Blessed

My life is blessed and I have to remember that.  I know my Heavenly Father hasa plan for me.  My life is full of stess thinking about the future and I have to remember that what is most important is right now.  I have fears of my plans not working out.  I remember when I was a little kid thinking I would of had my happily ever after by now, but now I dont want it.  Funny how much we all grow up in different ways and dreams and wants change.  I thought I would be going to BYU, I am going to graduate from BYU-IDAHO.  I was going to be the world greatest singer (hah, like that would of ever happened) a choir teacher, but now I am going to be an elementary school teacher.  I am in charge of teaching the next generation. 
I like the direction my life is going in.  Last year was a horrible year full of pain and depression.  I am back on the right path and both feet planted on the ground.  Nothing is going to take me aways from what I have my mind set twords.  The end is in sight.  I can see it.  I have been told my plan for next semester is basicly suiside and I am so scared.  But I know with the Lord I can do it.

I am so excited next week Courtney finds out what the baby is.  I remember when we were all little and we have all grown up.  I look at my brothers and I am so happy that they are a great exsample for me. 
Jonathan graduates from his school in May.  I am so proud of him. 

Every year I go home and I hate it and find it pointless for me to be home and wish I could be up at school and be done by now.  I know why I went home this last year.  I grew so much in my family.  I finally felt like I was part of the family and accepted.  I grew so much closer to Ryan and there had always been that huge gap between us. 

I am still scared to death about what the future holds, because the end of school is in sight but I cant see what is between now and then and I cant see what comes next.  But isnt that the beauty of life. 

I love my anti-social school work life. I would not change my life for anything.  I am blessed.

<3  Erin Christina

Oh

Change of plans...I am anti-social until July.

Sorry for the lack of posting life got crazy.
In Idaho.
In school.
Scared to death already about not graduating in July.

I will try to post a better post about everything sometime this week.
I will also try to post AT LEAST once a week about everything going on. 
If I dont post, I am probly dead.  Ok not really but dead to the world.

<3  Erin Christina