who is always compelled to be humble, I want to be someone my Heavenly Father is proud of because I am a faithful follower always doing what I should be doing. I need to always pray not just when I NEED help, but in everything I do, always praying, not being compelled to pray and do what should be done, but do it on my own feel will and it be a habit of mine to do those things.
i really wish that i could do my hw -- the school web sites are down and so the book report i have been reading all weekend to write -- cant -- and many other hw assinments i cant do bc all my hw is on I-Learn -- one of the school sites ... sigh ...
<3 Erin Christina
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Go Forward With Faith
Go Forward With Faith By Sheri Dew
The book i have to read in the next day...its 560 pages and i have 50 of them read .. pray for me i will be reading all day ... i might read one more chapter before hitting the hay.
i have already started to learn so much from this book about President Hinckleys life. I have gain so much more respect for him and i havent even gotten to the chapter about his mission. but everything he went through in his life so far has made him such a great and tremendous leader. thats what the book report/group presintation is on. my group chose to do great leaders and chose to do the prophets of our church, and as you might have guessed now mine is President Hinckley.
Did you know that he fought the fact of a biography being writen about him for a long time then finaly told sheri dew that she can. she took a manuscipt to him and he replied to her "i am sick sick sick of reading about Gordon Hinckely...Adulation has has ruined many good man and woman, i dont want this book to portray me as someone im not"
he wanted the book to be writen like he was a normal man, that is how he thought of himself. he didnt want to start school, his schooling was even delayed a year. he played hookie once, and his mother wrote a letter to the pricipal of the school saying "dear mr strearns please excuse gordons absince yesterday. his action was simply an impulse to follow the crowd."
that letter cut him deep for he was one of the people who came up with the idea and got others to do it too. -- no wonder he used to talk so deeply about things like that.
as i have read i have found many things that have made him such a great leader, and the fact that anyone can be a leader, the prophet was perfect growing up reading these storys, he has questioned his faith, and he even cussed once -- and got his mouth washed out by sope. He was a normal person. He went through many trials in his life. The experinces he has had i believe have made him into such a great leader, and having many great exsamples of many great men, his father, his bishop, his teachers, by learning from them and taking what they know, he grew into the man - and the prophet we knew and loved.
i really hate to put down the book, but i know i need to get some sleep.
and will be reading all day tomorrow/today.
today was much better the yesterday -- who said friday the 13th was unlucky .. my license is back in my posession, i made cookies with a cool guy, my phone is semi working now -- i still have to go back to IF to get the update but i would of had to leave it there over night and dont know when i will be back there. lets just hope i can not be distracted and get a lot if reading done tomorrow.
i dont think i will read anymore .. gunna read scripts and pass out. whoot 500 pages tomorrow ... and its taken me 3 hours just so far!! pray for me!! :D
have a wonderful singles awareness day everyone!!!
<3 Erin Christina
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
I just havent had anytime .. but take this
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 374 Date: February 11, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Helaman 5:12
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Let Christ be your rock
3) What message for improvement is taught?
We are taught to make Christ our rock, make him the foundation of our lives. So when the winds of Satin blow and his storms hit us, we shall not be moved. “Remember, remember” don’t just remember but to ALWAYS remember, the word is repeated for a reason, it is for us all to read and know of its importance. We are given the promise that if we build upon him as our foundation that we cannot fall.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
The song the wise man and the foolish man popped into my head when I read this. When the rains came down and the floods came up the wise man who built his house upon a rock was untouched, but the foolish man who built his house upon the sand lost everything. This scripture made me stop and think. It made me look over my life and find all in it that I am doing right and that I am doing wrong. Have I been building my house upon the rock of Christ or have I built it in the sand? I think I might have 2 houses, one on a rock and another vacation home on the beach, in the since that I’m not always doing everything I should be and am not always standing on the rock. I don though need to always be on the rock, I need to sale my vacation home and move full time to the rock. I don’t want to lose everything. I need to build my house on a rock, I need to put my life into the Lords hands, and I need to put my life into his will. I falter, I am not perfect, but I strive to be, I want the blessing that is promised in the verse. It brings so much comfort to my heart knowing that Satin will have no power to overcome me and that I will never fall – as long as I build myself upon the rock of Christ.
umm if you read this far .. i dont have something to say .. Ryan called me yesterday, and we talked like nothing had ever happened. we hung up the phone and i just started to cry, i love him so much and have missed him so majorly greatly!
oh and he is engaged and i am getting better at accepting the fact of the person who he is marring..swolling my pride and forgeting the past, bc on the last day i dont think i can use the "but she.." excuse .. she did and who knows if she is facking or being real now but she is trying so you know i will try, who knows a good friendship might come from our "Fakeness" hah!
