Monday, June 20, 2011
Friday Fun
So this last Friday we randomly dressed up and took some photos. Of course I played around with these photos too why wouldn't I? Nothing makes you feel better then when you edits photos of yourself that make you look even better then what you really look like. I know there are quite a few but I love them.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
What is better then homework
Spent yesterday watching STAR WARS <3 also did a bunch of photo editing here are photo shots from our roommate picture night.
Happy Daddy Day
Happy Fathers days to my one and only daddy! I love and miss him soooo much!!
<3 Erin Christina
Saturday, June 18, 2011
I have a Nephew
Orry William Elliott was born on June 16, 2011. 7lbs 10oz and 19.5in long. I am so happy for Jonathan and Courtney. I get to meet this sweet little boy in 6 weeks. I cannot believe I have 6 weeks left of school!! CRAZY! <3
Pictures dad sent me to my email. I have some on my phone but it is a hassle to copy off the internet and save then upload so it was easier tot use these. Orry and Grandma Elliott (my mom!!)
<3 Erin Christina
<3 Erin Christina
I am Loved
Saturday June 11th I retook the Praxis PLT but that wasn't the only thing that happened that day.
Jenn had come up to visit me so her and I woke up on Saturday morning and got up and ate and watched cartoons because we are cool like that. There was a knock at the door...it was a package for me that should not of gotten here for another week!! It was from my aunt in Canada with candy and a Canadian Flag. It made my morning. I went to take the PLT and while I sitting there waiting for the 1st section to be done I met another girl that had failed the PLT by 3 points too. While taking the test I noticed two of the scenarios were the same from the last test..this time I made sure to kick its butt! I left the test feeling good. When I got home there was a letter from Kris!! I was so excited and happy!! and inside the letter was $3 with a sticky note saying this is for pictures..or milk and eggs if you need that more. So later that day Jenn and I went around town and got some pics to send to him. I went to my neighbors apt to return a movie I borrowed the night before and my visiting teachers..who live there..told me they had a surprise for me. I didn't do anything but they gave me something for just making it through my Praxis.
The whole day was just a wonderful day. I loved having Jenn visit Friday-Wednesday. I don't know what I would of done without her here. She really helped me through a lot and I know that I do have a best friend and that people do love me and I can always get through anything and everything. I really do love my life. It can be hard at times but we can always get through them.
I know my Heavenly Father loves me.
PS. I got my student teaching placement. Temple View Elementary School in Idaho Falls. 3rd Grade. I am pretty excited!!
<3 Erin Christina
Jenn had come up to visit me so her and I woke up on Saturday morning and got up and ate and watched cartoons because we are cool like that. There was a knock at the door...it was a package for me that should not of gotten here for another week!! It was from my aunt in Canada with candy and a Canadian Flag. It made my morning. I went to take the PLT and while I sitting there waiting for the 1st section to be done I met another girl that had failed the PLT by 3 points too. While taking the test I noticed two of the scenarios were the same from the last test..this time I made sure to kick its butt! I left the test feeling good. When I got home there was a letter from Kris!! I was so excited and happy!! and inside the letter was $3 with a sticky note saying this is for pictures..or milk and eggs if you need that more. So later that day Jenn and I went around town and got some pics to send to him. I went to my neighbors apt to return a movie I borrowed the night before and my visiting teachers..who live there..told me they had a surprise for me. I didn't do anything but they gave me something for just making it through my Praxis.
When I went to upload the cd into itunes it was going in as just tracks so I put a title on the cd as I am Loved and the first song that played was You Are Loved by Josh Groban. I wanted to start crying. I really felt totally and completely blessed and the whole cd is of songs that remind me that I am loved and that people are there for me and just happy amazing songs.
I know my Heavenly Father loves me.
PS. I got my student teaching placement. Temple View Elementary School in Idaho Falls. 3rd Grade. I am pretty excited!!
<3 Erin Christina
Thursday, June 9, 2011
I know that my Heavenly Father Loves Me
My home teachers just came over and gave me a blessing of comfort and of strength. A reminder that Heavenly Father has never and will never leave my side. He has been with me through every decision I have made and will continue to do so through the ones I have been making. A reminder that everyone around me does love me and cares about me. A blessing of a sharp mind to remember all that I have learned. The comfort is amazing. The strength is amazing. The Power of the Priesthood is uncompilable to anything on this earth. It isn't just some guy telling me everything will be alright but a blessing directly from my Heavenly Father to me. I know my Heavenly Father loves me. I know that the church is true. I know that with faith anything is possible. So many of those fears of Saturday are long gone. I know I can do this and my Heavenly Father wont leave me alone on this. He will be there with me on Saturday, cheering me on.
