update.

I have been lacking.  Life has just been getting away with me.  Working all the time and hardly making anything.  I really dont think I am going to have enough for school.  Babysitting a lot.  Falling way behind on my online class.  Picking up hours at work when I can.  Spending time with my amazing sister-in-laws. 

I love this season though!  It means a lot to me.  The whole meaning of thanksgiving and christmas.  I have so much to be thankful for and I want to anything and everything for those that I love.  I am not even making enough for school and yet I want to get my family something so nice each for christmas. 

...really all I want for christmas is for tuition and books to get paid for.  I hate how my life revolves around me being stressed about money.  I want to enjoy life.  I dont even hang out with friends due to the fact that gas costs me a lot of money and  I want to go as long as I can without having to fill up.

My best friend moved home on monday.  It is friday and I havent seen her.  I fail as a friend.

I am a super impulsive shoe and movie buyer (the movie this just started...addicted to $5/$9 movies at walmart)  and it is starting to really hurt me.  I think I am going to start just not carrying any money around with me. 

I have a lot of things I need to get accompished before the end of december (including my finger printing that I have put off WAY TOO LONG, they sent it to me in Aug I think.)

Well I am going to go help set up Christmas.  Change the oil in my car with my amazing brother when he comes over.  AND babysit whenever that is done.

<3  Erin Christina

Sick again?

I had a few wake up in the middle of the night trips to the bathroom last night.  I dont think I have ever felt that way before .. it was so intence and I could not stop what was comming out of my body.  It hurt so bad and so much pressure it even tried comming out my noise.  My poor kitty has no idea what was going on he just sat there with me.  and has been with me just about all day.

I think I am going to call work.  1.  I threw up everything in my system last night.  2.  Every time I think about eating my tummy starts churning.  3.  I really am hungry and want to eat but I am afraid to.  4.  My back is in major pain and I want to take pain killers but I am afraid that will come up too. 

I dont want to call out, but it will be only my 2nd call out, a few weeks ago when I has been sick.  Maybe working last night was a blessing.  I got 8 hours of work last night and if I call out today I still have gained two hours in my work week.  This really sucks. 

I really hate throwing up and having no idea why I have thrown up.  WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!?


<3  Erin Christina

I unoffishally have

Endometriosis.
We do not offishally know if that is what I have but we have finally labed what is wrong with me.  I do however still feel like a guineepig.  Having my doctor finally say that she thinks this could be the reason actully takes stress off me.  There is only one way to find out if you have endometriosis is to have a special type of sergery.  It isnt like a huge one but they do have to look inside of you.  I think after I graduate and come back home I might have them look into it, because well lets not kid our selfs, I do not have time to take a week off of my life to find out if I do or do not have endometriosis. 
I am being treated as if I do have it.  Birth control number 5.  I am now going to only have 4 periods a year to help try to prevent what is causing the pain.  I am not a doctor so it is hard for me to explain what is going on..feel free to google endometriosis there is a lot of info on it. 
So here is to another try on something new. 
I am trying to keep in mind always the comfort that is given to me everyday from my Heavenly Father.  I try to think  I can go on my own, but I need him and I know that he is taking care of me no matter what. 

So here is to today and in a week or so when I can start my new birth control. 

<3  Erin Christina