Monday, April 27, 2009

Going to TX for a day ..

So much has happened that i havent updated on the boy asked me to be his gf, i said no, its not something i want right now. well it is what i want, but it doesnt feel right. My mood is in a swinging motion. I have a bit of jellousy twods my roommates who i love to death. I should be used to the whole i am the good luck charm for others to get guys, not me getting them. the guys only want them, they dont want me, they come over to see val and amy and could care less if i was or wasnt here. i cut and died my hair .. that the few pic up at the top. and the video is some fun me amy and val had with off brand peeps heh!! I get to go to the CES fireside that Elder Bednar is coming here to BYUI to speak and be brodcasted all over .. and i get to sit in the same room as he is speaking!! which is why i am only going to get to be in TX for a day, though i wish i was there right this sec!!! My best friend in the whole world, who most people who know me have heard me speak of her and know her bc she has been with me many times in many places lost her child today. She was 7 months pregnate with a baby girl, Lirah Zane. She called me and wanted me home right that sec and if i could of i would of. She is being labor induced right about now i believe and i was to be in the room with her. This child was part mine, and she knew i would claim her. all i have ever seen are pics of lacies belly but i was absolutly and compleatly in love with baby lirah. So Lacies parents are flying me home on friday and i will have to leave again saturday bc of school and hw and tests and papers and all that fun stuff. I cant even cry anymore .. my body cant produce them .. its so hard for me to sit here and do my hw and all that has to get done, and its monday, the week is going to go by so slow until i get to leave and then in a blink of an eye i will be back here, almost like a dream. i am so greatful for the gosple, to know why this child was taken away from her, and in a way from me. How blessed lacie is for a trial such as this, what a strong person she is. Though i know deep down how hard it is from her she is soo strong and i cant wait to hold her in my arms on friday! this is most definitly a testamony building experince. Well i need to do something else before FHE starts .. wana read my paper i wrote ... its my Philosophy of Education Throughout a person’s life time they grow and mature and learn many things about many things. They gain an education, either formal or informal but everyone gains some form of education. No matter whom you are or where you are from, how you were raised or what you or your parents did for a living, you will gain some form of education. The word “Education” can mean doing several things as gaining general knowledge, developing skills of reasoning and of judgment. It is like a science, an art of teaching. The level of school or degree can symbolize the level of education you have received. It is the result of instruction and training you have done to reach the point that you have attained. Everyone in some way has been educated in their lives. To live on the streets, for example, those people have taught themselves to survive, have mastered the art of not having very much in their lives. Yes, it’s maybe not the best example to be using, but these people have educated their selves on the ways of the streets. They have obtained skill, reasoning, and judgment of the way things work out in the world of the streets. Using the definitions of education above, they have received an education of some kind. Now the question of what is an education is out of the way, I want to more focus on a formal school education and my views on how a students and teachers should relate to one another. In my life, education has been a very important and meaningful thing. My whole life I have spent in some form of school system and have seen how my friends and I have turned out and how those who were not as lucky as I to get a school education. I have been educated by professionals who have taught me the things that I need to know to get a job after college. I learned to read, write, do math, about history, current events, to hold an intellectual conversation, and many more things. These are important things to know in the world, important parts of our lives that we should all learn at some point or another. Without my great education I would not be here right now. In the classroom I believe the best way for a student to learn is from a good relationship with the teacher. There has to be trust there to fully get somewhere with a child. A teacher and student should have a kind of bond. The student should see the teacher as someone that they can go to, someone that can help them, a role model for the student. Try to create an atmosphere of not just learning in the classroom but make sure that the student do feel safe and know that you are not just their teacher but their friend as well. Strive to make the students feel that they can do anything and to strive to be their best. Let them know that they can do more than just of what the “world” expects of them. Many people want to see them achieve greatness and, as a teacher, you should be one of those people and one who wants them to know that they can do anything. Give a student the confidence that they can shoot for the moon, and no matter what happens, even if they miss, they will still land among the stars, and in doing so that they achieved so much. Work with the students until they understand and don’t ever give up on a student. The greatest joy a teacher can have is seeing their face light up once they have finally understood something they could not understand before. Always keep a positive attitude in the classroom, the words “I quite” or “I give up” should not allowed in the classroom, by anyone. These are great ways to help students receive the best education that they can get. If you are Educated formally or by yourself, you are educated in some way, shape, or form and an education is the best thing you can get in your life. ps .. please pray for lacie and her hubby jon ... they need it, this was their first child, and she was due in june/july .. so this was more then just a miscarrage, this baby was going to be here, her beautiful baby girl... <3 Erin Christina

Thursday, April 23, 2009

tomorrow

i am excited for.

temple
2 classes
getting a haircut
and going on a date

i am pretty excited for the day!!!!

school is killing me ...


