he is stuck in my head ...
idky .. but i cant forget him and i cant get him out of my head.
sometimes i just dont know what to do.
seeing paul was nice
but well i feel bad for the feelings i have
i have no hope for anything to do with me and mike, but i do like him and i am not over him, and my heart hasnt been broken by him yet when it should.
but oh well...who knows what life has in store for me.
<3 Erin Christina
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Saturday, July 25, 2009
home
i leave for the shuttle in a little over 30min
he left this morning
i didnt say goodbye
he still has my key
i still have his knot
i cant wait to see paul when i get home
i dont know what to do
i dont know what to think
who knows what he will do
he has probly thrown my key away and forgotten everything
but what if he hasnt
maybe i should live that way anyways
i dont know what to do
i just want to go to sleep
and i will once i get on that bus
it is time to go home
goodbye rexburg
i love you but i need to go home and put myself back together
i didnt really say goodbye to anyone
maybe its better this way
leave no attachment
did i mention that i am sooooo ready to see paul again
i will be in tx at 540pm soooo that would be in like 14 hours and 5 min hah!
<3 Erin Christina
he left this morning
i didnt say goodbye
he still has my key
i still have his knot
i cant wait to see paul when i get home
i dont know what to do
i dont know what to think
who knows what he will do
he has probly thrown my key away and forgotten everything
but what if he hasnt
maybe i should live that way anyways
i dont know what to do
i just want to go to sleep
and i will once i get on that bus
it is time to go home
goodbye rexburg
i love you but i need to go home and put myself back together
i didnt really say goodbye to anyone
maybe its better this way
leave no attachment
did i mention that i am sooooo ready to see paul again
i will be in tx at 540pm soooo that would be in like 14 hours and 5 min hah!
<3 Erin Christina
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
i like this poem
Happiness is finding a pencil.
Pizza with sausage.
Telling time;
Happiness is learning to whistle.
Tying your shoe for the very first time.
Happiness is playing the drum in your own school band.
Happiness is walking hand in hand.
Happiness is two kinds of ice cream.
Knowing a secret.
Climbing a tree.
Happiness is five different crayons.
Catching a firefly.
Setting him free.
Happiness is having a sister.
Sharing a sandwich.
Getting along.
Happiness is singing together when day is through.
And happiness is those who sing with you.
<3 Erin Christina
Pizza with sausage.
Telling time;
Happiness is learning to whistle.
Tying your shoe for the very first time.
Happiness is playing the drum in your own school band.
Happiness is walking hand in hand.
Happiness is two kinds of ice cream.
Knowing a secret.
Climbing a tree.
Happiness is five different crayons.
Catching a firefly.
Setting him free.
Happiness is having a sister.
Sharing a sandwich.
Getting along.
Happiness is singing together when day is through.
And happiness is those who sing with you.
<3 Erin Christina
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
time before class
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. why try to say no to the wonders of chocolate. It is proven that a bit a day is good for you. When having a bad day just sit down and eat a chocolate bar. the only time it gets bad is when you cant controle. But really, do resist the nice things in life, you deserve to treat yourself every once in a while.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present. There has been far to many times that I have had my past come to get me. The best things in life will be messed up when you have scelletions in your clothset. keep everything up to date and dont leave anything unfinshed.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. We have all been sent here for the same resason but we are all different people. dont compare your life to someone elses for God knows all and give each of us the trial we need. No one will be tested above what they can handle. And saying that your life is to hard and someone else has it easy is kinda saying that God is wrong and messed up in giving things to people. Your life is richly blessed, count your blessings and be happy for what you have. "the grass is always greener" someone else is looking at you thinking the same. love your life for what you have, dont hate it for someone else.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it. Dont waste your time worrying about someone finding something out. you will spend more time worring then you will actully enjoying what you have. I make a point to tell those around me whats going on, because i know that when i try to hide everything nothing is better it just makes everything worse.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks. I find this comforting. yes everything can change in the blink of an eye. one minute this is this and then the next this is that. in a world that is always changing and always moving we have a God that never changes. he is the same now and forever. As evertyhing around us is changing God is there watching over and controling it all. He knows what is going to happen and has the whole map view when we only see what is right in frount of us. Dont worry. Take comfort. God wont let anything that is not supposed to happen happen.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind. I am often stressed and crazy because of school and all that other fun stuff that goes on in life. the best thing i have found is no matter how much there is to do that you have to stop and relax. everyone always tells me just take a break and it will all be ok. I hate leaving things undone but it really does help. when the world seem to be crashing down, stop, take a deep breath, and then slowly exhale all the bad out of your system. you will be suprised that with true intent how great the deep breath can be.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. Dont waste your time on things that are hurting you. If you cant use it, then dont keep it, clutter will only help stress become bad. Dont let ugly clutter up your life and dont keep anything around that doesnt make you happy. If something in your life is just bringing you down and not helpping you live a happy life, dont keep it. you should always be looking out for your well being and when you are sad and depressed and stressed all the time its not healthy. so get rid of anything that is stopping you from being happy and living life how you want to.
my lappy disks should get here. so after my dance test i get to go home get those and take my lappy into the help desk then take a test and do lots and lots of hw ... but i will be home in like 2 weeks and 5 days!! how cool is that!!
