Nutrition and Diet

I had to teach on that last thursday in class ... we had to write about the unit and what we learned from out labs on thursday for our assinment. this is what I learned.

In my lesson I put in how men and woman were different in how they are faced in the world with diet. I know that more women than men suffer from eating disorders. I told a little bit of an exsample in my lesson on how the world can really affect us in how we look and want to look. I said it was a friend who it happened to, but really it was me. I felt like I couldn't really teach this lesson while I was preparing for it, that I wasn't good enough. The day I made this lesson, through out the whole day, I had eaten 4 peaces of toast and 1 can of greenbeans. I know that I need to be eating like I am teaching but it truly is hard. It opened my eyes to the fact that even teachers aren't perfect. I fell into an eating disorder my Jr. year of high school, tired to fight it my Sr. year, and I still fall every now and than. It is even harder that I am at school, and I find every excuse not to be eating. I have made myself SO sick sometimes from what I do. Preparing this lesson has started to help me again. I was on my way back down and I am slowly pulling myself out of it again. I haven't been taken care of my body at all. I was given this body by my Heavenly Father and I treat it like nothing important at all. I have to get better, I know I can't let the world win, and I know I am not the only one going through this, and I know it is not only women either, men suffer too, its a big thing and we all nee to help remind each other and help each other though life in all that we do.

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i miss mike
a lot
texted him all through church
hoping he comes back with good news and not sad news
i got a text last night from him
and i acidently deleted it at church today bc i ran out of space in my inbox
but it said something alone the lines of
goodnight sunshine i miss you. sleep well. miss you and cant wait to be back there and holding you in my arms. i have something i need to talk to you about.... and there was more but i cant really remember bc the main part was the i need to talk to you that stuck out .. bc, well, that can never mean anything good, but the rest of the text made it all sound good
i just miss him and want him back here and hope that its good news he brings back to me ..


<3 Erin Christina

what a beautiful day

iwent to the temple today. LOVED IT!! I left feeling amaizng!! i dont think i have ever felt so wonderful about where my life it, and me feeling so confident in everythning just makes me more scared about Mike comming back home and what he and his mom will talk about. I really like him so so so so much.

anyways. life is so great. i love the temple, i love my roommates, i am crazy about a boy that i cant wait for him to get back here.

there was stuff i thought about while i was in the temple but i cant remember what i was going to type here.

Kayla comes in tomorrow night. i am excited to see her but kinda sad that she wont get to meet mike.

life is just great. i love life! 12 days till i am home for ryans wedding!!

Im sry i am not making much sence right now i guess.



<3 Erin Christina

4 day weekend

its kinda scary to know that this weekend can make or brake everything. I really like mike .. he left this morning for home for the long weekend. I probly wont see him till tuesday depending on when he gets back monday night. When he is at home he is going to talk to his mom ... and thats about all i know. its kinda scary.
i like him a lot. i really havent ever felt this way about a guy before.

i didnt make it to the temple today becuase i wanted to get a hw assiment done and now its to late to make it there, but tomorrow morning, monday morning and tuesday morning i will make it there.

lets see, dont know much else i have to say for now. i think now i will try to get more hw done, so that i can relax all weekend!!

nothing better than a 4 days weekend and a 3 day school week even when the guy that you are totally smitten over is gone for it!! ^_^



<3 Erin Christina

this week

i dont want it to end. friday morning Michael is leaving to go home for the long weekend. its going to suck!!
i like being with him, i enjoy every min i get to be with him and look forward to getting to see him when we are not together. how big of a sap am i?!!!!!!! oh well i dont care. all i know is i do really really like this boy. He makes me smile, i think we fit so well. he has over come so much in his life and he is a strength to me. we all have our pasts and we all have our faults, but with me, none of that really matters. its who you are now, inside and out, and this boy, i want to keep. he is what i want.


its supposed to be 85 outside today ... and i have so much hw ... i want to play outside ... grrrr ... hw should go die, no i dont want antoher 3 hour night ever again!! blah!


well till latter, i have to pull a halfa page refection on my week paper out of my butt!!!


<3 Erin Christina

Im Probly Crazy

But I know what I want
and I am waiting for him to know what he wants.
He goes home next weekend for the 4 day weekend. and when he comes back, then my answer will be there.
I have never fallen so hard and so fast for someone. I have never felt so safe with someone, and I have never wanted to not screw up so bad with someone. I have never been so scared about my feelings before, ever.
I want to be with Michael, I want to be with him. I just have to wait for him, and I will. Oh goodness ... I am crazy ... crazy for him ... I really truely am.


speeking of him, tonight is the first night all week that I wont get to spend like all day with, oh well, will give me time to..to..to..to do something, a guy shouldnt be my everything.

ps. i gave him the key. yes. I did. He gave me one of the kelitic knots he is always wearing that means protect and he took my chain and put it on there and put my key on his chain. Another crazy thing is, ever after he left last night I felt safe, now instead of him leaving and me feeling so alone, I am not anymore. Even when he isnt here, he is. ^_^



<3 Erin Christina

I have Fallen

and i dont want to get up. I dont know where he came from .. or when he came, but he is here and this one i never want to leave. I dont. I have never ever ever felt so strongly about something before. We kissed tonight and it just assured me .. i dont ever want to be left by him. I feel so strange with him not even being here right now.
I am smitten. Not going to lie I was standing there just wanting him to say the words, to make us offishal and to assure me that he wasnt going anywhere. I dont really care, i want to be his.
Its scary that I have never felt this way before but i do .. i do feel this way and well .. I could be crazy, but if i am, i want to be, i love it.

All i can say is i have never felt this way before. Its scary, but i have to face my feelings. I have never felt so right being in someones arms. I have never felt so strongly and so sure that i dont want to be let go, that i dont want to lose someone, that well, i always want to be with that person. I know i sound crazy bc i have known him for 4 weeks and i have only been on like a dating level for 1 week, but i cant stop what my heart feels, and yes..its feeling!!

but i got to get some sleep...i have hw to finsh in the morning ^_^

good night everyone


<3 Erin Christina