<3 Erin Christina

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Living a Lifeless Life

I dont know where I will get anytime to do anything, even updating this ..

I am taking 17 credits and 8 classes and all have hours on hours on hours of homework EACH.

It most deff is a super intence semester for me, and wanting to try to have a dating life is going to be hard.

The guy metioned in the last note is hogging most of my time, but so far there isnt anyone who is after me other then him, but I still am not going for a relationship.

Going to bed between 12 and 1 in the morning and waking up at 5:50am everyday hasnt worn me out .. yet .. we will see what happens.

I am liking my classes but there is a lot of super intense work to do with them.

I am happy to be working out, only 14lbs left to get to goal weight!!

hmmm

I am trying to think of anything new and exciting but I cant think of anything, except school, and that is consuming my soul...

I am just hoping that I can do just as well in my grades as I did last semester, there is no doubt about it that I am going to try my best and do what I can and put homework before a social life since I know that I HAVE to get up and go to the gym and I will do what I can to do everything I can do.

Its going to get crazy to leave for Ryan's wedding becuase it is midterm week and I have test and papers due out the butt starting the day I leave up to the day I get back ..

But that all for now I am going to do some reading while Brian watchs his show. I am so tired right now from waking up, going to the gym, school -- my jazz dance class.

My postitive attidue will continue and I am doing my best to do the things I said I would. Sit near the frount and ask question and answer questions and do all the prep work for my classes!! I am most deff in college now ... and there is no turning back I am an El Ed major and will keep on pushing through. I know I am where I am supposed to be doing what I am supposed to be doing!!

Friday morning not going to the gym, going to the temple with my ward I am EXCITED!!!! oh and on friday getting a hair cut!!

<3 Erin Christina

Monday, April 20, 2009

when will the morning start?

Well I am back up at school and soooo happy to be back here. Saturday was fun .. i met a guy who is kinda cute .. we will see if anything happens.
sunday was AMAZING!i have been in a good mood since getting back to rexburg!! i feel sooo great!! i have missed my friends and making new ones!! my roommates are pretty kick A and my room roommate is amazing!!

this morning 4 of us got up at 550 and went to the gym ... i am still waiting to leave for class in about 30min.
i think a nap everyday will be in order for me to funtion on 4 hours of sleep .. hoping i can stay awake all semester with that much sleep.

but i have been having an amzing time since getting back here..such a great feeling dangit i never want to leave again .. and sooooo many cute guys all over the place ... mmmmm my flirtatious personality has come out .. lets see how long that lasts.

well i am going to eat bc i havent all morning and hope the day goes well ... first day of the semester!! yea!!

oh and i dont have anything i need like pens and notebooks ... all i have are my books for classes .. hah!! lets see how this goes!


<3 Erin Christina

Thursday, April 16, 2009

still in shelley

my grandpa is really sick so i am still here on my grandmas couch in Shelley wanting so badly to be back in rexburg ...

i think i have developed smoker cough ... i have inhaled so much smoke from my gma. i need to get back to my gpas bc i have a bit more wash to do.

i havent found my dress for rys wedding and shopping was no fun with my gma ...

didnt even spend any of the money my mom gave me for my bday/easter .. i spent my book buy back money and still have some of that.

but i got a cute shirt, 2 skirts, and 2 shoes ... yea ... thats all i got ... i wanted other stuff ... but like i said shopping with my gma and aunt wasnt to fun ...

again ... i am just ready to get back to rexburg ... maybe do some online shopping bc i dont know what else to do ...


<3 Erin Christina

Monday, April 13, 2009

today

...was just like anyother day...
there was noting out of the ordinary
i think i have developed smokers cough from inhaling so much smoke from my gma.

i turned 20
the sad thing is the fact that today was like anyother day
the only thing that made it my bday was well i was born 20 years ago and the phone calls texts and facebook.

its sad, but here at my gmas we didnt even celibrate it. i just got 1 happy birthday after sitting on the couch with her for 4 hours.

i fell asleep at around 8 .. there was nothing to do...nothing

i dont know why i am being such a cry baby about it ... but i woke up and just started crying.

i know if i was up at school my friends would of done something for me.

i just wanna get back to school.

i just wana go home
im so home sick its not even funny.
i miss my mom
im done with my dumb body being screwed up and having issues that i dont want to have
my grandma scared me when somehing i thought was normal isnt.

sry ... its kinda a pitty party post, but it just wasnt much of anything specail of a day ... it was just like any other day.