<3 Erin Christina
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Helaman 5:12
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Let Christ be your rock
3) What message for improvement is taught?
We are taught to make Christ our rock, make him the foundation of our lives. So when the winds of Satin blow and his storms hit us, we shall not be moved. “Remember, remember” don’t just remember but to ALWAYS remember, the word is repeated for a reason, it is for us all to read and know of its importance. We are given the promise that if we build upon him as our foundation that we cannot fall.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
The song the wise man and the foolish man popped into my head when I read this. When the rains came down and the floods came up the wise man who built his house upon a rock was untouched, but the foolish man who built his house upon the sand lost everything. This scripture made me stop and think. It made me look over my life and find all in it that I am doing right and that I am doing wrong. Have I been building my house upon the rock of Christ or have I built it in the sand? I think I might have 2 houses, one on a rock and another vacation home on the beach, in the since that I’m not always doing everything I should be and am not always standing on the rock. I don though need to always be on the rock, I need to sale my vacation home and move full time to the rock. I don’t want to lose everything. I need to build my house on a rock, I need to put my life into the Lords hands, and I need to put my life into his will. I falter, I am not perfect, but I strive to be, I want the blessing that is promised in the verse. It brings so much comfort to my heart knowing that Satin will have no power to overcome me and that I will never fall – as long as I build myself upon the rock of Christ.
umm if you read this far .. i dont have something to say .. Ryan called me yesterday, and we talked like nothing had ever happened. we hung up the phone and i just started to cry, i love him so much and have missed him so majorly greatly!
oh and he is engaged and i am getting better at accepting the fact of the person who he is marring..swolling my pride and forgeting the past, bc on the last day i dont think i can use the "but she.." excuse .. she did and who knows if she is facking or being real now but she is trying so you know i will try, who knows a good friendship might come from our "Fakeness" hah!
<3 Erin Christina
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I'm Sorry
I havent posted in a while, and this one wont be to much of anything.
I just havent been myself this week, have gone in and out of moods I guess.
I got a text from Ryan on Friday, ok not the best text ever but he did text me and we had like 3 or 4 each back and forth. Ryan is engaged to Ashligh now ... there are few who know and understand my feelings about that .. yes I got the text in one of my classes and just started crying. Ashligh has made it so hard for me to like her, and I guess that is what one of the things I have to work on, becuase she is becoming part of the family.
I wish that my relationship with Ryan was better, that is one of the things that everyday is hurting me. I miss my brother so much, none of you can understand this pain of having your older sibling just plain out abondon you, it hurts, it really really hurts.
So the guy who broke my heart last summer .. well he is engaged to the girl he chose over me, I am happy for him and for her, just a bit of pain, but someday I will meet the guy that Robert wasnt.
I have the money for housing, I am not to happy with the way things are here and Birch Plaza but because I hate moving I am staying here. So I will resign my contract and pay my rent, but tuition is still up in the air. I dont know how to pay for school.
The past 2 days I have eaten and havent felt so full in such a long time since I have been eating smaller portions in saving food. A friend ended up buying me bread, milk, and eggs against my will, but I am so forever greatful to him. My mom taught me such a valuable lession this week, that I should stop fighting people and let them help me, because when I dont let them help me, I take away their blessings.
So heres to Ry and Ash, and leaving me the last child in my family...who knows when my turn is, with everything that I have been doing this year I feel that whenever the time is right or whatever the Lord has planed for me I will be ready...and...I am waiting...
I am Erin Christina Elliott -- come on world -- give me your best shot -- I will take it head on!
<3 Erin Christina
I just havent been myself this week, have gone in and out of moods I guess.
I got a text from Ryan on Friday, ok not the best text ever but he did text me and we had like 3 or 4 each back and forth. Ryan is engaged to Ashligh now ... there are few who know and understand my feelings about that .. yes I got the text in one of my classes and just started crying. Ashligh has made it so hard for me to like her, and I guess that is what one of the things I have to work on, becuase she is becoming part of the family.
I wish that my relationship with Ryan was better, that is one of the things that everyday is hurting me. I miss my brother so much, none of you can understand this pain of having your older sibling just plain out abondon you, it hurts, it really really hurts.