<3 Erin Christina
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present. There has been far to many times that I have had my past come to get me. The best things in life will be messed up when you have scelletions in your clothset. keep everything up to date and dont leave anything unfinshed.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. We have all been sent here for the same resason but we are all different people. dont compare your life to someone elses for God knows all and give each of us the trial we need. No one will be tested above what they can handle. And saying that your life is to hard and someone else has it easy is kinda saying that God is wrong and messed up in giving things to people. Your life is richly blessed, count your blessings and be happy for what you have. "the grass is always greener" someone else is looking at you thinking the same. love your life for what you have, dont hate it for someone else.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it. Dont waste your time worrying about someone finding something out. you will spend more time worring then you will actully enjoying what you have. I make a point to tell those around me whats going on, because i know that when i try to hide everything nothing is better it just makes everything worse.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks. I find this comforting. yes everything can change in the blink of an eye. one minute this is this and then the next this is that. in a world that is always changing and always moving we have a God that never changes. he is the same now and forever. As evertyhing around us is changing God is there watching over and controling it all. He knows what is going to happen and has the whole map view when we only see what is right in frount of us. Dont worry. Take comfort. God wont let anything that is not supposed to happen happen.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind. I am often stressed and crazy because of school and all that other fun stuff that goes on in life. the best thing i have found is no matter how much there is to do that you have to stop and relax. everyone always tells me just take a break and it will all be ok. I hate leaving things undone but it really does help. when the world seem to be crashing down, stop, take a deep breath, and then slowly exhale all the bad out of your system. you will be suprised that with true intent how great the deep breath can be.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. Dont waste your time on things that are hurting you. If you cant use it, then dont keep it, clutter will only help stress become bad. Dont let ugly clutter up your life and dont keep anything around that doesnt make you happy. If something in your life is just bringing you down and not helpping you live a happy life, dont keep it. you should always be looking out for your well being and when you are sad and depressed and stressed all the time its not healthy. so get rid of anything that is stopping you from being happy and living life how you want to.
my lappy disks should get here. so after my dance test i get to go home get those and take my lappy into the help desk then take a test and do lots and lots of hw ... but i will be home in like 2 weeks and 5 days!! how cool is that!!
<3 Erin Christina
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Thoughts
i got rid of some of them but these are insites that i have from my personal life about these.
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. Not all the time does everything work out the way we want it to. But doesnt something great come from everything. it may take a while, I know that from all my trails and hardships i have found joy.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step. No matter what, you cant stand still in life. Everything is always changing and if you hold still you will have so many opertunities pass you by. Even if it is one tiny little step take it, something great could come from it. If you arnt sure, try, who knows it could be the best choice you ever made.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Think of all the time you have sat there wishing that someone would just die. you spend your time down because of what someone has done to you, when you could of been spending that time enjoying life and having fun. Really life is too short to waste time. Live each moment to the fullest and dont care what anyone else is doing or saying. It is your life!! dont let any one else tell you how to live it!
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. dont forget what really matters in life. What would life be without friends and family. jobs and places come and go but no matter what your friends, you TRUE friends will always be there for you. your family and friends will always be there for you to fall back on. They are the main reason i go home from school when i can. There have been times is life when i have let school and work come in the way of everything, but what fun is life if you dont share it with the people you love.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. I know that in my life i LOVE havingthe last word in things. I just have to be right and win, i think i get it from my dad. i look back and think of how much more time and i would of had in my life and things i would of done and less fights i would have been in if i had just given in and agreeded to dissagee. you wont always get along and agree with everyone in the world. we all have differnt opinions and we should respect them, and we could even learn from them as well.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. There is just something different about crying in my room alone and crying with someone. It helps to know that you are not alone in this, that others know what you are going through and have gone through it too. so instead of putting yourself through all the painand going through the dark world alone open to someone and they will be there for you and hold you through it all.
thats all the time i have for now ... check back later for more insites ... i have to take care of some school stuff and see what i can do about taking some classes back home over the brake.
<3 Erin Christina
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. Not all the time does everything work out the way we want it to. But doesnt something great come from everything. it may take a while, I know that from all my trails and hardships i have found joy.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step. No matter what, you cant stand still in life. Everything is always changing and if you hold still you will have so many opertunities pass you by. Even if it is one tiny little step take it, something great could come from it. If you arnt sure, try, who knows it could be the best choice you ever made.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Think of all the time you have sat there wishing that someone would just die. you spend your time down because of what someone has done to you, when you could of been spending that time enjoying life and having fun. Really life is too short to waste time. Live each moment to the fullest and dont care what anyone else is doing or saying. It is your life!! dont let any one else tell you how to live it!
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. dont forget what really matters in life. What would life be without friends and family. jobs and places come and go but no matter what your friends, you TRUE friends will always be there for you. your family and friends will always be there for you to fall back on. They are the main reason i go home from school when i can. There have been times is life when i have let school and work come in the way of everything, but what fun is life if you dont share it with the people you love.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. I know that in my life i LOVE havingthe last word in things. I just have to be right and win, i think i get it from my dad. i look back and think of how much more time and i would of had in my life and things i would of done and less fights i would have been in if i had just given in and agreeded to dissagee. you wont always get along and agree with everyone in the world. we all have differnt opinions and we should respect them, and we could even learn from them as well.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. There is just something different about crying in my room alone and crying with someone. It helps to know that you are not alone in this, that others know what you are going through and have gone through it too. so instead of putting yourself through all the painand going through the dark world alone open to someone and they will be there for you and hold you through it all.
thats all the time i have for now ... check back later for more insites ... i have to take care of some school stuff and see what i can do about taking some classes back home over the brake.
<3 Erin Christina
Great Email
I got this email from my grandma. it was a forward but it had some really good pointers on life.
i will post it now and then come back after my class since my philosophy of Education class is cancaled today and write more about it since i have an hour to burn between the classes.
i do plan to take these pointers into my life .. great insight i think!!
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's,we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
<3 Erin Christina
i will post it now and then come back after my class since my philosophy of Education class is cancaled today and write more about it since i have an hour to burn between the classes.
i do plan to take these pointers into my life .. great insight i think!!
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's,we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
<3 Erin Christina
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