5 days till i go back to school ... is it saturday yet?


<3 Erin Christina

Friday, April 10, 2009

FREEDOM

This morning was my last comm.
I was thinking about even skipping it, I mean the final was over why bother going? what would we do?

He shared a story about his mothers passing and his fathers passing as well. He then showed us a clip that brought me to almost tears that I would of cried if I wasnt sitting in a comm class watching a clip from fantasia 2000. It is long but please watch it and listen to it. Music is an amazing thing and this clip is just so amazing, the animation goes so wonderfuly with the music.




After showing the clip he read 3 scriptures to us..I only remember 1 of them. The more amazing this was that I had grasped the spirital connection durring the clip and he did it after the clip.

Micah 7:7-8
7 Therefore I will look unto the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation: my God will ahear me.
8 ¶ Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy: when I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in adarkness, the Lord shall be a blight unto me.


The way I see the clip is we are going along life all happy and joyful. We then become currious, and find our self unleashing a monster. That monster destorys everything we have worked for. But she Climed to the highest tree and was protecting he creations to the veary last. We need to stand on that high point and stand up against anything no matter how fatil it is.
She had given up...she thought there was nothing left for her. Everything had been destroyed. Even in our darkest hours we can prevail, light will come again. If you paided close attention you can tell at the end of the clip she is bigger and lager then she was before.
I could be pushing it but I see the moose as the Lord. She was frozen and he brought her back, he was there with her watching her the whole time, and he watched as the fire bird destroyed. He went to her in his darkest hour and picked her up when she thought all was lost. She really did, she was crying, everything she had worked so hard for was destoryed. But she was able to build back up, and she became stronger after her darkest hour and had created a more beautiful world.
This is our lifes. I see this in my life many times and many more to come. He is with us to pick us up when we are down and to hold us and carry us when we believe we can go on. We get stronger from our trials and become even better through our darkest hour.



<3 Erin Christina

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Final Insight

Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 594 Date: April 8, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Moroni 10:3-5
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
The truth of all things
3) What message for improvement is taught?
When you read the scriptures you need to ponder them, ponder them with your whole heart. As you do that to remember how merciful the lord has been to you though everything. You need to ask God in the name of Christ if these things are NOT true. When you are doing so, you need to do it with a sincerer hear and real intent and have faith that the truth will be manifested to you. It will be manifested to you by the Holy Ghost, and by that power you will know the truth of all things.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
Chapter 10 in my Book of Mormon is marked above it “Elder Millers Chapter – REMEMBER” It only took me so long to get to reading it and really understanding why he wanted me to read it and know what it meant. I have done the things that were asked in those 3 versus, and I have had the Holy Ghost testify to me that the scriptures are true. These are the words of the prophets of old teaching us through the past. I see so much of the world in the scriptures, I can put myself in there and sometimes my heart is filled with guilt and sometimes gladness.
As I read the scriptures I ponder and I pray, like the song, “Search, Ponder, and Pray, are the things that I must do. The spirit will guide and deep inside, I know the scriptures are true” I know that my Heavenly Father has been more than merciful to me, and given me many second chances, so many, I have lost count. When I go unto him every time my heart is full, so full, I know all that he has done for me and all that he wants me to do through the scriptures. Over the last year it has become marked up and notes written in it. I have had people tell me I mark my scriptures wrong, but I have had so much to learn and so much to discover that I had to mark it up, it is all so important and amazing and is FOR ME.
I know the scriptures are true. I sat in the temple and read and prayed. I finished the Book of Mormon and sat there in the temple so full of the spirit and it was testified to me that they are. Tears were streaming down my face and my life felt like a load had been lifted off of me. I absolutely 100% know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God, and it was written for this age and time. I need to know the things and I need to help others understand and feel the spirit. I am a light to the world and the more I know the better I am to everyone who needs me. I use the scriptures all the time in my life, it is the best place for advice and answers, ANYTHING can be related to a scripture. They are one of the biggest comforts in my life. As I read I am filled with the spirit and I love having that in my life. Those versus speak truth, that is what I did and I got those answers. I have been blessed beyond measure.