<3 Erin Christina
<3 Erin Christina
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Tears
..of stress
..of pain
..of fears
..of doubts
..of what ifs
..of everything that Satan wants me thinking of.
Where is the happiness that I know I should have in my heart. The care free feeling a Senior should be having. I should be excited about graduation and yet I am doubting and fearing and asking what if I don't make it.
This Praxis has a grip on my heart that I keep trying to get away from. Bawl my eyes out every night just thinking about it and all the effects that it will have whatever the out come may be. I have taken it once already and failed by 3 points. What if I was Lucky it was only three, what if I just had an unreliable grader and I should of passed. I should not be thinking of these things but I am a pro at beating myself up from the inside out. All my life educationally there have been a few things I struggle with. We all know I cannot spell to save my life and I cant take tests and more so then just tests timed tests, pressured tests. I hate taking tests in the testing center. I am out of my environment. Timed tests I don't have time to think I think I have to finish this or I am screwed. I barely finished the Praxis last time.
It is just not that either. Though this does make or break everything I have planed for my future. But Ryan and Ashleigh had their 2 year anniversary on Monday. Jonathan and Courtney are having little baby Orry William Elliott any day now. Then there is me. single, alone, far away, and may not even finish college because of one test. Everyone is getting married, having babies, falling in love and I hate that I have a sinking feeling that I just might not get that in my life. I have already started copping with that fact. You know it is so scary that Heavenly Father knows everything and I don't, I know nothing. I have plans that keep getting changed on me. I threw my motto out the window and opened my heart back up, opened my back up to everyone and what do I find..pain and tears. I was doing so much fine hiding. Nothing has changed at all. Yes I feel a huge weight lifted off. Like Mike can't hinder me anymore. But here comes the real Satan in to manipulate the scares deep inside.
Needless to say I feel so afraid and lost in the dark. Praying and pleading for the help but feeling like this has to be something I have to get through on my own, He knows that I still wont listen. It is me that will forever beat myself up for everything and anything I can find to put on myself.
I asked my home teachers for a blessing on Sunday that I will be getting either tomorrow night of Friday afternoon and really that is what I am holding on to. Knowing I will get that and a blessing from my Heavenly Father for comfort and strength. I can't take this test and get on with the semester on my own. I feel like even with just my prayers there is still too much fear holding me back.
<3 Erin Christina
..of pain
..of fears
..of doubts
..of what ifs
..of everything that Satan wants me thinking of.
Where is the happiness that I know I should have in my heart. The care free feeling a Senior should be having. I should be excited about graduation and yet I am doubting and fearing and asking what if I don't make it.
This Praxis has a grip on my heart that I keep trying to get away from. Bawl my eyes out every night just thinking about it and all the effects that it will have whatever the out come may be. I have taken it once already and failed by 3 points. What if I was Lucky it was only three, what if I just had an unreliable grader and I should of passed. I should not be thinking of these things but I am a pro at beating myself up from the inside out. All my life educationally there have been a few things I struggle with. We all know I cannot spell to save my life and I cant take tests and more so then just tests timed tests, pressured tests. I hate taking tests in the testing center. I am out of my environment. Timed tests I don't have time to think I think I have to finish this or I am screwed. I barely finished the Praxis last time.
It is just not that either. Though this does make or break everything I have planed for my future. But Ryan and Ashleigh had their 2 year anniversary on Monday. Jonathan and Courtney are having little baby Orry William Elliott any day now. Then there is me. single, alone, far away, and may not even finish college because of one test. Everyone is getting married, having babies, falling in love and I hate that I have a sinking feeling that I just might not get that in my life. I have already started copping with that fact. You know it is so scary that Heavenly Father knows everything and I don't, I know nothing. I have plans that keep getting changed on me. I threw my motto out the window and opened my heart back up, opened my back up to everyone and what do I find..pain and tears. I was doing so much fine hiding. Nothing has changed at all. Yes I feel a huge weight lifted off. Like Mike can't hinder me anymore. But here comes the real Satan in to manipulate the scares deep inside.
Needless to say I feel so afraid and lost in the dark. Praying and pleading for the help but feeling like this has to be something I have to get through on my own, He knows that I still wont listen. It is me that will forever beat myself up for everything and anything I can find to put on myself.
I asked my home teachers for a blessing on Sunday that I will be getting either tomorrow night of Friday afternoon and really that is what I am holding on to. Knowing I will get that and a blessing from my Heavenly Father for comfort and strength. I can't take this test and get on with the semester on my own. I feel like even with just my prayers there is still too much fear holding me back.
<3 Erin Christina
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