So the guy who broke my heart last summer .. well he is engaged to the girl he chose over me, I am happy for him and for her, just a bit of pain, but someday I will meet the guy that Robert wasnt.
I have the money for housing, I am not to happy with the way things are here and Birch Plaza but because I hate moving I am staying here. So I will resign my contract and pay my rent, but tuition is still up in the air. I dont know how to pay for school.
The past 2 days I have eaten and havent felt so full in such a long time since I have been eating smaller portions in saving food. A friend ended up buying me bread, milk, and eggs against my will, but I am so forever greatful to him. My mom taught me such a valuable lession this week, that I should stop fighting people and let them help me, because when I dont let them help me, I take away their blessings.
So heres to Ry and Ash, and leaving me the last child in my family...who knows when my turn is, with everything that I have been doing this year I feel that whenever the time is right or whatever the Lord has planed for me I will be ready...and...I am waiting...
I am Erin Christina Elliott -- come on world -- give me your best shot -- I will take it head on!
<3 Erin Christina
Monday, February 2, 2009
Insight Number 7
Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 593 Date: February 2, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 57:26
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Believing in God
3) What message for improvement is taught?
As they believed in God they were protected. God has much and great power that he uses at his will. As they believe in God, God is with them and watches over and will make sure they do not parish. `The teaching is that God is a just God, and who does not doubt him and believes in him they will be watched over and preserved by his marvelous power.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
Most of the times when things start to go wrong in my life; it is because I have begun to fall into a pattern of doing things that are not in according to what the Lord wants me to be doing. I need to work on always remembering my God and following his commandments and the things the daughter of God that I am should be doing. I believe it was in my last insight that I shared a little bit about my brother and I, and how I had lost part of my faith. My world has been in a mess since because I still sat here questioning things about my testimony. I was doing what I was supposed to be doing but I still questioned. I was up until 4:30 in the morning on Sunday reading talks and articles about eternal families looking for those answers to about my dad and my brother, and well; I could not find the ones I was looking for. I just kept reading about the family and how they are forever and how they are one of the keys to celestial glory. I was extremely tired and my eyes heavy from crying and I passed out. I awoke a few hours later and as I was getting ready for church I went on and on about not having an answer and not getting it, it just dose not work for me. It was fast Sunday and I was fasting to understand the question on eternal families. (I hate to say it but my questions weren’t answered.) I was sitting in sacrament meeting and started tearing up. As the meeting went on it was harder and harder to hold back. By the time the sacrament was being passed I was bawling. I was overwhelmed by the spirit and reading my piratical blessing where it mentions eternal families 3 or 4 times and the things it says about them, I was shaking, for I knew that families are eternal, though my question about my dad and brother were not answered, I know what I read that morning is true and I know that families really are forever, and it is a blessing that I have been promised and get to enjoy, so though I don’t understand the basics of it, somehow I KNOW with all my heart that families are eternal. It all just seemed to come together for me at that point. I have a fair and just God; he knows me and loves me. I know that he is there for me and is watching out for me and guiding me. I just have to keep a consent mind to not be taken away from what I know and to always be believing in him and I know that I will never fall against the advisory because my God is ever watching out for me.
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Alma 57:26
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Believing in God
3) What message for improvement is taught?
As they believed in God they were protected. God has much and great power that he uses at his will. As they believe in God, God is with them and watches over and will make sure they do not parish. `The teaching is that God is a just God, and who does not doubt him and believes in him they will be watched over and preserved by his marvelous power.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
Most of the times when things start to go wrong in my life; it is because I have begun to fall into a pattern of doing things that are not in according to what the Lord wants me to be doing. I need to work on always remembering my God and following his commandments and the things the daughter of God that I am should be doing. I believe it was in my last insight that I shared a little bit about my brother and I, and how I had lost part of my faith. My world has been in a mess since because I still sat here questioning things about my testimony. I was doing what I was supposed to be doing but I still questioned. I was up until 4:30 in the morning on Sunday reading talks and articles about eternal families looking for those answers to about my dad and my brother, and well; I could not find the ones I was looking for. I just kept reading about the family and how they are forever and how they are one of the keys to celestial glory. I was extremely tired and my eyes heavy from crying and I passed out. I awoke a few hours later and as I was getting ready for church I went on and on about not having an answer and not getting it, it just dose not work for me. It was fast Sunday and I was fasting to understand the question on eternal families. (I hate to say it but my questions weren’t answered.) I was sitting in sacrament meeting and started tearing up. As the meeting went on it was harder and harder to hold back. By the time the sacrament was being passed I was bawling. I was overwhelmed by the spirit and reading my piratical blessing where it mentions eternal families 3 or 4 times and the things it says about them, I was shaking, for I knew that families are eternal, though my question about my dad and brother were not answered, I know what I read that morning is true and I know that families really are forever, and it is a blessing that I have been promised and get to enjoy, so though I don’t understand the basics of it, somehow I KNOW with all my heart that families are eternal. It all just seemed to come together for me at that point. I have a fair and just God; he knows me and loves me. I know that he is there for me and is watching out for me and guiding me. I just have to keep a consent mind to not be taken away from what I know and to always be believing in him and I know that I will never fall against the advisory because my God is ever watching out for me.