<3 Erin Christina

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

1 day

1 day left in the semester ... 1 final left
3 classes tomorrow
then packing and white glove

have to move apt bc they arent using the one i am living in next semester so i am moving from 107 to 104 .. where everything will be backwards from what i am used to.

friday morning i sing in graduation and watch 2 of my roommates graduate and hear the new aposile speak. (he was asked to speek before he was called)

after that finsh cleaning and moving and at about 330 i get picked up by my grandpa and go to IF and well get to do like 10 loads of londry bc it hasnt been done since march when my roommate took it to be done at her house.

i found out today how much money my mom is going to have to pay for me to be here .. then i have to add food onto that ... and yet she is still putting money into my account for my birthday and easter and to get a dress for my brothers wedding in june ... i just dont feel like i deserve so much ... she is already paying so much for me i dont need any more then that ...

i get to see my cousins on saturday and celibrate easter with them. no clue whats going to happen this next week or on my birthday. i dont excpect anything to happen really. Birthdays the last 3 years have really been a let down...i have kinda given up on happy birthdays as sad as that sounds.

today i went with my roommate as she tried on her wedding dress..and thought to myself...when will my time come? I know the Lord has things for me to do before then and i am waiting and doing all that i should be doing, but every girl cant help but wonder...

so after tomorrow i dont know much of what is going to happen in my life. I am taking it one step at a time, and following God.


<3 Erin Christina

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

The semester is coming to an end.

these are a few of the things that go with the end of the semester in my classes

My 2nd to last insight

Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 428 Date: April 6, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Moroni 6:8
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
Repent
3) What message for improvement is taught?
Repent often and as often as you need to. As often as you repent you will be forgiven as long as you repent with full intent. As long as you seek repentance and you repent with full and true intent you will be forgiven. How great the power of the atonement is.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
This process has changed my life. There were times in my life that I would just repent because I knew that is what I was supposed to do and had to do. There was a time that I did truly repent but refused to do what I needed to do to really repent about it. Seeking the power of the atonement was the greatest thing I ever did. I know what the difference in feeling is between just repenting and then truly with full intent to want to be forgiven is. I have felt the power of the atonement in my life, and I have been brought to tears through it. I find myself looking at my life and hating myself for what I have done knowing that it was me who cost my Savoir to spill more blood for what I am doing. “I read his words, the words he prayed, while barring sorrow in Gethsemane. I feel his love, the price he prayed. How many drops of blood were spilt for me” – This is the Christ “Our cup was filled with darkness. Our cup was filled with death. Christ took our cup and drank it, and gave us life, and gave us hope, gave us himself.” – Thy Will be Done. Two songs we sang this semester in choir, that hit me hard and made me think of the atonement and the price that the Savoir paid for me to be able to repent for all that I have done wrong in my life. I feel so greatly blessed to have the opportunity, but I know, I know with all my heart that if I don’t pour out my heart and truly repent, truly regret and truly want to be forgiven for what I have done I will not be forgiven. Ever since I have felt that feeling, I know that I must always repent that way, go down to my knees and pour out my heart just as the Savior pour out his life for me.


2 papers in child development

Cliques
In high school I was all over the place. I was in color guard, I was in choir and a lot of my friends were in band. I can remember my name on facebook for a while was Guard Freak, Choir Nerd, Band Geek Wana-Be. Those people in those groups are who I normally hung out with and they made me who I was. People knew I was in guard and that is what I was known for.
I often thought of what I would have been if it wasn’t for me being part of those “cliques”. I think that being part of something is important for someone, gives them a good set of friends and an identity, and gives them a feeling of belonging. On guard we were like a sisterhood. We knew if something was wrong with someone and we wanted to help them. I belonged with them. I didn’t leave that “hat” behind, it is part of me, and it made me who I am today.
So I wasn’t the best person in the world, peer pressure got to me. I loved who I was though, it was a time in my life that I had to get to know the world and get out of the dumb bubble I had lived in my whole life. Today I am very careful in choosing my friends and found the happy medium in life, but still hold strong to the person that was made those years back in high school in my “clique”.
“Cliques” in my life have played a HUGE role, they made me who I was and who I am. I am very grateful for that happening in my life, I don’t know what I would have done in life if those were not part of it, because they were and still are a huge part of me.

