A Thought

I should be heading to my class right now ... actully I should be heading home to print my homework but I don't want to really, so I will just turn it in later. 

But a thought.

Why is it when things seem to be getting good in life, I find some way to get myself stressed out about the matter.  Sometimes I just don't know what to do.  I have always been this way, but I never think about it until a situation.  

Why am I even thinking about it.  Because I may have an interest but nothing ever happens back, I don't want to get ahead of myself but I think he might be interest in me, as of what happened on sunday.  I keep letting myself fall into an insecure state of mind but then quickly snap back into it and have a little spaz attack.  Why can't I just be happy and enjoy life?! Why?! Because the word eternity scares me.  That is why when things were going on with Mike (Satan) that I was comfortable, because him and I are a like in that way.  Him and I are both a type of comitaphob.  So why is it only Satan that I don't freak out around.  Why?! Because my heart still wants him.  And it is screwing everything up.  He basicly told me about a week ago that we would never be together.  I was fine with that!! It didn't hurt me at all!! WHY CAN'T HE JUST HURT ME ALREADY!! BRAKE MY HEART!  I'm trying to move on and see where things can go with this other guy but I my mind keeps running in circles and making up situations and there comes in my comitaphobness and I am just never going to get anywhere with anyone because I am such a spaz with my emotions. 

Anyway that was just a quick thought becuase class starts in 15 min and I wont be able to read before class. 

<3  Erin Christina