Blessed

My life is blessed and I have to remember that.  I know my Heavenly Father hasa plan for me.  My life is full of stess thinking about the future and I have to remember that what is most important is right now.  I have fears of my plans not working out.  I remember when I was a little kid thinking I would of had my happily ever after by now, but now I dont want it.  Funny how much we all grow up in different ways and dreams and wants change.  I thought I would be going to BYU, I am going to graduate from BYU-IDAHO.  I was going to be the world greatest singer (hah, like that would of ever happened) a choir teacher, but now I am going to be an elementary school teacher.  I am in charge of teaching the next generation. 
I like the direction my life is going in.  Last year was a horrible year full of pain and depression.  I am back on the right path and both feet planted on the ground.  Nothing is going to take me aways from what I have my mind set twords.  The end is in sight.  I can see it.  I have been told my plan for next semester is basicly suiside and I am so scared.  But I know with the Lord I can do it.

I am so excited next week Courtney finds out what the baby is.  I remember when we were all little and we have all grown up.  I look at my brothers and I am so happy that they are a great exsample for me. 
Jonathan graduates from his school in May.  I am so proud of him. 

Every year I go home and I hate it and find it pointless for me to be home and wish I could be up at school and be done by now.  I know why I went home this last year.  I grew so much in my family.  I finally felt like I was part of the family and accepted.  I grew so much closer to Ryan and there had always been that huge gap between us. 

I am still scared to death about what the future holds, because the end of school is in sight but I cant see what is between now and then and I cant see what comes next.  But isnt that the beauty of life. 

I love my anti-social school work life. I would not change my life for anything.  I am blessed.

<3  Erin Christina

Oh

Change of plans...I am anti-social until July.

Sorry for the lack of posting life got crazy.
In Idaho.
In school.
Scared to death already about not graduating in July.

I will try to post a better post about everything sometime this week.
I will also try to post AT LEAST once a week about everything going on. 
If I dont post, I am probly dead.  Ok not really but dead to the world.

<3  Erin Christina

Just gotta go with the flow

I try to be the best I can be in all I do and say.
I try to remember the things the hurt me and brought me down so I wont do those things over again.
What doesnt kill me will make me stronger.

I am so excited for friday.  I have a lot to do this week. 
I am scared to leave again, I have no idea what this next year will bring.  But I know Heavenly Father has a plan and I cant wait to find out what is in store.

Also I love my friends.  They are pretty much the greatest thing in my life.  I am so happy that a lot of those amazing guys are comming back to school this year after returning home from their missions and I can't wait to meet all the new people I will meet.

I am happy that there is so much out of my way that will not hold me back from finally living my life this year.  No more locking myself in my room, being anti-social, unknown pain, crappy sicknesses.  On that note .. I didnt get sick this last month! Yay!!  So happy I didnt have to deal with throwing up again.  The pain is still there but it isnt as prohibitting as it has been in the past. 

So here is to life.  Just go with the flow.  Live laugh love.

<3  Erin Christina

3 weeks

3 weeks from today I should be back in Rexburg. 
My senior year.
Lots and lots of stuff that will be going on.
needless to say school and the thought of "what if"s are weighing down on me.

I love this season.  It isnt about gifts or parties.  It is about family and friends.  I am so happy and blessed to be spending all the time that I am with my family.  Enjoying treditions.

Also it is about the birth of my savior Jesus Christ.  It made everything possible.

This week I work work work.  and need to start packing packing packing. 

I love my life.

"lifes what you make it"

<3  Erin Christina

keep it on the DL

want to know something ...

I am scared.

<3  Erin Christina

One Month

Well I have 4 weeks till I leave Texas.  3 weeks and 6 days till I am done with work.  4 weeks and 2 days till I head on back to Rexburg. 

My body is just so tired.  I hate this weather because as it keeps changing I keep being sick.  Man I have a crappy immune system.

Not much to talk about here.  Christmas is all perchased and I just have to wrap everything.  I cannot wait to spend the time with my family.  Strange, how I used to hate it, but now I look forward to when they come.

Hmmm well I guess that is everything.

<3  Erin Christina

update.

I have been lacking.  Life has just been getting away with me.  Working all the time and hardly making anything.  I really dont think I am going to have enough for school.  Babysitting a lot.  Falling way behind on my online class.  Picking up hours at work when I can.  Spending time with my amazing sister-in-laws. 

I love this season though!  It means a lot to me.  The whole meaning of thanksgiving and christmas.  I have so much to be thankful for and I want to anything and everything for those that I love.  I am not even making enough for school and yet I want to get my family something so nice each for christmas. 

...really all I want for christmas is for tuition and books to get paid for.  I hate how my life revolves around me being stressed about money.  I want to enjoy life.  I dont even hang out with friends due to the fact that gas costs me a lot of money and  I want to go as long as I can without having to fill up.

My best friend moved home on monday.  It is friday and I havent seen her.  I fail as a friend.

I am a super impulsive shoe and movie buyer (the movie this just started...addicted to $5/$9 movies at walmart)  and it is starting to really hurt me.  I think I am going to start just not carrying any money around with me. 

I have a lot of things I need to get accompished before the end of december (including my finger printing that I have put off WAY TOO LONG, they sent it to me in Aug I think.)

Well I am going to go help set up Christmas.  Change the oil in my car with my amazing brother when he comes over.  AND babysit whenever that is done.

<3  Erin Christina