Letter to Adolescence
Dear,
This is going to be the hardest time in your young life. You might not want to believe it but it is. Ever choice you make and every action you take will affect you. You hear all the time about peer pressure and how your friends can change you, but you don’t think much of it. You know what you believe and you won’t let that bring you down nothing can ever change how you feel.
The world is not a walk in the park. These years you are going through is when I lost myself. I just wanted to fit in so bad and make a name for me. I loved my friends and I knew what I believed, but the little things I did changed me. It can all start with an immodest shirt, 1 cuss word, a little bit of curiosity, and the wanting to just feel something.
The reason I care so much and put so much of myself into this is because I let myself fall for all of it. I lost my way for a long time, and I don’t like seeing others repeat what I went though, most of all those I love so much.
The most important thing I can tell you is to always remember who you are. Yes, you hear it all the time, but it is the thing that will help you through it all. Never lower you standards, please. Know what you will and won’t do and don’t let the thought cross through your mind, “oh just this once”, because I have been there, done that and lost it all.
Always & Forever

The Final Blog for Communications

Final Blog
Crucial Conversations have helped min the dealing with my family members. For some strange reason a lot of arguments seem to arise in my family and many situations seem to go wrong. I have learned a lot from how to stop that think before I act, not masking, don’t attack, don’t react to silence, and when I should and shouldn’t react ways and what the best way is to act.
I have had many conversations since the start of the semester talking with my family. Each conversation gets better and better, though I tend to make the mistake on pointing out their conversation errors and what they are doing to make this not a working conversation and turning it into an argument.
Many of my blogs have talked about the arguments between my Father and I and also along with my brothers. Through this class, I worked my way to safety with my brother Ryan. It took a month but we went from not talking to talking, and we haven’t fought since, and can talk to each other about things. The knowledge I have gained, the things that I learned that I do, and what to do in those situations, they really have changed my life. My dad and I still fight, but, I know this is against the rules, but it is him yelling at me and me defending myself, it is a one way argument, him yelling at me because I wouldn’t answer my phone because I was watching conference and that is why the ticket prices went up in 5 min. I was able to get him off from bashing the church and being brainwashed to the reason we were on the phone. Many times he tried to take the conversation out of safety but I safely moved it back to what the conversation was about.
The biggest thing that I always need to remember when in my conversations is keeping faith that it will work out. I have lost faith before and once you lose faith in the conversation you have lost it. The biggest problem I have with having faith in my conversations in with my dad. I don’t believe that he will ever change, he will never let the fact down that he left the church and won’t ever be happy until I too follow him, and stop believing what I believe, and doing what I do. I have to have faith in my conversations with everyone that they will work out and I will find my way back to safety and that we will both come to agreements and good terms.
I don’t think that I can pick one thing that has changed my life this semester from this class. It has all been the most important. Everything in Crucial Conversations and Harvard Manage Mentor has taught me so much, I even learned a lot about persuasion that I had totally persuaded myself in our speeches and in conversations that I have had with people. The things I learned this semester in this class really did in a way change my life. My communication skills are better and my relationships are better. Everything is perfect but has started to change and that is to me the most important thing. Things are on the way to becoming better and being better and that’s all I want in life: To communicate with my family and to not fight and to not argue and to have healthy conversations. Without this class, that would not be possible.


This semester in many ways in my classes I have learned so much, about myself and many things around me. I would say it has been a great semester .. and 3 days left.
I will leave this at this, not get into how stressed I am. ^_^



<3 Erin Christina

Saturday, April 4, 2009

The baby was ... OMGsh i peeded my pants funny




^_^ this makes me happy!! i miss the 90s



<3 Erin Christina

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Some great songs and qoutes from songs ...

i know i have 6 vidoes .. and i narrowed it down .. A LOT .. but please watch them .. get the message i am trying to send out.


it doesnt matter waht anyone ever says you have D&C 18:10 and you also have music ...

"its what you give that make you beautiufl
its how you live that makes your dreams come true
keep your faith in the world let the light of the lord shine through
thats what makes you beautiful"




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFydLxvq-8Y









"when you look in the mirror do you see who he sees? ... at the end of the day do you know who you are? theres a big pecie of heaven he left in your heart. he sees in you faith to move mt. see a heart pure a clean hge sees in you light of tomorrow he sees in you a maker of peace.
long ago he took your berdons on. now with a love so deep he waits with open arms. life up your head clear you eyes."

"fear is a lie. fear is like the clouds that fill the earth from the sun. faith is like the morning rays the brake when night is down. and though the fear in side me says that all my hope is gone. Faith in heaven lifts me up and shouts, I've Just Begun....
...faith and hope are mine...the clouds are far behind....
...beliving leads to truth nad light. fear can turn my day to night. even in the dark the dark the way is clear always folow faith nad never fear."