The Answer I wasnt Looking for but I Got it Anyway
for the past 5 years (this july it will be 6) i have been struggling with the concept of eternal families. I recently came to grasps with it a year ago, to on thursday get that thought changed again by being told by my religion teacher the answer to a question i have had. He told me (i guess without really knowing he told me) that since my dad has left the church he has left the covinent and he is no longer sealed to my family. How are families forever? Not to meantion the whole Ryan and I not talking, more so hurting my testamony and me 100% questioning eternal families.
i am soooo emotionly tired from the day so its bearly even gunna say how i have felt...and everything that happened but i need to share this...
I was up until 430am reading talks and articals about eternal families looking for those answers to about my dad and my brother...couldnt find them, i just kept reading about the family and how they are forever and how they are one of the keys to celestial glory. In major tiredness and eyes heavey from crying i passed out.
i awoke this morning and just started complaining about not having an answer and not getting it...it just doesnt work for me.
as it being fast sunday i was fasting for well my finalcial situation and also to understand the question on eternal families ..
i hate to say it but my questions werent asnwered ...
i was sitting in sacriemnt meeting and started tearing up. as the meeting went on it was harder and harder to hold back. by the time the sacriment was being passed i was bawling. i was over welmed by the spirit and reading my patriatical blessing where it meantions eaternal families 3 or 4 times and the things it says about them...i was shaking. for i knew .. that families are eternal ... though my question about my dad and brother were not answered, i know what i read last night is true and i know that families really are forever, and it is a blessing that i have been promised and get to enjoy, so though i dont understand the basics of it, somehow i KNOW with all my heart that families are eternal.
the rest of the meetings followed in the same spirital atmospher and it was hard for me to control myself. Sam taught sunday school and the way he teaches ... i was so over whelmed with the spirit .. the lession was on revalation and well, it tied in so perfectly with everything i needed to hear.
i am sry but i am soooo emotionly drained and sooo tired and its past my bed time and i gotta read my scriptures and will probly pass out saying my prayers ...
i know this isnt nearly touching on anything that happened today but it was just so amazing and so much happened i had to share a tiny bit ..
goodnight.
<3 Erin Christina
i am soooo emotionly tired from the day so its bearly even gunna say how i have felt...and everything that happened but i need to share this...
I was up until 430am reading talks and articals about eternal families looking for those answers to about my dad and my brother...couldnt find them, i just kept reading about the family and how they are forever and how they are one of the keys to celestial glory. In major tiredness and eyes heavey from crying i passed out.
i awoke this morning and just started complaining about not having an answer and not getting it...it just doesnt work for me.
as it being fast sunday i was fasting for well my finalcial situation and also to understand the question on eternal families ..
i hate to say it but my questions werent asnwered ...
i was sitting in sacriemnt meeting and started tearing up. as the meeting went on it was harder and harder to hold back. by the time the sacriment was being passed i was bawling. i was over welmed by the spirit and reading my patriatical blessing where it meantions eaternal families 3 or 4 times and the things it says about them...i was shaking. for i knew .. that families are eternal ... though my question about my dad and brother were not answered, i know what i read last night is true and i know that families really are forever, and it is a blessing that i have been promised and get to enjoy, so though i dont understand the basics of it, somehow i KNOW with all my heart that families are eternal.
the rest of the meetings followed in the same spirital atmospher and it was hard for me to control myself. Sam taught sunday school and the way he teaches ... i was so over whelmed with the spirit .. the lession was on revalation and well, it tied in so perfectly with everything i needed to hear.
i am sry but i am soooo emotionly drained and sooo tired and its past my bed time and i gotta read my scriptures and will probly pass out saying my prayers ...
i know this isnt nearly touching on anything that happened today but it was just so amazing and so much happened i had to share a tiny bit ..
goodnight.
<3 Erin Christina
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