So much noise
so much peace destroyed
i can hardly hear the voice
leading me through the void
just so much noise

the world's little lies
destruction in disguise
opportunities to compromise
to make me beautiful in their eyes
but i'm not going to buy
the world's little lies

cause i define myself and find my beauty in
the light he gives
i'm refined by his divine intentions every day i live
it doesn't matter what the world believes
or what they say that beauty means
it comes from within...
i wanna be beautiful to him.

he's given me his trust
so i'll be strong enough
to run from a dangerous touch
i don't need THAT kind of "love"
i don't need that crutch
he's given me his trust.

cause i define myself and find my beauty in
the light he gives
i'm refined by his divine intentions every day i live
it doesn't matter what the world believes
or what they say that beauty means
it comes from within.....
i wanna be beautiful to him.

I know how to shine
my life's not really mine
it's not about a worldly climb
it's all about HIS design
so in his eyes...
i wanna shine.

cause i define myself and find my beauty in
the light he gives
i'm refined by his divine intentions every day i live
it doesn't matter what the world believes
or what they say that beauty means
it comes from within...
i wanna be beautiful to him.

i want to live to have his peace
and feel the holiness he sees
it comes from within.....
i wanna be beautiful
to Him.



<3 Erin Christina

A More Excellent Way



Name: Erin Christina Elliott Rel. 122 Section: 25 Word Count: 777 Date: April 1, 2009
1) What is the reference of the insight?
Ether 12:11
2) What principle or doctrine is taught?
A More Excellent Way
3) What message for improvement is taught?
Follow your heart, follow what you feel is right, God has prepared the way for us, and we need to follow in faith, we need to choose to follow him. We need to choose a more excellent way, something different then the dark world we are living in now.
4) How can I apply this principle, doctrine, or message in my life?
Like most of the time I read and I come across a line that reminds me of a song I know. I was actually sitting in the temple when I read this verse and the song “A More Excellent Way” came into my head. It really relates to me. Everything that I have been going though and even more the fact I was in the temple reading and this coming in to my head. This was on the second time I was in the temple since I hadn’t gone in a long time. I never went to EFY but a friend put some songs on to a CD, and that one of them, and I love the songs! They have really helped me so much. I want to share the lyrics with you, because they share my thoughts, and my feelings, and I am choosing today a more excellent way.

Wandering and unsure of my position
Drifting to an end that I can't see
Drowning in a sea of indecision
As the tides of fate wash over me
Desperate to land on solid ground
A place where purpose and peace are found

I feel lost, confused, don’t know really who I am or where I am going. Sometimes I feel like I am drowning in this world. I look around and try to go on, but I don’t know where I am going to. I am hoping, I am desperate to find the place where I know I am supposed to be, just hoping I can find it, that somehow I will be there, and have that feeling of peace.

Firm on this foundation sure and steady
Now my destination is so clear
Filled with new direction I am ready
To walk this road without regret and fear
True to my Savior I will stand
Willing to give Him all I am

I stand tall and strong, I won’t falter from what I know ever again. I know why I am here, I know where I am going, and I know what I am doing! In my faith and my putting off the world it has brought me back to remembrance. I am part of a great plan, and I am going to do my part. The world can’t hurt me. I am not afraid of what is in store, my Heavenly Father is with me at all times and through the power of the atonement if I do happen to mess up there is no need to fear or regret anything. I am going to stand strong against the world and be counted among the church. I am willing to give my savoir all I am, I am living his plan for me, and I am living to spread his gospel and will always stand for him!

A more excellent way
I'm leaving the ways
Of the world behind me
A more excellent way
I'm searching for truth
And letting it guide me
I'm choosing today
A more excellent way

I am choosing a better way of life! To long have I been walking in the darkness of the world. I have been living a double life it feels like, going to church but then doing whatever it is I feel like and getting lost in the ways of the world. I am searching for the truth, the little things that I have lost. I will follow in faith; I will let the Lord guide me. I am choosing to live my life in a more excellent way, not tomorrow, but today, and I won’t fall!

I know that Christ gave his life for me so that Gods plan can keep going that I can have the chance to be here. To be tested and go through many trials and find my way through it all, and to always remember his teachings and to do the things I know I am supposed to do. I am always searching for more truths, and I am strong and firm in what I know, I will always follow in faith, and live my life in a more excellent way!!



<3 Erin Christina

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